Me, myself and i

Farewell Weekend, Hola Monday~

2011-01-17T16:16:00.003+08:00

Yes yes, im updating despite that i didnt have much of a weekend anyway =.= Saturday was spent at work, and yes it was a FULL day which ended at abt 7plus x.x Went home and did wat i normally during the weekdays, logged in Steps and afk-ed while i bathed and have my dinner (and yes in that order lol...kinda sad i knw >.>)

Am seriously wondering why im such an afker there when i almost nvr did it in Audi lols, played alot in audi but yea, nvr afk-ed longer than my gameplay time ever in my whole audi life ~_~

Anywayyyy, slept late, as in wee early morning late kind, went to Jp class in the morning *dies in class coz sensei kept picking on me to answer >.> i wonder if its coz he saw me dozing off zzzz*

Came home, played a few rds after lunch and concussed the entire afternoon lmao :x Must admit, kinda enjoyed it :p with the cloudy/drizzling afternoon...lublub! Woke up and ended up couldnt sleep till early morning again ..fml. Think i had abt 2hrs sleep last nite and am currently hearing voices in my head =/ It sounds like my pc fan on its dying day @________@;;

And so there we have it, my sad excuse of a weekend which left me more tired than my normal weekdays, Oh God, CNY come soon and rescue me from all this.... CNY songs are just killing me at work ~_~

On a much happier note, i finally got my vid in Steps recorded!! Thank to Jon ♥♥ Ur the sweetest lol :D And also for doin 8K Sweet Mode with me, love the moves lor ~!

Pretty right? ♥

Lol, ok la, back to work if i wanna finish on time today, my head really feels like its gonna explode at any time.. dam those migraines :(

Tatas!

Happy TGIF?

2011-01-14T17:51:00.006+08:00

Hmmm, well this would have made me very happy normally, the "jump out of my pants/skirt" kind of happy? Sadly, it would only apply to the weekends that i DONT have to work ~_~

In the case of this weekend... i do. Dam it.

Too many orders to work on and all rushing to move in fr CNY which coincidentally just so happens to be at the very beginning of the month. It has its pro n cons, biggest pro would be, CNY is coming soon!! My week long holiday of slacking like an arse at home.. yes, that IS my plan. No way ima go out coz its gonna be so friggin hot >.>

But before my enjoyment begins, ill hv to suffer the weeks away 1st, abt 2 weeks, plus minus lol :S that is if im still alive by then.. (its funny hw i hv a lot of deathly moment due to work....bt then its becoz i really really doooo D:)

My table is currently swamped with neverending stuff which always comes in and rarely gets out.. i mean they are done, but nvr done? If u got the idea, good -applause-, if u dont, then wtv...LOL..im sorry, woe is me today :x

PLUS the fact that despite having so much to do, im still nodding off at my desk even after 3 cups of coffee for the day, im still having trouble staying awake. I swear ima die of caffeine overdose sooner than expected at this rate...Geezzz.. but then again I blame the late nights....solely on me :s I know i shd sleep earlier, bt my earlier always ends up after 3...sometimes 4...rofl :x

I will sleep early tonite....! I will....? *pouts*

Gimme my bed or keel me! D:

Alert! Run time error!

2011-01-13T18:07:00.003+08:00

Im feeling so fucked up at work, right now! This very moment. I could almost screamed my lungs out and it still wont show hw fked up i feel =.=

I hate deadlines. Especially with so many of them at one time. Hate!

Yes, im being bitter and angry, bite me. I have every right to at this particular FML moment! Im so bombarded with work then my brain stopped me from doing anything more and come in here to rant my anger away lest i shd suddenly self combust while attempting to FINISH all my work >.>

Whats worse, i come in to find my chatbox spammed with junk again! Argh!

Thats it, ima bitter woman today, nuf' said. =\

Hiee!! :x

2011-01-10T15:22:00.004+08:00

Happy New Year Peeps!?!?

Lol, i know im abit too late to wish...well like abt 10days late but hey, better late than never they say right? I actually had an earlier post with the exact same beginning and well, it kinda died after the 3rd sentence lol :x So pray hard that this post actually gets posted ya? ;)

So, whats with the lack of updates and well seemingly disappearing act from me? I dunno D: Been getting kinda lazy and slacking in alot of areas of my life lol ~_~ Also Steps has been taking up more of my time lately, even if i dont play, i just log in for fks lmao... yes, i am a boring person, bite me. Esp now that i just had a "baby" in there LOL! Yes, u heard me right, i actually am a "mom" in Steps lol... Too cute :D took some pics too, but am currently bloggin from work, so dont have them with me harhar :p

And seriously, been having less than 5hrs sleep each day, wow, feels like a real mom eh? Lolzors >.>

So what else have i been up to? Not much sadly, tho i feel ive changed alot in terms of my perspective of relationships and life itself. Im more nonchalant and slightly more playful lol....yes, meaning i tend to flirt a little more than i used to. But hey, thats the fun part right? Not knowing what happens and just having fun? Lol...i sound so fun-deprived eh? ._.

In summary? Im having the time of my life :) minus the commitments that is...:p

But im not closed up to maybe's k? Right now, im just enjoyin the attn im getting and who knows maybe one of it might make me wanna go further? Im not closed to the chances of tht happening nor am i hoping or expecting that it will :) No expectations, less disappointment?

New Years Resolution - lose some friggin weight tmd... Not for anyone but myself lol, ive been putting it off for too long nw sheesh ~_~ Its not that i dont love myself now, hell i love myself to bits kay, just wouldnt kill to look the part too :p

Also! mum's been recently hinting that i shd go over to the UK's lol...imagine, life without the family...tempting isnt it? Very much i must say, tho i try not to act overly enthu abt it.. lmao :x But yeah, i see that happening soon in my life, prolly b4 the middle of the year, kinda gives me something to look forward to, and a GOAL! Heee XDD (dam u moo for making me randomly hee nowadays =.=)

Lets see...what else..? Oh yea, work has been EXHAUSTING lately, ever since December and now into January, its been kinda non stop work frm the time i step in till almost 7plus everyday *mutters* Workload has been crazy, what with the deadlines, deadlines and more deadlines to meet -dies- The only thing thats keeping me sane for now is the CNY hols which im hoping will come soon else i shd kill myself 1st lol... cries for help? Hmmmm, maybe D:

Guess thats about it for now, cant really think much, tho i know i shd have plenty to update about...hmmm...kinda need to go back to work before im discovered to be snaking for abit and loose my bonus T_T And lotsa pics! Which im too lazy to get to when i finally reach home :s

AND, my banner is still missing, due to my laziness to scour the 4 corners of the earth for it :x *sighs*

Ciaoz yo~!

..and then came Thursday

2010-12-16T10:44:00.009+08:00

Well well, looks who's decided to come back to blogger? Moi of coz lol :p I figure after a week of delaying the inevitable, i shd just get it over with it....updating my blog i mean ;) Not to mention the constant reminders that i have NOT been updating...pfffts, i just aint got no motivation darlings D:

Ima try anyway... So lets see what my current world has been revolving ard (other than my pc and chair - as commented by mum >_>) ...

Well for one, i finally completed my Elementary Jp as of ytd and had a fml moment when the sensei gave a test for it. Hmmmm.. alot of kanjis which im thinking i might actually die horribly in that section but shd be able to make up for it in the other sections....i hope x.x

SO! Will begin my journey as an intermediate jp language student as of next month...yay me! As for now, im yay-ing the fact that i have 2 weeks off from classes.. YAY! :X Im so gonna enjoy xmas this year.. heee :D

Yes it IS a good thing, considering tht i have work on this coming Saturday, sad but kinda true ~_~ its times like this i really wish Xmas would come soooon else i shall drag my lifeless body to work every single day till that day finally arrives :(

Well peeps, this post might be shorter than anticipated coz im suddenly blank with no pics to help my poor soul >_> Fyi, its also been 2 days since i started and im still not done T_T Maybe i shd quit blogging alltogether *cries* - note the futile attempt in prolonging this post by my sad whining? lol D:

Shall make this my very short post coz ive been bugged to post since, well, forever? Even tho this is gonna be an incomplete post *cringes* i guess it will do, for now :D

Ok, moving on to my next saved draft! :x

P.s. Please applause or maybe gimme a standing ovation coz it was really sweat and tears that came with this post....LOL! Pffts ._.

Booyah!

2010-12-09T18:20:00.007+08:00

Me thinks me wanna try this out someday :D

LOL! :X

Totally random i know...but was feeling abit on the adventurous side... :S Actually saw it on tv during lunch and just felt like trying it lmao. Saw it a few times on tv le, and was always curious...tho i cant remember which country has it dy... Maybe ill puke my guts out on the way down x.x Hmmm, maybe ill shd try bungee jumping instead... which also also result in the puking of me guts >_> Finee!

One more day to the weekends! Jyjyjy me to make it in one piece so i can actually enjoy it D:

Note to all: Any phone calls to jio me out will only result in my nt answering yr calls. LOL :X Jk la...u knw i lub you guys ;)

Oh ya, ytd after JP class, me, sis and another friend were the last to leave and my sensei suddenly said to me.."Mag san, ur always so happy, i can always hear ur laughter in class" ..i went "uhh? is that bad? x.x" .... He said "No, its very good" ... Heee :DDD or is he saying im very luan in class ah? T_T

Happy is good ma, right? ;)

Woots! I can actually pang kang dy! Hurhur, its been an exhaustingly long day and alot of orders coming in for Xmas and CNY... so gonna be abit busy ba :S But, ill survive!

Ok, me is gonna cabut cabut balik liao~ Matane!

P.s. Happy Birthday again baby! :3 Hope u have a great time tonite even if im nt there to celebrate with you :( Loves!!

EXAMS OVER!! :D

2010-12-06T16:54:00.008+08:00

Weeee!! Im finally free from exams!! *cheers cheers!* :DDDD

Finally got over my JLPT (Japanese Language Profiency Test) ytd heeee :p Even tho my weekend was spent working on Sat and reading till the wee hrs into Sun morning and then having the exams in the afternoon till abt 6....BUT! Im relieved its all finally over for now :D

No more exams till im fully charged again :p Then again, i kinda like taking exams :x It might have rubbed off on me, the close proximity of each friggin exams lol >_>

So how was it? Honestly? I think im doomed in the vocab part of it, part of the blame goes to the fact that i havent actually learnt kanji yet (the chinese looking type writing) which most Chinese ed students would nt have much problems with but i do =/ The other 2 parts of reading and listening i did pretty well ba, so im hoping the 1st part wont kill the other 2 :((

Must keep fingers....crossed!

Went home to mum's sullen face, coz b4 went to exam i couldnt find my test voucher and she was nagging me coz of the the last min things i always do..bla bla bla lol... i still managed to get in and do now didnt i? Worry wart! :p Im sure she'll be ok again soon lol...juz need me to poh loh sou abit jiu ok le ;)

Anyway, there u have it, my tiresome weekend which is now officially done for the mean time :D and im just waiting for this weekend to come soon so i can just rest! Heee! Shd i take leave? Hmmmmmmmm *grins* Nah, ima save it for Xmas~ Im awesome dO_Ob

One thing sad abt this week would be, i have to work on a public hols (which is tomoro btw) again =.=

SPOIL SPORT! >_>

Random boos >_>

2010-12-02T13:09:00.004+08:00

I think i set my expectations too high at times..

But then again, i dont set them immediately leh >_>

And having NO expectations whatsoever is even worse, right? Lol ._.

Or maybe all of them are like that, blur case n forgetful *tsktsk*

If only i understand the male species like i understand criminology.... Dohs :s

And they say women are hard to understand..bahsss!

Nothing really, just a random thing i had to get of my chest lol :x

P.s. Ur still my baby boo despite ur epic blurness :3 Just dont over do it ._.

Dohs!

2010-11-30T17:54:00.020+08:00

Happy Tuesday to all! And to all a good night? Lol...sorry, been listening to the same Xmas songs over and over again at work x.x Its literally playing now in my head as we speak ._. Not that i dislike it, i mean its one of my fav hols ever and the songs always make me nostalgic...bt the version here, sounds like what we hear in malls....and im getting irritated. Gahs >_>

And and and Im feeling a slight paranoia cz of my JP exams this weekend *gulps* Hence the lack of sanity at the very moment. Mehsss...

Am currently waiting to clock out coz not is xmas song sien-ing, its also making me yawn...alot x.x Its putting me to sleep... *slaps self* T_T

So decided on doing something 'exciting' instead!

Alot of my outstation friends who plan to visit Penang, always ask me what the best sight seeing spots in Penang and if i could take them ard.. honestly having lived here all my life, well almost all my life, i seriously cannot think of any places at all which would be interesting ._. HONEST! Im not saying Pg is that bad, but em.....sorry really cant think of anything :X The only thing i feel worth mentioning is the food! Lol... or shd i also mention the mushrooming of malls now all over town? ._. which in a way reminds me of Sg lol...

So, i decided to do a little research myself, and find out what ppl thought were cool places to go to :x Lets just say its preparation and also to not 'sia sui' myself by telling ppl im from Pg ._.

Please take note that some of these places, i hv not been in a gazillion years =\

Penang Hill! I seriously cant remember the last time i took the trams up...i think we were all pretty young coz i remember being retardedly excited with the ride up :x Had a few school trips as well but was always ard the foothills after that bt nvr up there le...hmm, maybe i shd go up again and reminisce one of the days.. :)

Funny thing about Botanical Gardens was, i only remembered being chased ard by monkeys? Oh and that little stream we used to love picnicking by on the weekends, seriously, we really loved our picnics last time :p

Now this was something which alot of fond memories lol, once again images of being a retard comes to mind...happily jumping ard (like monkeys?) whenever we saw the jellyfish brought up by the waves by the side of the ferry lol... i conclude that i was a retard when i was young ._. Mum was working in Butterworth that time, and me and siblings would take the ferry just to meet up with her at Emporium Supermarket (woah i remembered the name!!) fr our CNY shopping :D

Penang Bird Park - was there only once in my lifetime ._. All i could remember was the sad looking birds which i at the time was almost compelled me to set them all free :x I wonder if its still like that :'(

Batu Feringghi! I loved this place at a kid, like i said, we loved our picnic leh.. we would scour for hidden places where it wasnt so crowded with ppl and swim like....retards? >_> Anway, this is one place i dont mind goin again soon ;)

Kek Lok Si - another place which family hasnt been to fr awhile now, very pretty lights which i can even see frm my home lol, and packed to the max x.x We really had a lot of places to take pics of last time....hmm, i wonder why we dont take them anymore. It feels like time stopped at tht time lol :(

Fort Cornwallis, with its big bad ass cannons lol. This ive been to recently, and no not to see the firepower cz im nt really interested in big guns o.o Lol :p It quite deserted most of the time and mum told us we used to live in the squatters ard the area when we were babies... so cham hor? We really were poor last time, bt im still thankful :) Ive been there a few times during CNY coz thats the time we would do live shows.. yes yes, i played the sax fr the jazz band and the viola fr the orchestra lol :) I kinda miss it now...

So there u have it, pretty amazing the places u can find online lol :p But most of the places are really heritage places, so unless ur interested in history *coughs* i shall nt tell u abt them here :p

Summary? Come for the food, even tho ive been having them most of my life, there are still little nooks and crannies to discover :D Even tho Penang is nt my birthplace, its always somewhere i call home :3

Tatas!! :D

Ahhh Looooor~!

2010-11-27T14:10:00.004+08:00

Hee, i actually just woke up x.x coz i ended up sleeping at about 6am last nite lol... aiya, happy it was a day i didnt have exams or classes or work! Triple combos which i have been having for the past cpl of months :(

Neways, i apologise for the lack of postings and updates here, just didnt have the time cz was worried sick for my last exams last Thursday :D Yeap, its done! All is left is my 30hr assessment which ill only be doing after CNY hehe.. Exam was epic tho, started at 7.30pm and went on to almost 12.30am! LOL! Cool right? One thing good about courses like this, it didnt really matter what time we finished, even Julian (one of our teachers and the owner of the centre) said, we could do it up to midnight if we wanted....which we did? Rofl :x

Even then, we didnt really have enuf time, but was too exhausted liao, and brain juices dry D:

So, whats been up with me?

Hmmm... *thinks* To say nothing would be an understatement, but not overwhelming at the same time? Me is dono what me is saying...:p

Anyway, like i said, been studying fr the past week, too many things to look into for this particular subject le, now only i know how bad my grammar is ..but its become kinda interesting now that i sort of understand the basic rules :) Grammar rox! *i feel like such a geek :x* and my group of classmates are a crazy bunch and we always hv a great time in class :D Im so gonna miss them since the course is over, but im hoping we'll keep in touch :) So, shall just wait for my results in early Jan and hoping i do well *fingers crossed*

Also have been rather involved in Steps lol, the mall is just too dam enticing :x It kinda reminds me of HS5 , beautiful graphics, lousy gameplay, as in i cant perf well ._. But then again, nt everyone has problems with that *coughs*...*u know who you are*....*coughssss* Mum has been on my back when she saw it, says im gettin too engrossed in a new game again ._. Its not like i play alot of it, coz all the ppl who started b4 me already pass me lvl like so much ...doh la really, so yuan wang de T_T Most of the time im online but afk-ing just to listen to the songs :(

Was planning to record a vid coz i look too dam hot not to (in Steps la i mean), but my damn graphic card is so bery de lousy which reminded me of my better one which is with my pc guy....this is the result of not sending my pc for its monthly repairs like last time lol. Dam it, its been like 5months? Geez =\ Thankfully evey says she'll help lol :D

Random note - bosses are back to talking again, after like erm more than a month? Lol, guess it was kinda time they did lol, i could tell :p Which at some point is good fr me, coz im not the messenger anymore.. yay! Not that i minded....erm wait ya, i did mind >_>

Oh wells, i guess all is good at work for now? Despite being tired most of the time.

There's also been new relationships which were totally the CMOG type, but i guess, is good in a way, but now i try not to put so much or think too deep into it, but more of enjoying it as it is and see where it goes :)

I always planned to update at work, but the whole building's net is totally cmi ._. really gets on my nerves at times, actually most of the times, up to the point that my hp is also having problem getting any coverage 7&*(%#IJWSFJKD3852qwrlrear ANNOYED AH!

Ah well, ill be having Jp exams next Sunday x.x and it will be the end of my "enjoyment" of having exams fr the time being.. really drains a person x.x but it was fun...at times :x Which i could just go back to studyin full time lol D:

That being said, i might poofie for a few more days to prep fr Jp test, but fret not, i shall try to update, even if they're short one :D

Tootles!

P.s. Sry late posting again....kinda slept the weekend away hurhurhur :S

Should i?

2010-11-18T19:20:00.008+08:00

Im so sleepy i think im gonna drop dead right here, right nao :x If ur asking why, i dont wanna tell u just yet.. LOL! Wait ba, the reasons behind my insomnia shall soon reveal itself.. tho fears of kena saying 'huo gai' come to mind.. :S Mai ane le, be nice wor :p Besides, i dont knw how long this current interest will be ard, it might be gone in a cpl of weeks time hurhur xD

I wonder why i always explain why i dont blog...hmmmmm.. Its shdnt really matter coz if u guys love me enuf, u will check regardless of the updates (or the lack of it) right? LOL! <- BPS to the max person talking :x

Ok la, the honest truth was, i was seriously NOT in the mood ._. Not only did i have to work on Wednesday when majority of ppl were sleeping happily, neither was it coz it was raining like *&6783asdjaf that day, but also that i hab no consolation this weekend to make up for my lousy week coz im having extra lessons fr exams next week T_________________________T

Kill me nao ba :(

Now to the topic of what my title post is referring to,

On a very random note, ive been contemplating to make my blog sound more sophisticated and profound..Now why this sudden thought? Well actually its been there for awhile now, just nvr really executed lol. Now im a constant reader of blogs, no matter who's it is, not coz im kepo or what la (well sometimes i am :x) but because i like to see how ppl put words into their emotions, hw they express their feeling, and believe me, sometimes i feel the exact same emotions as they are and wonder, why the hell couldnt i say it like that?

I hope ur not reading my blog for any other reason that u absolutely love me to death? T_T;

Im more of a M16 sort of person, when its bullet filled, it comes out like nobody's business, bt when its empty....nothing, nada, zilch. Lol. Im like an extreme opposite...of MYSELF. Cool right? :XXX

Let me give u an example frm i blog i follow of a certain someone, who i knw who she is, but she doesnt who the hell i am lolol... i feel so transparent wtf, but thats another story ._.

"Coloring the darkness that fills this hole are the cruelty forged in the depths of man’s heart. Blocking the rays of hope out are the cowardice of man’s ignorance. Silencing the screams of help are the layers of sarcasm binding in man’s words. Losing the last of goodwill are the selfishness of man’s desire to outshine all others."

And mind u, she's actually talking abt a dream she had last nite... chim right? Lol.

So, what do you think? Shall i start a new way to saying what i feel, coz some parts of me are abit like her ^ but then i try to not make life sound so hopeless, even tho it is at times lol, or shall i continue sounding like a cartoon and leading ppl to believe im actually very young girl nia (in other words, an airhead ._.) ?

Must tell me ar, if not, ima spout Hamlet and other Shakespearean works here till u die from overexposure to incomprehensible and over the top drama :x (Shakespeare lovers please dont hate me, i actually really love his works D:)

Summary, MUST TELL ME! ;wild

P.s. I was driving when i thought of this, and it sounded much nicer then T_T i need mobile blogging! Lol hopeless.. >_>

Oit!

2010-11-16T23:22:00.011+08:00

...or maybe i should start saying, "Hello there, I hope your day has been as beautiful as morning sun after a night of cold hard rain" LOL! Im sorry, im just being an insufferably bored arse :s

And....

I did remember promising to blog on Sunday after resting from exams...but...hor...i erm, got lazy :x Anyway, nothing much to talk about other than having Jp class in the morning and coming home and comatose-ing for the remaining of the day... i sound so rest deprived huh? T_T and to think this week will be even worse >_> with extra classes for last exams and work and studying and exams and more work...arghhhhh x.x ima gonna go into bonkers overdrive ._.

So, my conclusion is, i always have valid reasons for not bloggin :p so must always love me and come visit me de hor? And also lately, have been finding it hard to blog at home, coz im constantly distracted by alot of things. Somehow, there seems to be no peace and quiet and i eventually end up staring at the post for hours n hours n hoursss .... @_@;

*this post itself im finishing on a Friday..:x*

Ok la, mai divert dy...where was i? Oh, thats it really LOL! Sad huh? Ah yes, now i remember the other reason i didnt blog dy, i was busy fiddling ard with Photoshop Cs5! Finally got it up and running on my pc dy and didnt really hv the chance to play ard with it and also to watch the tutorials on how actually to get abt playing with it lolol...Youtube tutorials ftw!

Managed to get a rather, sort of, kind of decent de edited audi pic out :D but cant post it here, coz well, im at work and im using the Mac lappy coz fr the past week my pc has been unable to access to net.. tmd, dam annoying can? I really bth the networking in this office, feel like unplugging the whole damn thing and redoing it myself ._.

So, if u guys are wondering where that pic is...im using it as my FB proffy pic rofl :x Im vain that way... and i like to show the whole world my noobish attempts on being artistic T_T... im being so harsh on myself *sniffs*

LOL! Thats it, ive officially lost it thinking of how my next weeks is gonna be mental torture on me... walao i might just go bananas leh.. sked or not? :s

Ok la, enuf of insanity and time to move on to next post .... tatas!

P.s. Net connection died halfway during the writing of this post hence makin me too damn pissed to continue till well, its now almost 2am... Blahs.

Yay! Its over! :D

2010-11-13T22:17:00.003+08:00

My practicals are over! Woohooo!!

And to think i was scared i wouldnt have enuf material to go on for half hr or more, ended up they rang the bell to end the session even b4 i could do more stuff.. Hmmmm... ima gonna make a cool teacher eh? LOL! Im sorry, bery brain dead today coz i ended sleeping at almost 4plus last nite and woke up at 8 x.x

So, all thats left is my grammar exams which is gonna be 2 weeks from now and i already got my grammar book today. Havent even looked at book coz the minute i reached home i went into a coma lol.. Shall start that revision next week ba :) Then ima free! For now :D

Now, ima gonna go lie down again coz im still pooped and brain juices are surprisingly dry ._.

Shall post more tomoro! I promiseee! :p

Mc!!

2010-11-12T15:45:00.006+08:00

Lol...yea, in the end i took the whole day off as mc even tho i initially thought of taking the afternoon off to prepare for my practicals tomoro. But the bosses were all busy and since all not talking to each other, what better way than me taking the whole day and leaving them alone.. hahaha :X

But i was actually feeling sick de hor in the afternoon x.x Had a bad tummy ache and migraines were killing me as usual. Didnt wanna feel sick the next day, im already feeling nauseous and panicking enuf @_@;

Shd be ok ma hor? I dont think i did anything bad..altho i feel like i did..but then that just me being paranoid :s

So slept it off in the afternoon and started compiling my worksheets and lesson plans for tomoro just now lol.. I really hope i dont freak out tomoro...its been awhile since i went up in front of alot of ppl and crapped even if its for half n hour nia *_* And to think, mum was reminding me of all the times i mc-ed for events, but thats not the same lor, coz i cant really see the ppl im talking too coz of all the bright lights LOL x)

Was watching one of bro's DVDs while doing all this, lol dont ask, i have a tendency to work better if there was tv noise in the background...seriously! :x But it was some extremely and i mean extremelyyyyyyy lame ass show, "MacGruber" Omg wtf-ing type of lame ok? Its a cross between Jackass and Scary Movie type movie .__. So if thats yr tha'ng then this is yr show, if not i seriously dont recommend you to watch it or you'll end up feeling like me, having the urge to bitch slap the lead actor >_>

Watch Grown Ups instead!

I mean it! Its extremely hilarious with the most funniest cast :D I ended up watching it 2ce leh...really go watch it and ull know wat i mean...no lame ass jokes here, well there were some, but funny lame ass jokes :p

Ok la, time to get some shut eye and pray i go thru tomoro in one piece :)

Ciaoz!

2010-11-10T17:06:00.006+08:00

Love is a fragile thing and sometimes we are not its best caretaker, so we muddle thru it and hopes it survives...against all odds

I cried last nite while watching a movie, tho the story itself was kinda lame but i cried still ._. Bla, i guess im just weak that way lol..

On the other hand, im seriously stressed out with alot of things, its gettin kinda tiring and im just hoping that i can run away :s

Also on a random note, i have a sudden liking to.....lollipops! Lol, dont ask me why, im weird but in a cute kind of way, yes? :x

Poke pops! Arent they just adorable? :S

Hello! Again!

2010-11-09T16:26:00.007+08:00

Almost forgot to blog about this! Bro bought a stack of new dvd's to watch ytd and me having to watch the same old movies like xNNNNN times, was absolutely ecstatic!! So sis went thru his stash and found some nice ones among the the stack of lame ass, mindless body chopping, B-grade type movies which he loves so much. Dont ask, i dont get his choices at times ._.

So these were what we found,

Star-studded cast, although there were still limbs flying around, but the who cares when all the big names are there? We almost expect them to do it or we get extremely disappointed. Lmao! And Stallone leh! But i should say, i think he had his eyebrows done....extremely weird non macho look :x I suspect he had his whole face done :O I dont know, he just looks... weird and girly x.x

Really leh! If u guys have watched it, u shd knw wat i mean ok :S And i love Jet Li in here, so cute.. as in he looks like a mini GI Joe.. Kawaiii!! LOL! Jason Statham is cool as usual :3 and the dude from White Chicks, the one who loves white girls? Everytime i see him, i imagine him singing that song "A thousand Miles" and his face.. Hilarious! :D

Moving on..next!

Tho they were given extremely bad reviews, i kinda found damn entertaining leh, and funny shit. I mean i was literally laughing my head off for the entire show. The storyline was abit crappy i suppose, but the stand up comic and screwed up jokes made up for it lor. Me and sis laughed so hard, we were wtf-ing all the way lolol :x

Well me being an outdated person when it comes to movies, since i nvr watch it on the big screen for a very very very long time dy, hence i dont know hw long this one has been out, but if u havent watched it, and in need of some serious mindless laughing, this is the show! Seriously! :p

Okie! Enuf of snaking and back to work..i think? Hee!

Pokes!

2010-11-09T12:39:00.005+08:00

So how was ur Monday? How? How? How? Good or not? Lol...

Mine, not so much ._. all coz of the silent treatment which is still going on in the office with the bosses and is slowly getting on my nerves. I cant work with ppl who cant work together, even if they work perfectly fine with me, but its like im in the middle of all them ._.

Regardless of hw kepo i can be at times, this is so not my thing and i hate, no wait hate is not s strong enuf word, em.. cant think of any others, but yes i HATE being the messenger, coz u knw what they say right? The messenger always gets gunned down ._. even if they're not directly shooting at u, its still not fun. Gah.

Its a wonder they can actually stop talking for almost a month dy leh. Wth =\ Grown-ups are weird. LOL! :S

Oh well, nom nom nom nom..

Moving on, cant believe its actually November ady and moving faster, soon itll be Christmas and Harpie New Year! again... 2011! *gulps* I think someone should pull the time brakes abit, moving abit too fast for comfort x.x

Tho, im actually looking forward to Xmas.. its the only time of the year which makes me warm n fuzzy... Hahaha :D

Oh yea, after so many friggin months of trying to get photoshop to work, i finally got it! Wee! Now i can experiment again on picture and ava editing :D...tho i havent gotten the grasp of Cs5, but nvm, Youtube tutorial ftw! *and to think i shd be studying for my exams* tsk tsk...Rawrers!

Nya nya nya....dont judge a poor soul like me ma :x

Oh my, im so proud, i did 4 posts in less than 2 hrs...hiak, and its almost time for lunch. Dont get me wrong, im actually busy de, except fr the days the accounts ppl come and i end up with nothing much to do coz they'll be using the pc i normally use to make orders and stuff...this pc im on now, is just for me to play on.. Lolololol...

Ok la, back to work lor, happy working all! ._.

Hello Sunday, Bye Sunday.. D:

2010-11-07T23:42:00.007+08:00

Noooooo..... Sunday is leaving me D: D: D: ... Hurhur, i love being dramatic, dont u? :p

Ive made a conclusion, i love eating Japanese food, totemo dai dai dai dai dai suki! Lol... dont ask why, but its slowly becoming one of my favs lol, well other than mum's tao ew bak of course.. nothing can beat that.. Slurp!

Planned to go to Tao's today de, but everyone ppk me >_> and i was gonna treat leh! Tsk, its not everyday i so semangat wanna treat ok? Shd take this opportunity and eat ma right? Sheesh, beh hiao de they all :s

In the end, me n sis went to Queensbay's Jusco and got a truckload of sushi, sashimi and what not's from their Jp counter, which was actually 3 times cheaper than eating at Tao's... and its about the same stuff we would actually order there lo, except no abalone..sashimi was kinda limited, no mussels x.x LOL! Ok la, not complaining k since family so considerate and help me save my hard earned dough :D

Bought fresh norwegian salmon even to grill ourselves, omg so niceeee X_X I love Jusco :3 Lmao! I saw cod fish as well....shall get that too the next round .. Yummy! Even my doggie was stealing the salmon from us wtf, high maintenance dog ._.

Actually took pics of the load that we bought, but pics came out yucky and distorted..in the end, only the pic of the salmon looked decent.. :S

So there....

I know it might not seem as yummy as i said, but hey pictures can be deceiving.. plus the fact that i said, it was a DECENT picture nia :x Believe me, it was totally omgee :s

So there u have it, my short little weekend which turned out quite alright, except fr the little stuff which i managed to get over with good food, a lovely bed, wonderful weather and some serious kb whacking...which reminds me of the kb i hv yet to get.. tsk tsk.. Boos me D:

....Im so gonna be having Monday blues later T^T.. oh well, together gether ba...and for those who are not working tomoro.....Shaddap!

Hurhur...

2010-11-05T23:42:00.007+08:00

I admit it, i succumbed to la resistance and and got.....acash! T^T~ I actually blame it on my dieded messenger which FORCED me to reload...:X

But then on ze very bright side, im looking bery cool! LOL!

Cute right? right? right?? Lmao :S

Anyway, spent the day sleeping my ass off as usual, dono why im so bedridden everytime there's an off day x.x Im waitin for the next one next next week, but thats on a Wednesday...hmmm, maybe i shd take the rest of the days off..or maybe i shd start utilising my mc's...LOL! Hey abit bo tat ok if i dont use it :p Ok la, im a good ger ma, will be my morder emproyee till thy kingdom comes...or till i get lazy..whichever comes 1st. Lololol :x

Been playin for hrs in audi these cpl of days, getting tortured by 9k, by 180/200bpm songs and by Jx....yea yea i like it la ok, not that im saying ur SM (which u are btw :p)

My supposedly practicum exams which are to be held next saturday, still no news yet, which makes me partially relieved but abit mortified as well. What if they suddenly confirm it and i havent finished my lesson plans? O_O; But then again, it might get postponed to January which mean delays in getting our certs...Which is better? I personally think getting over the massacre earlier is better than prolonging the torture... Arhhhh #__#

Bah, shan't think too much and go back to watching my animes and enjoy whatever is left of my solidad holiday and BE HAPPY tat im working full day tomoro >______________>

Toodle de doo!

Yay!

2010-11-04T19:39:00.006+08:00

Well, i know this is gonna come out a little too late, but hell, who cares! Its my blog and u say nothing about it...lalalala :x

Hehe, ok la, enuf of the self consoling, moronic ass crap from me, im just happy that its finally Friday and ima don have to work...come cheer with me ok? Yay! Yay! Yay! :p

Downside would be...i hv to work on Saturday...full day somemore! So not gonna think about it now and enjoy my rest day..hurhur :S

Anyway, took some pics of the new Rhythmholic mode on Audi lol, just for fun...yea im THAT bored :x Been playing alot of audi again recently, and i suck...to the max ._. Blahhhhh.

After like xN times, finally got it abit...i just realised my rhythm sucks ALSO now >_> And to think my 1 2 party was good T_T

Crying doggies and meows coz i missed ._.

Boos.

Lets forget about my suckiness and lets continue cheering for ma hori-dai again mmkay?

Woots woots woots!! :D

X_X

2010-11-03T17:28:00.004+08:00

I feel so sick right now and i almost trip on the staircase :( This weather is so not cool and im feeling like im so gonna barf... uwek D:

On a random note, shall i just close down my chatbox since no one really leaves any msgs for me and i get is spam?

Sigh, i wanna go home :(((

P.s. ねばか! あなたがいなくて淋しいです... >_>

Hiidee Hoo~!

2010-11-03T13:04:00.004+08:00

My eyes have been twitching since this morning when i reached the office, i wonder why is that? Hmmm, think i need to go google up and see what it means lol :x I used to have a colleague who's eyes twitched last time, then she went to the doc who told her that it was coz of stress.. hmm's again..

Do i have stress now? Let me think...,

1. I have my praticum exam in about less than 2 weeks time and i hv yet to finish my lesson plan and have no idea what to do for my mock teaching class,

2. I gonna have my last exam on grammar, which btw is the toughest module so far or rather the toughest ever and im still waiting for my grammar book to arrive,

3. My JLPT (JP exams) which is gonna happen on Dec5th and i have alot to read up in terms of GRAMMAR and other shi.. i mean stuff,

4. im basically busy abt 95% of the time at work (5% is for lunch break) which makes it almost impossible to do any revision at work..

Nah, im not fuckin stressed out, why in the world would i be? ._.

Or maybe its that older generation tales, that someone is thinking of u if ur eyes twitches, or was it ppl talkin bad about u? or or...? Blah, its still twitching and im getting pissed off coz the only to stop it from twitching is by closing the eye.

I feel like a pirate somehow... >_>

I run to you....!!

2010-11-01T21:32:00.005+08:00

Sorry for the nonsense title of this post, was listening to my blog song and didnt know wat to put there, so .... :x Anyway...

TADAIMA~!

Ps for the lack of posting over the weekend, or rather no posting at all, even tho i had a long weekend...lol.. bery lazy la... that and also the fact that ive been sleeping like there's no tomorrow x.x Seriously leh, i think i slept more than 15hrs on Saturday itself :S Sis was goin on about not seeing me awake long enuf to talk to me n get a reply coz the minute she turned ard i already zzzz dy @_@;; I dono why im so tired also la, mentally awake coz i was having bladi weird dreams ._. but body like dont wanna get out of bed :(

Not that i was sleeping the WHOLE time la, i did watch some...animes, and ended having to rewatch coz i eh.. fell asleep halfway :S and the fact that it was raining most of the times did not really help..the weather really bth x.x and predicted this whole week to be even more rain :@ i foresee some places flooded dy in here lol... too bad my place wont flood one, then no need work.. LOL :x

Happy thing i look forward too this week is, Flyday bo work~ Muahahahaha!! Happy Deepavali in advance!! Lolololol :x

Fug la, its so cold that im sneezing non stop dy, or is somebody talking about me! ;wild

And the fact that its so bladi cold makes me so sked to go bath T^T I havent even stepped in the bathroom my mo kui all standing liao leh!

So what else have i been up to this weekend? Well not much ba, the rain tends to bring out the 'best' in a person by making a person lazy to do anything else :p But im guessing that only applies to me coz even with the heavy rain, the roads were jam packed...according to mum who oh so rajin-ly went shopping lolz. Jp class on a Sunday morning was the only time i was out the house and even then on the way back i was swearing n cursing all the ppl who were out driving in such an incorrigible weather ._.

Have been goin back to watching online animes again lol, and well wat else? Marathon watching lor, i dont like watching halfway and having to wait lol, i rather wait till all the epis are out :p No wonder sis doesnt like watching with me... say i watch too fast T^T ...i think i get too carried away coz i ended up finishing one anime at work :XX

Read that audi is having patch on Tueday, new modes wor, hmm.. time to go back n check it out when its done :x One glitch is my messenger dieded dy, which makes it not fun..coz i need my messenger! :s

Oh well, gonna be having a quiet week ahead coz lady boss will be away for seminar on Tues and Wed and well the husband dont really ask me to do alot of stuff and most of the times he's in his room lol. So yay! Momentary burst of happiness for these 2 days! :@

Can Friday come again now? LOL :x

P.s. Sometimes, even a thousand rights could nvr mend one wrong? :)

Argh!

2010-10-28T00:46:00.003+08:00

Me want the weekends nao, nao, nao, nao!

Me wanna bum...eh no, rest at home T^T~ And the fact tht im not working on Saturday, makes me wan it even more! Naoooo!! :X

Im sorry lol, feeling very tired again and i think i twisted my ankle again coz it hurts like mad :(( Bery sked to see the sensei again....so am hoping it gets better soon! D:

Gonna go lie down and watch spooky anime liao, and get scared shit-less ._.

Oyasuminasai!!

P.s. Me bery bo song with you! Yes you! My pumpkin pie....hmph!

Hmm...

2010-10-27T00:59:00.009+08:00

Ive been contemplating the whole nite on whether i should continue on my saved drafts - thus present the illusion that i havent been posting or just lump it all together and start with a new post. OCD tells me, i shd stick with the old dates, coz then ill be posting things tat happen on the actual days... however, brain is not so obliging and well fingers are protesting,

So, i decided with the latter :x

Easier also la hor, not only do i not stress myself with trying to recall what actually happen for the past week, but i also get to make tis post super long so u all will read it twice! Win win situation? :s Ok la, enuf of unnecessary crap (which btw, helps lengthen this post :p) and lets do some flashback on the past week.. :)

Sadly, my life being the rather boring one at that, has not much updates *sry for disappointing everyone * so, i shall attempt to read back at my saved drafts to try and recall what it was that was goin thru my mind at the time... (another lame attempt to lengthen this post....rather successful tho :p)

Lets see...

Wednesday was not so cool, not only was i extremely busy at work and basically crazed the entire day, came home, and had to leave str8 for JP class. Reached home at 10, to find mum in one of her "moods", so i was not only tired and hungry but also in the middle of an incomprehensible cold war ._. In the end, made ramen for dinner and well, im happy dy :) Eating ramen always brings back memories of living alone in KL lolz, kinda fond memories at times, despite the living by myself thingy ;)

Thursday was uneventful, as was Friday, even tho i shd have been rejoicing that it was already the end of the week. Sadly, i had to work full day on Saturday ._. but not having classes on Sunday morning, for the 1st time in months and not havin to wake up at an ungodly hr when everyone is sleeping happily brought me some joy :p Even if i was slightly irritated abt some work stuff, which to cut the story of that short, i just really dislike being in the middle of any debates/arguments/etc etc etc... i watch, its ok, but never, i mean NEVER pull me in ._. Blahhhhhhh..!

It suddenly hit me too that my bosses, as in the husband n wife, are still not on talking terms...since, well, since i said it the 1st time which was a cpl of weeks ago? O_O;;

*shruggsss*

Anyway, that was Saturday for you, and saying that it was uneventful would be an friggin understatement >_>

Woke up late on Sunday, only to find mum had gone to New Lane and gotten the famous fish head/fish with bee hoon for breakfast. Now im not really a fan of fish, but this one is an exception! Becoz u have to be there before 11am or they will be like completely out of fish dy.. Yes, damn good business ok? Totally yummy esp eaten with cili padi! Omgoshh x.x

Sorry pic not bery clear, was in a hurry to dig in :x LOL!

Slept somemore after that, with tv and vid intervals in between, cz wanted to get new dvd player for my room....like finally ok? Really bth the one that im using which mum got from her china friend de...durable la but still in the end was really dying a slow slowww and painful death and bringing me with it ._.

Heng i nvr ppk and did go in the end....

"Pink is my favourite color!" - Steven Tyler, Aerosmith.. LOL :X

Isnt it cute tho? It looks big here but its actually half the size of the normal players...so kawaiiii :x and PINK! even the bladi remote control! X___X

Okok, im gettin unnecessarily hyped over a dvd player.....but purdee ahhhh!!! :s Got a few new animes to watch as well...and ima happy chica for the day and a little cushion to comfort my oh so lovely Monday brusss.. Even if ima a little broke....the only thing ive yet to get...is my new Kb ...bleh~

So, shall i continue on to Monday, even tho it was ridiculously tiring just like every other Monday? Weeeeee~!! Then again , better not x.x

Went to thru my mail ytd, coz its like overflowing dy :s and got notified of my impending practicals in November.. Mamacita! I need to start on my lesson plan dy.. i wonder how ima gonna get thru alive teaching my classmates, even if its only for 1/2hr ._.

In case ur thinking, "If u cant teach ur classmates, how u gonna teach others?" - Ur wrong leh, i find easier to teach ppl i dont know, or rather ppl i know genuinely wanna learn and not trying to make my life (however short that is) a living hell. Monkeybananafruitbasket lahhh >_>

Ermm, should i stop here? Are u gettin tired of reading? :p Actually im tired dy, so i shall continue my "adventures"! another time...LOL :x

Tata!

Post-less

2010-10-26T11:47:00.004+08:00

If u noticed, i havent been blogging for almost a week now lol.. Actually i have alot of unposted entries which are just sitting in my drafts section ._.

Why didn't i post them, u ask? Coz ima emoing lolz..

I tried finishing them everyday, but i dont like what i wrote, as in, it seem too robotic and fake >_> U might say, hey blogs are suppose to be spontaneous and fun and cute like me right? LOL! :x

In summary? Im not in that happy happy place of mine to blog ._. and i dont think anyone really noticed that i havent been posting also.... :(

Lol, ima emotional, what u expect?!

And to think i have quite a number of pics to post too, hmmph!

Uh?

2010-10-19T20:38:00.004+08:00

I finished work early ytd! And when i mean early, meaning 15mins after im suppose to clock off....but still early! And then i thought to myself, "There's your chance to get ur kb.... :D",

BUT I DIDNT! TT^TT

I know im so lousya wtf, i was sitting in the car arguing with myself on whether i should go or not, then before i realised it, i was already at home :(( I suck....big time! Boos me D: I have a serious problem with procrastination...lool :x Well, unless its life and death matter...hmmm, i think D:

Anyways, went home, nua-ed ard all over house, in front of tv, in front of pc, at home....im in such a nua-ing mood. Audied alone for abit, then was reminded of the kb that i did NOT get...and logged off ;wild , then opened my blogger acc with the conviction that i was gonna type something tonite! And well, for those who already came in today, will know that i didnt :S

So while my bosses are entertaining guests downstairs, im snaking upstairs with a whole load of paperwork in front of me >_> I wan friday to come soon :(( im so ridiculously tired still x.x

Oh ya, heard that someone will be coming back to dear old penang end of the week, wonder if ill get my long overdue souvenier dy, hmmmm.. *hints* Lolz.. Everything is always overdue with u le, but better late than nvr? :)

Bah, better get back to work.. Tootles~! Q_Q

Monday D:

2010-10-18T23:24:00.005+08:00

3 days nvr work nia, no need so much work to do kuaaaaa?? Kua zhang leh really ._. Non stop like omgwtfbbqsaucechicken!! Seriously la, i was like non stop for the entire friggin 10hrs, except for the time i went home for lunch and that was already almost 2pm >___>!

Call here, call there, quotations, po's, do's, invoices...bla bla bla, etc etc etc.... Like a bladi headless chicken nia, run here, run there ._. Really so kua zhang leh! Blahhh..

Before i knew it, it was already 7.30pm. No wonder im having migraines now, so tired :((

And i tot i wanted to leave early to go get my kb! Not my fault ar really! I really just dont have the time...pang sai also no time ar wtf >_> Thankfully, this only happens on Mondays and Tuesdays, the rest of the days are quite ok de lol.. Hmmm, maybe i should have taken Monday off instead :x

Also mum's been gettin on my back on how much im staring at the phone..lolz. aiya, whats new la, i sit in front on pc, she will say, sit in front of tv, also say, then she ask me shd sleep more :O Which i do, i think :s Just coincidentally that i happen to tap on my phone at 5am in the morning and she HAS to go to the toilet every single time and see me.. -.-

Anyway, been in and out of sleep mode since i came back, really having a bad headache again, sigh. Didnt really sleep well last nite, coz was having bad dreams...yes again.. i tend to have them when i go to bed after a bad day, i really really reallyyyy dont like being angry when i go to bed..

Gotta get some rest dy.. baibaizz~!! :)

P.S. Hmmmm..am suddenly cravin for Manhattan Fish Market's seafood platter again... monkeybananafruitbasket! :x

Tsuruya's :)

2010-10-17T22:48:00.011+08:00

Well as promised, here are the piccys of ze dinner .. :)

My fav! Chawanmushi~ :DD

Then there was eel....unagi set that my brother chose :p

Sis chose the Giant Squid which her friend treated her for her birthday... not bad :D

Then there was crab...soft shell crabby~ :D

Sorry this came in late, but was abit down in the evening... :) Didnt really work up an appetite too, not sure if was coz i was still full, or something else..

Oh wells, Tsuruya was relatively ok, and kinda cheap too. Tho the lunch sets have more variety to choose from then the dinner ones. Luckily we could opt to get the lunch even tho it was already 7pm :p One of the other waiters came to us and said, "Oh , thats the lunch sets, now its dinner already so no more" So we were like, err ok, *but we already ordered....the lunch sets? :O* then we all just stared at him with mouths wide open and went... "ohh, ok..." Lol.. epic dumb blonde moment ._.

Anyway, finished kinda fast and got full really fast too :S wonder it was coz of all the rice x.x The temakis are too die for tho, had salmon temaki! Yummy :D

Conclusion? I still prefer Tao's. Lolz.. Tho it is slightly more expensive but really worth it, esp with the all you can eat sashimis! So we decided, we're gonna go again soon, prolly end of the month.. LOL! :x My treat :p

Came home and jeng jeng jeng~ My belated birthday cake ~

Yummy choco cheese cake from where else, Secret Recipe lor... :P Sinful!! Bleh~

Initially wanted to get my new kb de since i was at e-gate but by the time dinner was done, darn shop already closed ._. Lousya.. So went back home, had cake and went into audi to vent and whack on my old kb lol... it was a good release for me..somehow :) Think i played for almost 3hrs...i think o.o Well, thats my remedy for forgetting sad stuff, that and retail therapy of coz...but i still refuse to buy acash! :x

Ahhh, cant believe my 3days are over :( Monday blues again...sad sad T_T

Must go cry into pillow liao.... *pouts!* Byeesss!

P.s. Cant believe my post-birthday days are just gonna as horrid as last years, i dont think i can do this again... I dont wanna feel so beat up again, please? :(

Random thoughts

2010-10-17T15:21:00.003+08:00

Happiness is just like a butterfly, the harder u try to catch it, the further it flies away..

But what about seizing the day n nvr letting any chance slip away? Or grabbing the opportunities when they come? Tsk tsk... so contridicting right? Lolz :)

Ive been thinking of my priorities in life and somethings have been left draggin on for the longest time. Guess its time to finally let go of the past and holding on to the pain that was before. I should learn to be stronger and independent as before, when i never needed anyone's approval for things. I wonder what happened to that me.. when did i become so insecure? Hmmm..

Its kinda true what a friend told me ytd, sometimes we give out too much of our power to others that we forget to keep some for ourselves..

Sorry to be sounding so chim on a beautiful Sunday afternoon, but hey, its times like this that makes us think right? :D

Ive realised sometimes ive given in too much or given out too much that what i have to say is nvr really heard, and my sometimes seemingly uncaring about the things ard me exterior have made ppl think i really cant be bothered hence make decisions for me. At home, at work, and everywhere else. Ive somehow made myself unimportant :)

Oh wells, enuf of the heavy stuff, just had a fun 30mins whacking ard in audi and laughing my ass off over lame stuff... and cant wait for my JP belated birthday dinner tonite! :DD

Think i need just that, to be happy in the moment for the things that really matter and the ppl who really care and nothing else ;)

In the end, think of who are the ppl who will be there for till the end for the right reasons, the ppl u can call ur real companions..

Im constantly hurt over how im pushed aside for ppl who....i dont know :) I dont like it, and will nvr like it, to be deemed less worth than them. Lolzz. I laugh at myself for being angry cz i really shdnt degrade myself to their level ;)

I will always be here but only for the ppl who want me ard, this is my promise.

Anyways! Wait for my later post ya, this time i will take many many piccys! :p

Hitori? :)

2010-10-15T15:56:00.007+08:00

Sugitaru wa nao oyobazaru ga gotoshi :)

So how was my day at home on a Friday? Sleep galore la what else! :p Ok la, i did do other things other than just sleeping, i...erm...watched dvd and erm..OK LA, i didnt really do much! Q_Q

And im proud to say, i didnt regret it one bit! :x The sleeping i mean... coz i felt so happy after that hahahahaha :X but then again, this would mean that i will having nothing to post about....yet again D: So what should i crap about today? Hmmmm....

Guess u all will have to wait till Sunday when i take my family to dinner and take piccys of oishii sushi, sashimi, california rolls....yummy :p Cant really remember the name of the place tho, all i know is thats its nearby Tao's. So shall see if its as worth as eating there or not :)

Vegan week goin ok lol, one thing tho is that we tend to get hungry more x.x so what else can i do but to drink loads n loads of water and well....sleep? Lol. Mum was complaining that ive been in my room and on my phone, tapping my phone, or by the pc for the past 48hrs ._. As if i have anywhere else to go... its not like i can jio my friends out for food or wad...unless they're vegan too >_>

AND its not always that i get to just lie ard and not have to worry abt classes or exams or work.. give me a break man :(

Guess thats about it for the past 2 days.. told ja i did absolutely nothing! But u all still wanna read, so ma post lor... :p

Also note that for this post, my fonts have gotten slightly cuckoo and i feel its gonna come out small... but then im gonna be too lazy to actually changed coz its taken me 2 days to actually finish it x.x Its just been sitting here on my desktop, minimize, maximize, minimize, maximise....and typing one sentence each time till TADA! I have a...well almost a full post :x

Slightly not in the mood at the moment, so till Sunday ba! Ja mata ne! :)

Happy Birthday!

2010-10-14T00:05:00.004+08:00

...to me!!! :) Lalalalala....~

If your thinking im happy about turning older, im sorry but unfortunately, you cant be more wrong -.- Even so, the hype of the whole world, well at least in my small little world, of ppl wishing me happy birthday is soon goin to be over and after today all i will be left with is....that turning one yr older thingy =.=

But if ur thinking that i dont like to be reminded by wishing me Happy Birthday, *beeep* ur wrong again. I get really pissed if ppl dont remember prolly coz i always do. Especially the ones that really matter! U know who u are doinkers! Im sensitive i know, but i like it! :x

And also feeling kinda sad coz i have so many things that i wanna do with my life still and not really coming close to it also...*sigh* am i setting myself back and not goin all out to get what i want? I dont know leh.. i feel i have, but then again maybe i havent lol.

Sorry for the conflicting signs from me in this post (there will be more as the post grows longer:x) Im in a very bluesy and contradicting mood today lol :S

But but but! Im off on Friday! Yayss! Which means i have 3 whole days of rotting at home! Yay...? :x No no, ima gona take this time to reflect on how ima gonna make this year better and more productive :S Ima running out of time dy!! Lol...sense of foreboding on this 'blessed day' ._. Kinda like the feeling of armageddon acomin' LOL! >_>

Hmmm.. i just read back on my post, and it feels like me spouting a whole bunch o' crap...oh wells, carrying on... :x

For this year, im hoping to get to own my 1st place, something which has been on my mind since i started working here coz i wanna ....now dont laugh.. i wanna dress it up! LOL :x as in doing the ID for it... got tonnes of ideas frm working in this line and well, i cant wait to start :DD

So there, my wish or rather my target for this year~ Gambarimashyou me!!!

P.s. Ima still looking for a vegan birthday cake T_T...

O_O

2010-10-12T15:44:00.009+08:00

Day 2 - and bosses still not talking to each other...hmm.. i wonder if this is their normal practice, but i had the 'privilege' of being the middle man and passing messages between the 2 of them ._. This me no likey dy!

Btw, did i tell u that my bosses are Mac fanatics? Lol.. Not only do all of them use iPhone, but all our pc's are actually Apple Macs from the 1st gen to the latest they just got last week coz the last one mb died and to get it repaired cost abt 3k? x.x

Anyway, couldnt help but drool at it still :p Damn beautiful little things leh, makes me also want one kukunehnehbasket ._.

Chio right! I wan also lo, wtfiak ._.

In case ur wondering, yes, that is my office lol.. and its original lighting :p Actually i adjusted it brighter dy lol, abo even darker.. romantic right? hahahaha :D

Anyway, plan to treat family to Jp dinner for my birthday..but will have to be postponed to after the vegetarian week is done lol. Yea, im vegetarian on my birthday lor.. i wonder if there are any vegetarian cakes out there :S

Still havent had the chance to ask about my leave T_T just too dam busy and alot of walk in customers. Apparently alot of those super condo owners just got their oc and rushing to move in and prepare everything before CNY.. that and the fact that my bosses are still not talking makes me kinda apprehensive to ask D:

Jia you jia you me!

In case ur wondering about my new kb....well i dont have it yet! Wanted to get on Sunday de, but but....hmph mai explain dy, later kena shoot also de D: Hopefully i..can..get ...it.. if...i.. get... leave?

Blek! .___.

Mon-dai blues?

2010-10-11T14:26:00.007+08:00

And here we are back at the beginning yet again, what a vicious cycle where it feels like the weekends only last 2 secs and the weekdays feel like 9982312763213 years .__.

I woke up this morning, looked at the clock in my room. It was 7.ooam and well thats sort of my normal time my first waking up session. Did what i normally do at this hour, tapped on my phone. Attk, attk, attk, do mission, send flowers..Lol :x

A sudden horrific revelation hit me, it was friggin MONDAY! I knw im being dramatic again, but i literally screamed, in my head that is, at the thought that i would have to wake up for work T^T

I gotta get me my leave at the end of the week. I gotta, gotta, gotta before i lose my flippin mind ._.

Anyway, sort of went into a minor depression state after talking to a friend lol.. im sensitive la, i know, but what to do, thats just me. Got me anyhow thinkin again of why things have turned out as such. Some of its is my fault, but im not solely to blame for it.. the feeling of just letting all this go came to me again, tho it did hit me that me leaving might not matter as much as it did before. Saddening eh? Sigh lol..

Gotta get to work soon lol, snaked abit downstairs coz work environment today is abit quiet lol.. as in bosses are not talking or rather havent been talking to each other since i came in fr work x.x No comment ba, since both are talking to me nicely :p

Ok la, laters all! :)

P.s. What is really troubling you my dear? I wish you could just tell me like u used to..

Kill me nao!

2010-10-10T00:44:00.002+08:00

Just had the worst Saturday ever, which forced me to make this resolution..

I shall never ever have boys. Ever. As my children. Ever! :x

Or maybe it was those kids which made me cringe ._. I spent half part of the day getting the migraines which i had so hard gotten rid of the nite before by sleeping veryyy early. They were screaming and shouting and running around! Omgomgomg the friggin horror! Worse part is, the parents didnt even care wtfish? Brats like... *swears swears swears* nobody's business!

The youngest girl was ok, bt the 2 oldest boys, omg, i swore i could almost shoot my head off x.x They were screaming not only in normal volume but i swear it went into ultrasonic ok? I think only dolphins would be able to understand them and prolly die from it too ._____________.

Gahhhhh!! *shoots myself in the head over n over n over again..*

Ok la, maybe i made it abit too overdramatic, tho i swear im really not coz even my lady boss, who has children bth them ok? I will have boys , but they will nvr turn out like those little horrors else i will disown them for sure >_>

Safe to say, it has been a long and tiring day, even without those little *&^%$%^ making it even more tiring... but!

I change my layout!! :D Ive completed one of my missions! Yay! :x

Still looks abit weird to me, coz ima not used to this one yet, but tell me what u guys think lol...is it too white now? And i didnt quite like the fact that it didnt have a border frame...i have a thing for borders :x

Found this one ytd actually but was too lazy to change, and i really really couldnt find anything else that i liked. There were some nice ones but i hate having to click ard for different pages.. very mafan ._.

Notice now there's a comment section for each post too? :D and i managed to tweak my chat box :DDD! Me is very proud of meself now :p

But still, comments please, coz i might change if i do chance upon a nice one :) for now, i need to go lie down coz my back is killing me and im starting to doze off x.x

Hope there arent any typos coz ima lazy to check dy :x

Nitess!!!

:)

2010-10-08T23:24:00.007+08:00

Normally on a Friday post, i will usually say "Happy Friday!".. well im not gonna this week! Ima breaking out from my normal procedure and be different this week so im not considered a bore and too routine T^T .. *shall do that next week :x*

Anyways, modem died on us ytd.. after only being in usage for abt less than 4months? So much for that lol.. guess what we really need is those industrial type modems which needs whole room then only can :x So had to take out the one b4 this which we had to use for 3yrs plus and guess what? Worked perfect! :) Lol.. Guess that will have to do till we actually get a new one, which date is relatively unknown. It could be,

1. This one dies on us *touch wood touch woood!!*

2. Bro gets annoyed with this one, coz it doesnt really work well with wireless connections and despite me trying to reason with him abt the better connection using cable, he still refuses ._.

3. I suddenly get very rajin and buy a new one.. LOL! Highly improbable, but hey miracles might happen :x

Notice how i like to number my thoughts now? It makes it much more organised and i dont forget what i wanna say as much.. LOL!! ._.

And also, Friday is not bery happy day for me, coz ima still working full day on Saturday Q_Q so bery de saddening....which means i only have Sunday afternoon to rest coz i still need to wake up early for JP class tomoro...which reminds me...i havent done my task of thinking of one jp sentence to say yet.. DAMN! Shall think on the way to class tomoro.. i tend to get the best sentences when im in a frenzy :x Dont ask >_>*

Thinking of taking next Friday off since Thurs im on leave for my special day :p and well ima not working on Saturday... shall i? shall i? shall i? Woah, 4 days off wor! :DD

Shall try and ask the boss first *fingers crossed* !

Doinks

2010-10-07T00:40:00.013+08:00

Aiya! I just had something to blog about when i was on the way back home from Jp class.. but forgot about the time and well...nvm la, its my Thursday post then :p

Note: This is just a rant coz im just really tired (and also tired of repeating how tired i am ._.)

Ive just calculated, well i calculated while driving back from Jp class lol, and also becoz i was somewhat irritated with sis. Anyway, i realised that i havent had a weekend off for the past month now.. If its not work, then its classes and exams which went on from morning to late afternoons.. safe to say, September was the worst month ever x.x

Now im not complaining coz i have to do so much and not have any time to rest, i took it upon myself to do all this and well, my family saying they will support me. Hmmm, all ive really seen is they gettin on my back on how its only for awhile then itll be over when i tell them im tired...

Im not asking for sympathy bt more of a little understanding. Work can be hectic and i try to study as much as i can at nite, and it is bladi damn tiring ok? =/ Anyway, the reason i finally broke was coz, after Jap class, sis asked me to drive her to the clinic. Now, you would say, whats wrong with that? There's nothing wrong with it, if i hadnt just had and extremely long day and goin to class right after work and the fact that she had the whole day to go, and me specifically asking her to go in the afternoon. Sighs.

A little consideration wouldnt kill, would it?

Oh wells, let it be ba :) im just glad that its the last module dy and one more exam and ill get my teacher's dip lol... :x

Anyway, back to happier stuff or rather less irritable stuff :p

Audi Season 3 - Guitar Mode :) I know... my face looks like kiam tiao pa here :x Will take nice one next time la..the arrows keep coming down so fast ma...bo pian D:

Kinda cute really, as in me trying to get all the keys =.= and its only easy mode. Once babe put on the hard mode, all i really did was sit there and stare while the arrows came a rainin down on me and i end up pressing buttons which werent really used T^T

DJMAX2! That was the name of the game i used to fumble around with :((

Have a few things planned for this weekend, as in missions for moi lol.. we shall see how many missions i complete or will all of them be abandoned =\

1. Get a new keyboard,

2. Get a new blogger background

3. Get some rest since there wont be classes

4. Get a life LOL! Jk.. :x

Those who are pfft'ing to my missions, I WILL PROVE UR PFFT'ING WRONG! D:

Off liao la, bye..!

P.s. Sorry la, this post came out 3days after it was started x.x I tried to finish it but i kept running into my bed :x

Bored!

2010-10-06T17:00:00.003+08:00

I super super bored today!

Phone and fax lines are down, so no calls can come nor can i make any calls out lol.. hence the extreme peace and quiet. Bad part abt this is :

1. Im falling asleep but also having slight tummy ache. I blame McD's for this.. I realised i cant really consume McD's anymore cz ill feel uncomfortable everytime..hmmm..

2. The iTunes that my office plays are getting too clear for comfort. As in i can hear the songs, REALLY hear the songs over n over n over n over again ._.

3. Im so bored that im afraid i might not have anything to blog about tonight, so here is my post for today :x

4. This the end of my post.... >____>

Maybe i shall go search eBay for cute stuff to splurge on :x

Did i also mention im sleepy? Oh ya..i did.. arghhhhh :xczsdasawedcsadaf

To make matters worse i cant even BN in the office to entertain me temporarily... i can BN but not normally and very slow.. but today its really getting on my nerves.. especially the "Cannot Connect To Server" that keeps popping up... *shouts n pulls hair!*

Buaizz! ._.

Blah!

2010-10-05T21:39:00.005+08:00

Au revoir Tuesday~

And i feel as tired as i did the day b4 >_> plus getting moodier by the day *sigh*... and its not helpin now that im feelin extremely irritated with somethin, and no, im not having my monthly auntie visits, tho i wished i could blame it on that being the reason im so easily pissed ._.

Luckily before i exploded, a few new acquaintances, which i nvr thought would bother so much as to make me feel better, actually did :)

Maybe i have to resign to fate on this is how its going to be from now on, well actually its been going on for awhile now. Maybe i shd stop hoping that it will ever be like it used to. And no matter what or how i try to restore it, i cant make it go back in time. Things have changed, some more than others. Guess it was something waiting to happen..prolly i didnt prep myself well enuf :)

I kept thinkin if things had really changed so much, the more i thought back, the more i felt it has. I would nvr would have been ignored as much, or be a nuisance to reply that i guess my chat windows are just closed the minute i start talking. Lolz, oh wells its coz im no longer the reason ur online, and im sorry :)

I dono wat im sayin lah, i just feel lonely suddenly coz the one person i could always rely on, well, i cant seem to now :)

Anyway, just saw last week that Digi came out with a damn cheap package for Iphone 4, and mine is not even 2months old yet ._. *curses* I hope the phone is not stable yet for everyone else who gets it :x I know im being evil but i DONT care! Lol...D:

Oh ya! Tried out the guitar mode for Audi Season 3 ytd, even got the blue guitar LOL. Dens ma so wth buy lo...and i refuse to top up acash! I REFUSEEE :x Well the mode itself confused the hell out of me, my fingers were all over the place...it kinda reminds me of that...game...crap. I forgot the game i used to play on my PSP which looks similar to this! What was it? What? What ar?? Babe do u remember? Ahhh!! D:

I suddenly miss my Psp lol :x I gotta play back and complete my Patapon :p

Well just turned Lvl 200 in Bn lolz :x - random info btw coz i suddenly lost my trail of thought and didnt know hw to continue this post ._.

Oh oh! I need a new kb, and i mean really! Im gonna get one dy! When i can find the time :x There's no pc shop near my work place lar...aiyo D:

Ok la, time for lunch. Need to go out coz the net connection here is seriously sucky!

Buaizzz! :D

Ding dong!

2010-10-04T22:05:00.004+08:00

Welcome back me!

So, Monday is officially over.. that was ..erm..fast? Lol. Not really for me coz half the time i was actually sleep walking x.x Really tired lor.. felt like i could faint at any time :(

And what else, Monday being the usually busy day of the week. Orders to follow up, new orders to make, schedule to prepare, bla bla bla etc etc lol.. One good thing would be, it makes the day end that much faster :D

Played abit of audi with babe, who's btw pc is bery pro d :p And also just found out, season 3 is coming out tomoro! Guess the guitar thingy will be out too lol...already dled the patch so we shall see :)

So, basically this weekend was not really a weekend for me.. Had back to back classes till about 6 on both days and started roughly abt 9? Dam exhausting x.x But thank god i survived.. and it being a tough module, i had no qualms on staying on.. I mean Grammar was nvr really my strong point. I can speak and write fine, but ask me to explain why i should use these words instead of the other? Killing me would be easier :S

Anyway, need to read up more i guess and be more familiar with all my grammar, and phonology lol.. yeah, dam technical can? A word a day - Lexicon. Guess what that means? Yes? No? Lol.. basically it means a dictionary LOL! Yea, i know :x

At the end of the lessons, we were so changed in the way we spoke, that we somehow sounded British.. hahaha :x

Enuf about the classes, tho its my last one dy.. :D kinda worried abt the exams, hopefully ill be able to pass x.x

Came home and fell asleep after dinner, then woke up and decided to watch a new anime sis just got. Tho the cover looked harmless and shd have been comical, it was far from that...very farr... i mean the beginning was quite ok la, funny at times, bt it became scarier with each episode ._. Its sort of like a compilation of short Jp ghost stories. Tmd dam scary...or maybe coz i was watching the it alone at 3am in the morning... >_>

I couldnt fall asleep till 4! T^T

Ok la, time to retire to my lovely bed and continue watching the scary cartoon :x Im really actually very tired x.x why cant i sleep earlier de.. Baka!

P.s. I tot i could stay happy, until i saw the one thing that made me not again :( Why the need to do it now?

Boo!

2010-10-04T01:58:00.003+08:00

Happy Moon-day blues x.x

As u can see, i decided to change back to the original layout coz i was used to the white background...lol :S

So until im able to find one which is somewhat similar to this one, i shall change :p Till then, u guys are stuck with the grumpy toast :D

Im kinda pooped coz of the extremely long day at class today, actually fell asleep after i got home and am goin to bed again lolx..

Was abit pissed at some hypocrites earlier but fk them ._.

Shall post more tomoro if ima not too busy...i hope D:

Nighty nite!

Mahalo peeps! :)

2010-10-02T19:00:00.008+08:00

First of all.. happy belated fly-day! Although its already almost at the end of doyoubi desu ga :(

Let me share with you on what a completely tiring start of a weekend i just had. For one, i just came back from class abt an hr ago....and i started the day at 9 bladi friggin am with exams x.x Summary of exam today? Dam nehnehkukufruitbasket! Hard lo... :( Tho i dont doubt i will pass, im still nt happy with the results of how i did. Sadded T_T

Then had lunch at gurney plaza with a friend and went back to class till abt 6pm...tsukareta deshyo! And see i so kut lat, even tho so tired still come in and blog.. guai or not?! Lub me dip dip or not?? Lol :x Psps...im mentally exhausted and physically dead so must forgive the insanity that is me for now x.x

Tho i think, this post will take some time to complete coz im having....the urge...to...lie in bed :s Cant blame me, this morning was heavenly to sleep in with all the lovely rain T_T

3hrs later....

Lol, i actually fell asleep when i saw how tempting and cozy my bed was looking earlier :s Anyway here i am again to continue lolz :p

So, like i said had exams and classes the whole day today. Bad enuf exams were really sucky, this last module that im having is one of the toughest ones. Alot on grammar testing, and i thought my grammar was good :( I mean, its ok la but i nvr did know abt the rules of sentence creating or the tenses and clauses bla bla bla.. extremely technical x.x

Plus point, im gonna be so good in grammar soon....hmm, i make it sound like so cool and un-nerdish :x Blah, dont care, im so gonna rox in grammar.. oh wait let me rephrase, im so gonna be wonderful in grammar! LOL :x

Another plus point is that this is the LAST module :DD So after this, one more exam next month with my practicum assessment and ima bona fide teacher! Lol...thats if i pass D: Man , i pity my future students :S Anyone wanna be my guinea pig? :p

And finally ill be able to enjoy Saturday morning like it was meant to be enjoyed! Damn the rain that keeps ruining my morning everyday for the past week :(

Work on the other hand is getting pretty hectic, hopefully i can survive till the next hols.. which is due in about less than 2 weeks :D Lol...not looking forward to that day actually...but hey, once a year, nevermind la :D

Me will be attempting to change my blogskin after this, something which ive been planning to do for awhile now and i actually did do it on Thursday.. changed for about 5mins and realised there was alot of other crap i needed to add into it and immediately changed back..lmao :s

So, if u see, please let me know what u think! I actually already know what im changing it to, something rather similar in terms of concept but not really identical lol. Just see for urself ba, thats if i did it after this and not be coaxed to jump into bed again :x Kinda like it, except for a little detail which im hopin ill be able to oversee.. tell me if u spot it :p

Ok la, better do it now coz i feel a slight laziness comin about dy :x Have a wonderful Sunday all!

P.s. Say it like you mean it and not cause you have too or I'd rather you dont say it at all :)

Series of Unfortunate Events

2010-09-30T15:22:00.005+08:00

I had a nervous breakdown during lunch today. Really..! Lol.

Decided to go to Perak Road for lunch coz had to run some errands for mum and reached there from office quite fast, abt less than 10mins? Coz its really very near my office, even despite the rain. Did everything including having a quick lunch in less than half n hour and decided to go back to office dy so i could beat the school dismissal jam and the rain was starting to get really heavy.

FML #1
Tho rain seemed quite heavy, my car was just in front of me. And i tot running to it wouldnt get me THAT wet. Little that i knew, i was really going to get REALLY wet ._.

So now im extremely wet and cold in my very foggy car, and my baby being a very old baby, has it cons, especially at times like this. My wiper doesnt really work in rainy conditions lol...when i say it doesnt work, means it doesnt really do the work its supposed to do coz it really not touching my windscreen.. LOL :x

FML#2
The rain was getting heavier and my vision almost completely paralysed, hence i decided to take shortcut back to the office. Bad idea. Shortcut turned out to be the death of me, being stuck at the same spot for about 20mins. Now im wet, cold and irritated ._.

Another thing abt my baby, it doesn't really work well in jammed up situations, as it tends to get heaty and temp goes up .____. and me being stuck in the same place fr awhile, saw smoke coming out from the bonnet >_>

FML#3
Took another route coz i was getting frustrated, but it got worse. The bladi road was literally flooded on one side! Wtfug??? At this point school already dismissed and the jam just got worse. Wonderful! ._. So now im wet, cold, irritated and cursing at all the ppl who are out in the such horrid weather conditions D:

FML#4,5,6,7,8....to infinity and beyond..!
Jam jam jam jam, almost knocked into a motorist coz i was blind in my car (tell me why im still having this car?) more jam till i finally reached office 1hr later when my trip shd have taken me less than 10minutes. *LAUGHS!*

So now, im having a headache coz i got wet in the rain and my mood has gone down the drains coz i remember now how much i hate driving in this weather in dear old Penang.

Remind me to nvr be adventurous and go out for lunch to places other than behind my office anymore please?

Oh other than that im pretty fine today, thanks for asking! How about you? ._________.

Mall Whore! :x

2010-09-29T01:15:00.010+08:00

I...I....I..... spent my remaining acash last nite! T____T Left a measly 2k nia lol, after coming back to audi barely a week ._. I blame my mall whore companion who indirectly made me buy stuff..LOL :X

Dont kill me please...i lub chiu dip dip ok? :p

But i got my purdee fluffy wings lmao :s Ok la, ima happy back for now :D
Retail Therapy FTW! :x

In case ur wondering what we were laughing about, Jx had commented earlier that her butt looked big coz of the new top (which i said was nice) and couldnt matched with other things to make it smaller, so while we were playing, and she suddenly frozed, i asked her if she was looking at her butt :p

Anyway, its the middle of the week ady in a blink of an eye. I feel suffocated and will be even more so as the week ends x.x worse still, lately have been feeling kinda depressed :( Arghhh! Wake up and smell the fumes! Lol :x

Taking a short break to blog this, sort of a short breather from insanity since im unable to BN on my phone for now . Why? Coz my phone has been barred...again .____________.

Ok, before u say, "Again??" Stop! Coz i already did counter measures to avoid such situations when i signed up for my iphone by auto creditting my phone bill to my credit card so i dont have to go pay every month...which we all know i dont really do it on time x.x BUT i failed to see a loophole coz the reason i was barred was for the previous month's bill b4 i switched over >_> Apparently, the auto thing doesnt work and go back in time for past bills. What the chit tong chiang kns blah blah blah!

So i just paid this morning and have to wait till later in the afternoon before i can use it. Ka chui.

Back to work lah, sleepy as hell and it just started to rain...again wtf zzzz

Oh ya, ima kinda proud on how fast im able to spout sonnets of my life in such a short break :p Arent u? :DD

*actually i cheated abit coz i wrote some last nite..LOL!

Tata!! :p

LOST IT!

2010-09-28T16:45:00.003+08:00

Thats it, me thinks me has officially lost it.

The reason why i say this? I had the worst dream last nite. Well actually it was early this morning when i suddenly woke *coughs* not because of BN notification *cough* and went back to sleep after tapping my phone screen while tryin to keep my eyes open.

No no, its not that.

I actually dreamt that i forgot to go for an exam when i was taking the bus and suddenly it hit me (dont ask me why im on bus), "OMG i have a test!" Then i nonchalantly just let it be and continued taking buses to God knows where ._______.

Lol? Crazy much? Me thinks so D:

Been having alot of dreams of me taking buses too which is funny coz i havent been taking buses for xN years :x

I wonder what that means..hmmm.. or maybe it just doesnt mean anything but simply that my marbles are all gone T_____T

On a random note, im starting to dislike something very much. Everytime i see it, im reminded of how much it once hurt me and how much it still does. Its come to a point in which i cant ignore and will not act dumb about it anymore. Bahs.

"There was a time when i was loved by you, or was that just a lie too just to keep me with you? Maybe.Probably." :)

Random :)

2010-09-27T23:31:00.006+08:00

So now that Monday is officially over, how was it? Mine was in summary, rain, rain, rain and more rain.. i get u get the idea lolz. And its still raining in the background as im sitting here typing all this lol..Guess its that time of year again when its weathers like this that make u unable to get and go to work x.x

Its gonna be hell i tell u, and its only goin to be a matter of time before i start taking "mc's" :x

Ok la, i wont la...im so guai ma and a morder emproyee on top of that :p Day went by kinda slow today, and rather unexpected since i was expecting more of a typhoon. But alas, no such thing happen lol. Only me and staring into space moments..well for most of the morning i guess lol..it only starts getting busy after lunch and before i know it, its time to go home :D Oh wells, the fun-ness in the monotonous working life. How fun! ._.

Anyways, finished my daily routines of fb games lol, slots, scratch off's bla bla.. time to find another dvd and lay down while i finish whats remaining of the day... Wah! This sounds friggin depressing leh! I wanna start travelling again! T______T

Seriously, gonna save up and make sure i go travel Europe next year :DD!!

Oh on a extremely random note, mum has gone slightly overboard with the purchasing of toiletries recently. Now my bathroom has so many different kinds of body washes, body scrubs, facial washes also leh...from ginseng extracts to cinnamon extracts to alpine extracts o.o Its kinda fun goin to bath everyday and think "Hmmm, what shd i use today?" ._.

Ok la, since im still stuck in Malaysia for now and in my bedroom fr that matter, shall go with my earlier plans and find something to watch and fall asleep in the process while my sis complains to me tomoro how i always nvr switch off the tv :x What can i say? I like the sound of tv lulling me to sleep :s

Aloha Tuesday! :)

P.s. Not really looking forward to the week, seriously, bad vibes comin' about x.x

Suuunday!

2010-09-26T17:48:00.006+08:00

Oh man...cant believe the weekend is ending soon... *sobs*

And just as it was getting interesting :( Haha, im kidding la.. my weekends are far from interesting ok? Ive been lacking life for almost a year now wtf since i came back from kl ._.

But then again, my routine for this weekend seemed more pleasant than what ive been having the past cpl of weeks.. maybe its coz of the rain which has a somewhat calming effect haha :x

So, it was the routine, sleeping as much as i could, abit of anime, abit of movies, tho what i really wanna watch is "Devil" - heard good reviews about it and i guess M.Night Shyamalan cant do much wrong ba? So yea, looking forward to watching that and another Korean thriller which i cant seem to remember the name dy lol...D:

Also have been audiing on and off quite abit lol. Mostly by myself and admiring my so called "Pink Monster" - as called by the queen of pink herself, Jx ._. Its kinda calming really LOL! The color i mean.. i dono la, im getting weird, just ignore my quirks and love me still can? T_T

Anyway yea, findin that audi sorta bring me peace of mind, or maybe coz the music is blasting so loudly that i cant hear myself think :x Still its an effective way to not overthink. Tho at times, its brings back alot of memories with ppl who are not there anymore. Guess thats why i dont play with other ppl unless im with ppl i know. Inexplicable, so dont ask :p Even now while im writing this, audi is in the background and if i get out ideas, i go back in and play hehe :D

Been scouring deviantart again as well, looking for new proffy piccys...preferably pink ones like the one i have now which i didnt realise was so pink x.x - In need of serious head checking :x and i cant still seem to get photoshop to work on my pc T___________T Just when ima in a creative mood *pouts*

Well, kinda predicting that the week is gonna be hell of a busy state with installation due all over the place. Gonna be really hectic and might fall into my zombie mode again by the time the week has ended. Worse part is, i have another exam due this weekend. FML really =\

So wish me luck guys and pray i dont kill myself over the week x.x Lol jk...emm..nah, really, pray hard lol D:

P.s. I missed talking to you, i mean really talking.. :)

I love pink! O_O

2010-09-26T01:38:00.009+08:00

Recently, have been having tendencies towards pinky colored stuff.. kinda weird but hey, i hv my colors of the week thingy goin on sometimes lol x.x

Pink right! :3

And the weirdest part is...i actually am comfortable with it! LOL! :x Oh man, my mentality abit hay wire dy x.x I know la, the pic dam bo clear.. bery sad.. i think i shall attempt on dling my photoshop again since the last phailed attempt T^T

So there! My current love for pinky stuff :D just bear with me until i turn goth and like black again.. LOL :X

Now if only i got the pair of new wings...:x!

Aloha Friday!

2010-09-24T01:25:00.003+08:00

Cant believe its that day of the week again.. and my last post was on Sunday...again :x Just when i tot i was gonna post, thought of all the things i wanted to say and quickly come back to type it out...ended up, it was accumulated for 5 days...again ._.

But really tho, its the thought that counts right? I really reallyyy reallyyyy thought about bloggin de... so i blame time for moving too fast making it impossible for me to post in time and on a daily basis :S

Sidetrack abit from my sincere apology....i finally found something i really dont like about my new job.. LOL! Not that i go out of my way to find bad things about it, bt its really weird to have nothing to complain about yet.

So here it is... the thing i dislike most abt my current job is the office.. Dont get me wrong, its a classy place ok, i mean really classy, with jazz music playin in the background *though its the same songs over n over each day* but still, i dont really mind lol :x, and all the pc's are Apple Macs coz the bosses are Apple fanatics.. the things i really cant stand is the lack of internet connection when im in there!

I really mean it leh! SO STOP LAUGHING IF YOU ARE >_>! Its so ridiculous to the point that the minute i step in the office the connection breaks like nobody's business ._. And the "Unable to connect to server" on my iphone is really annoying dy. Im afraid i might accidentally kill my phone because of this TT

And i cant even use the office net *though it sucks big time too, i suspect its the server they installed* coz i dont have the password and cant really ask coz im still very new there lol. Sigh, i cant play bn properly also.. LOL! Ok la, im nt suppose to play at work, but i got breaks de ma :x

So there! I finally found something which really annoys me to hell! Yay!......:S

Hmmm what else? Not really much dy except that work is really picking up and im starting to get real busy with orders and stuff. Bosses are getting orders in faster than i can drink water lol.. i wonder how its gonna be like when its almost CNY @_@ Better prep myself from now onwards :) Also, maybe coz of this, husband and wife has been "debating" more often than normal lolz. Maybe its the norm ba, but i find it really entertaining... Sheesh, i like feeling awkward when they argue wtf lol :x

Think im too bored at work dy ba D:

And this would not happen if i could use my net without any problems...the me being bored part i mean...LOL! Really wad! I could entertain myself with my phone ma :x

So other than work, classes, entertainment at work what else have i been up to? Oh ya, after months of poofing, finally welcomed babe back to audi lol...tho its nvr long, but better than nvr right? :D Been audiing with Ivan more and actually after almost 2months of not tagging, tagged him to lvl on Monday night lolzzz.. Ppl were actually asking me "OMG ur tagging?!?" - Ya, i was ._.

Also, been loggin into FB more often now lol...as compared to my less than 5mins log in and log out earlier.. Guess i feel the need to keep in touch with some of my friends there which i have so badly abandoned :( Sorry la guys, alot of crap goin on for me now..abit too tired to cope x.x

Guess thats about it... at least there wont be work or classes this weekend which im of course happy about :D

I realised goin back to audi is not a good thing for me, i tend to spend more ._. My retail therapy is back :x Well at least till i go broke...in acash lol :p

Will post on what i got tomoro! Tatas for now!! :D

Dinner at Tao's!

2010-09-19T23:48:00.008+08:00

As predicted, i actually broke my fingers doing my exams :(

Lolz.. sad case ._. Goes to show how much we rely on the technology, i mean, i could type on and on and on and on but write 3 - 600 word essays and i break my limbs doing it >_> Bahs.

Well, my weekend came and left abruptly as a midsummer's nights dream. Sadly, there were not many dreams during the past weekend coz i didnt really get to sleep in as much. Wtfish, i didnt sleep in at all! Woke up fr JP class ard nine-ish, class ended at 12, had the saltiest maggie goreng for lunch *yucks* and went to take my exam.

And thus, hand breaking session started. 3 hrs of blood and sweat x.x But since i was the only one to take it due to not being able to take it earlier with the rest of the class, i had the privilege of doin it in 3 and a half hrs. Lol. If u think thats a good thing, think again guys =\

Me being the obsessed with words type, decided to write my draft 1st. Bad idea really, coz when it came to re-writing it, i literally almost cried T_T and asking myself "Why why why did i write so much!!" Ended up not writing some of the sentences. Lol..bahs again ._.

Oh well, so much for that, my "lovely weekend"... not so much x.x

Came home way past 5 and barely got warm in my home clothes when mum called me and asked we wanted to have dinner at Tao's. Bro's treat! Lol.. i was abit apprehensive and well actually more towards moody-ness coz sleepy ma lol.. bt at the expense of not irritating mum with my hermit like behaviour for the day, i went lo. See, i can be co-operative. PLUS the fact that it was Tao's! And and and bro's treat! LOL! :x

Some piccys? Well i think i should :p

Mussels!! Sashimi!! Abalone!! = Heaven!! :x

Grilled salmon in cheese, my fav! Omg omg :S

Frankly, its actually my 1st time eating there, and at RM50 per person for all u can order its quite a bargain, thats if u order the most exp stuff i.e. the sashimi :p

We reached quite late and the 1st session had already started so we ordered as fast as we could abo really bo tat leh lol.. *trying to explain the reason for the lack of pictures* :x But really! We had like abt an hr b4 the last call and the start of the next session so yea, had to order what we wanted fast. And as u can see, the portions are finger size nia de lol. So to make it as worth it as possible, needed to order non stop. LOL!

But honestly, it was very nice or maybe ive been craving for Jp food for awhile dy, but it was totemo oiishi de-chu! :D

So didnt regret going and finishing up what was remaining of my weekend will most certainly go again soon! :)

Anyone wanna join me? ;)

:)

2010-09-18T22:57:00.006+08:00

Its finally the weekends but nothing to really rejoice about... most prolly coz i was working full day today and didnt reach hm till almost 7 x.x Plus the fact that ill be having exams tomoro along with Jp class in the morning.. so there goes my weekends actually.. Yay! ._.

And please dont ask why im working a full day on saturday ok? Plus factor here would be, im actually getting paid to work those extra hours so i guess its ok lolz.. but for those who really know me knows thats money is NEVER as important as sleep. LOL! :x

AND AND AND....!! I need a new kb :S Either i get a new one or i dont audi dy, cz the damn noise is irritating as hell >_>

And and and!!! I cant believe its only a month away again...that "beloved" day of mine. Seriously, time is moving toooo dam fast! HOLD ON PPL!!! Ok la, im being dramatic but old age does that to one.... idj392t86u485234509)*($)#&%-381! Wait i didnt say im old... -.-

Talking abt age, i forgot i left out this very small detail during my outing last weekend, cant believe i actually forgot abt something which made me float. While i was out with my friends' friend's, i was actually asked if i was still studying.. LOLOLOL!! Im serious! Omfg ok, exploded inside with joy but calmly told them "Oh, ive been working many many years dy" HAHAHAHAHAHAHA!! Im so harpie :P

There might be another reason why they said this, but ima gonna stick with the one that makes me happy *shy* :x

Fine, ill stop being insane *grins*

So what else? Hmmm.. oh ya work stuff. Not really much to talk about lol, its been pretty peaceful for me here, tho there are occasional disagreements (not on my side) about stuff, which actually dont really concern me...im just the audience :p But other than that, nothing major ba. It can get pretty boring, but hey, im not complaining as much right? :D Guess its not the major hols yet, so thats why its been at an ok speed :) One thing which irks me once a while is the being repeatedly asked to do something which ive already done. They have some major ocd's goin on too ._.

Oh wells, time to continue studying abit more and 'lian' my fingers for the 3 essays ill need to write tomoro...sure hand break T^T

Wish me luck!!!! :D that i dont break my hand that is :x

2010-09-17T01:34:00.006+08:00

MAN! I CANT BELIEVE IM STILL GETTING SPAMMED! WTFBHDGSAFFAF! ._.

After reporting all of it as spam and banning, they just keep comin'! Im seriously friggin annoyed can? >_>

Oh well, putting me being pissed aside, and more of cheery stuff, i got a new purse! Lol! :x I know its not much, considering i just changed not too long ago, but mum and sis got it on saturday and i couldnt resist not taking one for myself...the leather was just too nicee! x.x For real ok! :S

Yes it looks simple enuf...but Kaufmann ok! :x

Hehe....now im happy back dy :D But ima still gonna find a way to get rid of those bladi spams..grrrrr!

Ok la, shall go to study abit for my coming exam :) Shall post again soon! I hope :x Haha..i will la..im very guai d ma :p

Tatas!! :DD

HOLA!

2010-09-16T17:12:00.003+08:00

And yes! Its a another holiday! Hahahahahaha.....:x But then, its no biggie la, just one day nia, not that dont appreciate it, coz like hell yea i do :D And tomoro is Friday! Woot!

Like i said in my post b4 this (which i actually just posted not too long ago :x) i forgot to actually save a few posts during the weekends, and so here i am to blurt it all out at once. Lets pray it wont turn out too long coz God knows how long my attention will stay here this time... Oh my, i actually feel a sudden sense of faltering attention a'comin just about now :x

Maybe i shd go find a dvd to play while i type my life's events out :p I wuv multi-tasking!

SO! Last Saturday i actually LEFT home.. yup u heard me right. I actually came out of hibernation and instead of ppk'ing which i normally tend to do, i DIDNT! Cool right? Im such a nice friend :x And to think, the last place i would actually wanna go on a weekend/public holiday because of the jams and the packed condition, i did it anyway. Man, im so proud of myself :D

Btw, the above mentioned place? Gurney Plaza. Lol.. yea :D

Now that place is not one of my fav places to go really, but i was deprived of expensive coffee and just hanging out and gossiping so yea, i broke the pact to myself and went anyway. And sis actually asked to go to MPH and look for our JP exams book. Which i coincidently managed to find...so yeap , ima happy :D Though i shoulda gone to the logitech shop to get my new kb :x Which i didnt even remember about till later that nite when i back in just to audi awhile lol.. Guess no audiing does that to a person... Now i remember how bladi noisy my kb is ._.

Nvm...next time! :x * i know some ppl are like going "YEAH RIGHT"* well, i dont care! Lalala :x

Anyway, hung out at Gurney from 4plus to about almost 7...had my coffee cure, but kinda got the wrong kind coz ima not really a DOME girl, so it turned out i ordered something kinda sweet which actually made me kinda hyper...in a way D: Then went ard window shopping cz i couldnt find what i wanted to get lol.. was actually thinking of getting a new bottle of perfume since my last one from Body Shop finished dy. And me being sensitive to strong scents couldnt really find any except the one from DKNY which was just perfect .. so shall get it next month i guess ;)

After that headed for dinner, and guess what? Dome again lolz.. this time we went to the one in Island Plaza though :) Had spicy olio spaghetti which was absolutely yummlicious! Sorry i didnt take pics though, it came quite after a lot of waiting and i was hungry T^T....only remembered half way through it... *pouts* So, more chit chat, some funny convos coz i didnt really know some of the ppl there coz they were friends of my friend lol, but i realised i can still mingle with ppl i dont know lol.. ok la, so im nt a full fledged hermit yet :x

So there was it, my day out! But the next day, sunday, i had to recuperate for the "hectic" by sleeping for most of the day dy..LOL :x Bo pian la, Monday working ma! Was under duress D:

Anyway, been getting jio-ed by the most unlikely ppl to audi. Like once in a blue moon de jio? 1st by Ken then it was Ivan lol.. guess they were pretty bored ._. And the "best part" was, the minute i logged in, ppl were like "OMG WHERE HAVE U BEEN?" like i died or something nia wtf =.= and also i realised i kena deleted by ppl O_O and bump into them in game and they're like apologizing coz apparently they were mass deleting ._. Have i told u ppl tat i hate gettin deleted, regardless of the reason? Yes, i DISLIKE it alot >_> But they added me str8 back and asked me to accept lol...oh well, ima nice person and wont let my ocd stop me from accepting back nice ppl i guess :x

So, i guess, its either i stop audi altogether OR i dont mia as long....wth its only been one month plus leh ._. Blah =\

I think i shd stop now, coz ima getting dizzy from typing all this and im sure whoever is reading this is getting pretty dizzy too :p too wordy? Live with it! :x Im so proud of myself! I actually finished it one shot! *grins!*

Oh oh i forgot abt work stuff! Ahh... tomoro la! :x Buaizzz!!

P.s. There used to be a time when u said u wanted me there always, now it only seems like you just want me to leave you alone.. :)

Holidays!

2010-09-11T14:54:00.004+08:00

..and i didnt do anythingggg but sleeep sleeep and more sleeeeep :D

Seriously, i was literally on my beautiful and loving bed the entire day on Friday. Yup, did nothing at all.. hence the repeating of not doing anything coz i sincerely have nothing to talk abt since i did...erm....well... NOTHING? :p

Ok la, family went to Cameron's and i decided to skip the trip. Frankly my last ordeal or rather my last visit there, well visions of me being sick? Not bery nice :x Besides, i had plans for my 3day break lor... i planned to...yup u guessed it, sleep and do nothing. LOL. And and i was feeling abit under the weather since morning.. bad stomach aches till i broke into cold sweats and had to curl myself in bed x.x

I feel so embarrassed..ehh, nah im not..bleh :D

I mean, come on, this is the first time in MONTHSS since i had completely nothing on on the weekends lor.. so yea, a little insanity is allowed :)

Anyways, Friday was spent completely in bed and have been rewatching Friends from season 1 again lol. Been feeling kinda down and stressed out lately with the exams and stuff and i find watching it always makes me feel a little better. Hey, we all have our little quirks ok? Just so happen mine is watching a grp of adults acting dumb.. which is kinda fun :D

And watching shows like this takes my mind of things, and i get to really lol alot :) So let me be ok? ._. lol

But one question guys, have u ever laid in bed until u cant feel yr back at all? Overslept much too much? :x

Though i did wake early and fell back to sleep many times during the day *i blame it on BN and my obsession in lvling* *grumble grumble* Well, had ramen for lunch ala moi truly and with coffee after that and continued with my Friends...ahhh cest la vie ♥

Family came home quite late at night, and well, it was strawberries galore with them lol and lotsa lotsa jagung o.o There was strawberry fondue (yes, strawberry dipped in choco), fresh strawberry in vanilla ice cream, the lots man. Fruits everywhere i tell you! Lol..but they did get me my fav blueberry jam ..yum :D

Was feeling kinda abit down at night though so didnt really indulge with the food lol.. but im gonna be ok i guess. I mean if thats how its gonna be, then i have no say in it anymore. It still hurts like shit though :)

P.s. This is going to be such a late post :x I know i shd have posted earlier and well saved a few more days de post, but i forgot T^T

Note to self: Sleeping too much, makes one retarded ._.

Doh!

2010-09-09T22:36:00.007+08:00

If ur wondering why i blocked my blog again, well its not to block the spams coz i finally realised it doesnt really work ._.

Nononono.. the reason its blocked this time is coz i also realised how big of a doh head i can be at times >_> And what this doh head did was open her blog at work and left it to do other things using the computer in her BOSS' office ... Yes, tell me about it.

If ur wondering whats so big a deal, well remember my last post? Im being paid to stick stamps? *slaps forehead* Lolz.. anyway im pretty sure they didnt see it, well i hope anyway ._. so until i go back to work on Monday and delete the history on that pc, which i forgot to do before i left zzz, this blog will be locked. Bla.

Im pretty sure they'll be goin to the office tomoro, so ima not taking chances D:

Other than that bery unfortunate dumbass-ness on my part, im quite happy thats its an early weekend for me! Finally 3 days of not working and no classes on sunday! Wheeee!! Ecstatic is the word *jumps for joy* Im so gonna sleep sleep sleep :D

Though ive been tummy flu since morning T^T .. i hope it goes away soon :(

Anyway, family going up to Cameron later, and im skipping it lol...after the last incident, i really dont think i wanna go there any time soon x.x Soo, ill be having Friday to myself...HOME ALONE :D.. i feel its kinda cool having the hse to myself once in awhile :p

So gonna go to bed and rest and think of things to do tomoro! Lol :x

Oh ya, had an old school friend sms me to go to her hse for Raya, and i said yes. Problem is, i dont really knos who it is.. LOL! Im serious! I nvr did transfer my old phone contacts to my new phone...bleh. Actually i nvr transfer alot of my contacts from any of my phones ._.

So! Im just sms her back and ask her where her hse is *pretending that i dont remember how to go* and then see her which im hoping will remind me what her name is. Hahahaha :S Im such a doh really >_>

Oh wells.. Nites!

Weekends come soon!!

2010-09-08T14:40:00.003+08:00

Nah, here i am updating! :p

So will the hols come soon? Please please please? *pouts*

Lol...just found out that there wont be work this coming weekend *claps with glee!* coz actually the company only shuts down for one day nia de :( but luckily bosses decided to shut anyway coz most places are teehee :D

Ok, please ignore my annoying childish behaviour T_T just bery happy that i get to sleep in more this week. YES, i am that sleep deprived :( Been sleeping right after i come hm from work after dinner (this only applies on days i dont have classes ok? ._.) with my pc halfway switched on (if ur wondering how u half switch on a pc, well u can, by switching it on and then waking up in the middle of the nite to switch it off without touching it..bla) and with my phone in my hand >_>

Currently updating at work while bosses are with a client and ive sorta off done most of the work for today, and cant really do much coz suppliers are already shutting down fr hols :D so, im doing the borin task 0f sticking stamps on envelops..LOL! I know right? Im gettin paid to stick stamps on envelops hahahaha :x

Btw, did u know, it now costs 60cents to send mail within Penang itself? Used to be only 30cents leh..goes to show how long ive nt used snail mail.. Food for thought? Or total pointless crap? I like to think of it as the former ._.

So while im here, being paid to stick stamps and blog about totally useless cr.. i mean food for thoughts, im having absolutely nothing else to do. Jealous right? :p

Oh ya, have been having my twilight zone dreams again depending on the mood i fall asleep in. Srsly its getting creepier every time i have them o_o Esp the ones i have if i slept in a bad mood, my goodness, i really wake up in cold sweats D:

*if your startin to think that this post has no point whatsoever, im a hundred and one percent...with you* Lol :s

Ok la, i thought i had useful stuff to blog about (have there been useful ones? ever?) but it turns out, i dont ._. So i guess ill stop here b4 it gets too absurdly boring :(

*takes glue and starts applyin on stamps* T_T

Nostalgic

2010-09-07T01:22:00.006+08:00

Was transferring some of my stuff from my old Nokia E71 phone, u know, contacts, smses.. stuff like that. Got to reading some of my old smses frm when i started to use that phone and not much of it were happy stuff .. :(

Its times like this which made me feel sad that i lost the msgs i got from u when u 1st left and when i was in KL..

I really wonder who is the one who has really changed? Is it really me or u? In a way, i know ive changed.. bt only cause u have too...alot.

There was a time in our lives when u would always seem to care how i felt about things and felt upset if i were to stay silent. It felt like you were genuinely concerned. Times how u told me u missed having me ard (the jokes, the playin hookey frm work lolz :x), and how u would call me everyday just to tell me how your day went.

Slowly it disappeared...hence i felt left alone.

I tried to get through to you, tried to reach out and find the cause of all this sudden change. And i found out why. Almost a year ago today, my world fell apart, or rather our friendship did. Maybe distance played a part, and the fact that i was no longer there made u seek out alternative friends. Or maybe it was always like this with you, hot in the beginning and cold towards the end.

The constant denials and anger of what was going on even when i confronted you, and later finding out it was all true. The doing things behind my back and hopin i wont find out, but i always did in the end..the blaming me for intruding on your space.. sudden mistrust and coldness.. Lolz.. i nvr really saw it coming :)

Thus i tried holding on, guess my desperation gt the best of me, coz it seemed u hated me more n more. I wonder if ur still ard coz of how long we've known each other and not coz u really want to.

And i really wonder why u cant seem to talk to me abt things u used to talk to me abt anymore. One qn puts u in the most foulest mood. U might think im judging you and by telling others they wont, bt its only coz ive known u too long. I wont ever understand the things uve done, and why ur still with the ppl i really will nvr respect, do you really care abt them so much?

Its been almost a year and still they're very much part of your life and u reprimand me for condemning them. But yet i stick by it, i shall nvr look at them with anything but disgust. If u should hate me for that, so be it.

I wonder, the day u made the vow to not talk to me anymore, and if i had not said anything, would u have gone through it? U might. Maybe :)

The reason why im putting this all here is coz i dont want to fill my phones with sad and hurtful smses anymore, smses gone unreplied, smses of anger and sadness. Not from you.

I really really miss those msgs, from the person who really cared and didnt mind the attn from me, but i dont need them to remember how things were, coz they will stay in my heart for always. Its just time to clear some space for the bad things from my heart so it wont hurt as much..not anymore :)

Maybe fate is telling me something?

I really hope ull read this, really :)

IM BACK....AGAIN! LOL!

2010-09-04T22:07:00.007+08:00

Finally im back here, staring at my 21" monitor and hoping i get at least one post out today, coz some ppl have been saying that ive been abandoning my blog ._. Not that i do it intentionally but its kinda hard to blog when i suddenly hv not much of a life and dying from exhaustion :(

Help? Please?

I should say i took it upon myself, this suicidal mission. Grrr... so im just bitchin can? I need to release my pent up anger so i dont lose any more my remaining marbles. Lol.. On a random note, am currently patching my audi (i didnt even know there was one *gasp*) and visiting it after mia'ing fr a few weeks now and to also find a certain sea creature and disiao her :p

Oh ya!

HAPPY INDEPENDENCE DAY!!!! :D

Lol...i know its like almost 2 weeks late but hey, i shiok :p Actually i had a post, well a starting of a post on the actual day.... ok more like a the title nia T_T.. Bleh. Seriously ppl, its not that i dont wanna update, i just dont like staring at the pc for hrs with my fingers on the kb but nthg coming out ._.

And so, what else has been goin on in my life to cause such abandonment on my side? Exams 2 weeks after each other? Jp classes? And to think i enrolled for JLPT (Japanese Language Proficiency Test) at the end of the year. Bo pian, its only once a yr, so just try lor..hopefully i dont fail tho >_>

AND IM STILL GETTING SPAMSS! >>>>> Wtfish fiak fug bla bla blaaaa!

*collects composure* Moving on....

Have i mentioned how extremely tired i feel? Im feeling very out of breath and kinda abit lonely n unloved :( Maybe my overworking has made me feel this way..hmm.. i really really really need a long break and be with ppl who actually loves and cares for me D:

So work has been work..bosses came back early this week and now we're all rushing for Raya orders. Cant believe its already almost mid september and then next thing you know its 2011 lolz. And i cant believe its been a year since well, alot of bad things happened this time last year which kinda broke me down many times over, tho it seems like its happening again. Sigh.

Anyways, i promise to update more, and frequently le, coz i really dont hv much places to spill and it doesnt matter if no one reads anymore, its just a place for me to relieve the insanity and gain back my sanity :)

*loves*

RAWRERS!!!

2010-08-25T13:43:00.005+08:00

Me is so damn lazy to do anything! Wtf =\

Been in a moodless state on and off, something is definitely wrong somewhere, just cant put my finger on it yet and its annoyin the hell out of me. Wtf wtf wtfasdasdqwdsa ._.

And no, i dont blame it on pms, coz already pass ok? Sheesh, so dam irritable lately. Really wonder what the hell is wrong with me >_>"

Bla. Forget it. Im tired i suppose ._.

On another note, home has been kinda..hmm..how do we say this? Not peaceful? Lol.. Ok la, more like cold war between mum and sis. And u know about what? The dog.

Yup, u heard me right, or rather read me right lol. Patch (ze dog) has gotten abit more agressive lately and we dont really know why. And sis being the one who brought it back and mum who has to babysit him the whole day are at each other's on who's fault that is. Lol *shrugs*

I figure he is spoiled by mum, thats why the 'attitude' problem, though mum says its coz sis plays with him too roughly. I dono la, bigger possibility is he is a spoilt brat lol coz mum gives in too much with him. Sigh. *shrugs again* I guess even Patch has been sensing the coldness in the house and has been rather subdued these few days after the big outburst 2 days back.

Lol. Drama, drama, attitudes ._.

And also im finding that the days are movin extremely fast, till i cant really remember wat i did throughout the day and by the time i realise that, its over and time to sleep o_o; Tmd, will Time slow down abit ar?

Had a lot of stuff to post about ytd, but suddenly not feeling up to it. Dont really feel like talking regardless of how bothered i am with it. Bahs.

Anyway, got my 10th collection in Bn this morning, thanks to babe :D Though i was kinda drowsy and i actually had to sit up straight so that i didnt do silly stuff during attempt lol. Surprisingly got it done quite fast :) So yea, thanks babe ;)

My Ava cute right? LOL! Im such a fashion freak no matter wat game i play, my ava must keep changing looks de. Man, me and my fickleness lol :x

Ok la, gonna go revise abit of JP and back to work i suppose. Though i kinda got nothing much to do coz i finished most of it dy. Hmmm..

Have a great Wednesday guys! Ciaoz!

Happy Birthday Bro!!

2010-08-22T21:13:00.004+08:00

Yeah, its kinda belated..but still one day nia lor..and besides it wasnt on purpose de..i ter-forget save a post for ytd ._. bite me lar! Bleh..

Anywaysss....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BRO~!!!!!!!!!

As much as u irritate me and say im obsessed and psycho when i ask u to do things, but hey, u also same hor, if not even worse..LOL! =p So i hope ur wishes keep coming true and u keep fatt fatt choyyy arrrr!!!! Then can buy me new car..LMAO :X

So wat was up during the weekends? Nothing much? As usual la lol. Worked half day on Saturday coz bosses going off to Shanghai d for one week T_T So ima gonna be in the office alone most of the times. Hopefully everything goes well and smoothly lor :D Abo i dieeeeee!! *pouts*

After work, stayed at home and become bedridden lol..for most part of the day too :x Well, i did say i wanted to rest le ma after an exhausting week lol. And it was ok la, not enuf still i must say ._. Time like tick tocks by even faster when ur doing nothing >_>

Didnt go anywhere at nite for bro's bday too, just stayed at home and had a family meal which now consists of steamed veggies lolz. Well, its been like that for almost a week d. Healthy living la katakan hahas.. wat to do, we sinned too much with yummy food. So far so good leh, no withdrawal or symptoms of denial yet. LOL! Lets see who will be the 1st to break :p Till now all still bery semangat leh.. Good good! rofl:X

Sunday mornings were spent in nihongo no benkyou o shimasu as usual, and classes gettin more n more difficult by the week...hmmmm.. i feel an out of body experience dy now when im in class.. Maybe im doing too many things at once..And i still was thinking of photography lessons. LOL! Ima on a suicide mission :x

Nvm la, i will make it! Mag mag gambarimashyou ne!

Oh ya, got piccys of bro's cake, but nt we buy de coz apparently office colleagues bought secret recipe de cake for him, so he asked us not to dy. But my ... pic .. is .. in...the...phone. D: Blah. Shall take it out when im kut lat again lol..Now my pc is like left idling most of the times and i only use it to play Cafe world, Slots and my scratch offs (yes, i still play =p) AND AND AND....the cake not bery nice :x We even gave half away to sis de friend lool..Banana de..nt really our fav and the bananas abit hmm..dono how to say ._.

Thats about it, i think. Oh and im meeting up with old colleagues from my ex ex ex job this coming weekends...wah, i just realised i changed quite a number dy lol. :X Wat can i say, i live vicariously (not to my mum's approval) and i get bored easily =p

Doinks to all of you. Buaizzz!!

Friday baby!!

2010-08-20T01:48:00.004+08:00

Whooop!! Its finally hereeee...!!!

Hmm..now why do we get so idiotically excited over the weekends? Coz we dont have to work thats why!! Lol..ok, dont mind my overly idiocy ._. Im just in need of sleep time, which is coincidently what i have been doing these past few days. Falling asleep,with the phone in my hand >_>

Now now, u might say im being extremely addicted. So dont! I have my mum doing that everyday, so no need to remind me somemore ok? Though i must stress, im not really that addicted (pls dont mind the "i fell asleep with phone in hand" line) :x

Thing is, its always the same sentence being used, when i was "addicted" to the pc, or when i was "addicted" to audi...bla bla bla.. Tell me somethin i dont know can? Boring leh :p

Now i realised my blog has been lacking photos, unlike last time. Reason being? I have no things to take pics off. Simple as that ._. Though i would love too, like they say, a picture says a thousand words...or simply put, i don't have to type so much crap to keep u entertained :x

Fret not my fellow earthlings, i shall post some pics of sinful foods on saturday... bro's birthday ;) So look at it and weep ppl! Yummy :p

Oh ya, let me sidetrack abit from telling u about my oh so eventful life and tell u guys a convo i heard between mum and sis the other day..

Mum was asking sis about shop in Queensbay Mall and how to get there..

Sis: Seriously, u just take the lift down, its just at the lower ground area nia.
Mum: But which one is the lower ground?
Sis: The one below ground floor ._.
Mum: I know la, but any other level after lower ground bo?
Sis: Got.
Mum: See! What level?
Sis: Hell =.=

LOL! I almost choked on my coffee when i heard this. Seriously sis, i und ur feeling totally...ahahahaha :X For those who think this is not funny, LAUGH ALSO! Wan kena smack ar? Im entertaining your otherwise mundane life ok? Sheesh!

Eh wait, sidetrack again... my phone has no screen protector :x I knw totally random, just was looking at it and realised bro told me dont need de coz its scratch proof. Now tell me, is he bs-ing me again? ._.

Ok, back on track.. hmmm...erm....being on track ish not bery fun >_>

Anyway, looking for new games to play on my phone, but the batt life really a kill joy la..play awhile nia, then the toopid "20% battery left" msg pops up dy. So much for gaming on the go. Gaming while attached to the power point more like it ._.

Oh wells, time to oink and get some rest. But lately, been having weird dreams again which at times makes no friggin sense at all. Worse part is i can remember them even after i wake up. Really buggin me man, sheesh.

Till tomoro! Ja matane! :)

Exhausted x.x

2010-08-19T01:58:00.004+08:00

And its only Thursday..T^T

With work and studyin and exams...im mentally exhausted and drained. Guess the past week has been murder @_@;;

But that being said, am looking forward to the coming weekends, hoping to get some rest, i hope. And also with slight apprehension for the coming week coz bosses will be goin off to Shanghai for the week leavin me Office Alone *smacks cheeks ala Mcaulay Culkin* Lol.. :X

Part of me is happy to be finally be able to slack slightly :XX the other part is petrified! What if ppl come in and i dont know to serve them?? Tmd im skedddddd... Rofl. Yaya, as if i give a damn. Just do the "im kinda new here so forgive if im wrong" look and im scott free! Believe it or not, i almost 99.99% get away with it. Hey, im not happy being the dumb ass ok? I would rather be helpful D:

Anyway, i can foresee that for the coming week, i will most prolly be doin data entry (zzzzzz...boring) of past customers and looking into their filing system (zzzzzz again) But im still happy working here ba, considering my almost not busy days and yet i have so much to do days here.. Get me? Blahs if u dont.... :p

Jp class was horridly excrutiatingly painful ytd. Sensei's tryin to get us to converse more hence answer and qn sessions by us. Funny thing is, i think he expects more from my grp of 4 ppl than the rest of the class ._. As in the difficulty in qns asked. Good thing? Should be, but not when ur in the limelight. Double blas.

Need to practice more dy and get more smooth when talking. Not like some cacat-ed (no offense) person. Wth._.

Oh wells, back to work. My spammed cbox has stopped fr the time being after reporting that i was being spammed >_> Hopefully it stays nice and pretty like this for awhile D:

And APAC, please leave a msg when u drop by..dont be a stranger ;)

Back to work!! :3

Ode to Humanity!

2010-08-18T22:53:00.004+08:00

or rather to the lack of it =.=

Reason for me saying is coz just a cpl of days back, i witnessed human selfishness and heartless-ness up close and personal. Not that i havent seen it before, but this time it was just ...no words come to mind.

Cause of my sudden outburst is my about 2 hses down de neighhbour.This is the story and im sure u'll be able to imagine how i felt being me. If not, then pretend that u do can?

Well, these ppl had this white dog and everyday they would walk the dog, play with it and u knw, do the normal owner pet thingy. Then suddenly one day they got a new dog and decided they didnt want the old dog anymore and so locked it out of the gate. Yes, just like that. It was like telling it, we dont want u anymore, we loved u ytd, but no more today. Sick right?

Anyway, dogs being dogs, it stood by the gate, still being ever protective of the ppl he used to call owners, guarding it gates and the hse relently every single day, even whn it rained, it just stood there, drenched with no shelter. Now me being an animal lover, and my family of coz, felt angered by this cowardly act. How could ppl be so unforgivingly cruel? But we forget, ppl are nasty beings, they can kill each other, so what is this? Lol..

We tried our best to get ppl to take it in, and we would hv too, but it refused to leave its ex owner. So, wat could we do but to watch out for it, coz there were lotsa stray dogs ard which were much more meaner.

Weeks turned into months and the previously clean white dog, was nw grey. Family was still looking fr ppl to take him in bt time was really running out. Thankfully there were still a few good souls who fed it every day. I wished one of them could hv taken him.

Our nightmare turned reality when one day i reached home and saw it standing in front of my house with a bruised eye and badly bitten jaw :( My heart sank and we could do nothing more but to try n feed it, but it disappeared again in the middle of the nite.

The next day, i went back hm fr lunch and saw it tied with dam short rope outside of the ex owners house. And abt 15mins later, SPCA came and took it. We all know wat this means..dog in this condition will most prolly be euthanised. And it was the owner who called it in wtffff! If they had called it in when they first dumped him, he could hv been easily adopted, bt in his current state, no way that was gonna happen..

I remember vividly the look on its face as it was dragged into the van..i wonder if it knows wat will happen... heart sunk even more..

That same nite, i saw that family walkin into their home and laughing, i felt disgusted that they did not feel one string of remorse or sadness over what happened to the dog who despite being deserted never once deserted them.

I pray that Karma is awake to see this and teach these people the meaning of compassion.

Somehow, my pain is not so significant anymore and ive learned that no one can be trusted to love n care for you. Only i can do that :)

P.s. I know ur in a better place now, free from the pain n suffering :)

Boo!

2010-08-16T23:10:00.007+08:00

Lol...:x

I guess ive been missin in action again huh? :p And even after blocking my blog, im still getting spammed >_> Anyone gt any ideas? Bery bery annoyin can?

So, after poofing for more than a week, wat has happened in my always beautiful world? Nothin much but extreme tiredness ._. I actually plan to blog at work de lo, coz i dont really have much to do, bt i always end up not being able to for some reason. It seems like i hv alot of work n seem pretty busy, but i dont see it leh...O_O

Guess the time just really whooshes by at work now...hmmm..

Anyway, like i said, its been a pretty busy week. Jp classes are back on after a short break...got our jp results back and i must say i did quite well considering i didnt hv time to finish it ._. Now we're in Elementary 2 and learning Katakana writings...Man, i havent even really memorised the 1st one lo. Wth.. and to top it off, the class is larger than before due to additional students from another class. Well, we'll see how long that lasts...lol :x Some ppl just no determination de...tsk tsk :D

Other than that, was having my exams for one of my teaching dip modules, and write dao hand wan break. Goes to show how much ive been holding a pen ._. the next one is gonna be even worse, due next month. That one have to write 3 freakin essays and one of them is ard 750 words. FML.

So, had classes throughout the weekend. Thank god its only once a month that i need to sacrifice my rest days, and luckily it didnt drag on till to late, prolly coz, this module just needs a lot of reading up. I was really almost fallin asleep in class coz the lecturer was TTT-ing most of the time. (TTT- Teacher Talk Time..Lolz).

Other than that, nothing much has happened. Well, they've been some happenings, just not worth reminiscing about i suppose. What has happened, has past. Though it still hurts when i suddenly recall it, but it will heal ba. And whether or not u meant it or not, is kinda unimportant dy nw :)

One thing is for sure, i really really really need a break considering i nvr did stopped working from old one to new one. Maybe go down kl and look up some old friends :D That could a good plan lolz. Also making plans to go UK sometime before Dec or maybe early Jan? Hopes so :)

Well, thats about it. Still hooked on BN for the mean time, aiming for lvl 100 :p Heard that audi is having x2 exp and x2 dens...shd i also chiong exp now ? :x

Anyways, thank goodness ill be having my much needed rest time. Plan to stay at home and rot..unless mum gets ideas ._. Oh ya...its my bro's birthday! Hmmm...

Guess thats about it...and i really really really really need to get rid of the spam in my chat box. Extremely annoyin to the max and somehow blogger template seems to look weird and i cant justify my paragraphs dy. Zzzzz...

Till my next post then! Tootles! :D

Tadaima! :)

2010-08-07T23:50:00.012+08:00

Ima back!!!! :D

Lol..well after a just 4 days of mia'ing nia la...not bad lor ok? I still come in everyday to check and apparently my chatbox has been invaded by dono who o.o... hence ive decided to once again close my blog to open invites only. Sucks, but wat to do...i dont like messy stuff esp from ppl i dont even know =.=

Also, been busy with new work :) and i dont really have my own pc yet coz they're actually closing their year end accs, so shall only get new assets next month. Oh wells, till then lor ;) So not only have i been away from my blog, ive not even fb'ed these few days. Plus home net seems kinda unstable...or maybe its fb coz i seem to have trouble loggin in my games ._. So i just shut down pc and go watch tv :p

Plus the fact that ive been somewhat addicted to BN. I only have one person to blame for that :x LOL! My sleeping hours have been become kinda screwy due to the notifications that come in during my sleep and i battle sometimes half asleep ._. No, im not that addicted, just dont know how to off the bladi notification >_>"

So, how has work been?

Erm,its been ok i suppose. Nice to work actually and the bosses are nice :) so no complaints there lol. Well so far la. But then i guess for them to also give special leave for birthday is a plus point. LOL! I knw right? Its so cute :p

Still in the dumbass mode where u have to learn everything from scratch about how they do things. One good point is, i start work at 9.30 and the office is like less than 10mins away frm home..hehehehe! Extra sleep ish good :p

Anyway, theyve been readying me for when they go off for a trade fair sometime at the end of the month. So yea, not to say not busy but also not overly busy. Get it? Lol..

Thats that, my rather sort update coz ive seemingly fallen into the trap of the iphone. And its constantly by my side for now lolz. My mum said to sis the other day, "She got an iphone, i lost a daughter" H-a-h-a mum...ur so amusing ._.

I promise i shall update more! Problem is, i dont really have my own pc at work :(

I also dont wan ppl say , "No update also" Blehs... u guys know who u are.

Ciaoz!!!

Monday Blues? :S

2010-08-02T01:02:00.007+08:00

Omgosh!!

Accidently lost track of time and its already Monday morning x.x and lost my Sunday post....*sobs*

Blames babe for making me once again preoccupied with a new game lolx D: Ok ok, its not entirely your fault that i have certain ocd's which urge me to be better at a game and get myself so immersed in it that i lose all sense of time and space n the people around me ._.

So ima freak, bite me >_>"

Mum was like, u better dont be playin with it at work tomoro ar...she kidding ar? Im not that addicted till cant put down the phone de...sheesh what is she thinking? Goodness i feel so insul-....hmmm, ima abit worried i will be somehow dy *pouts*

Ahhh blablablablabla...I wont! I shall control my urges! D: I just hope Monday goes well and im not left staring wide eyed with nothing to do as we normally would first day on the job...golly, i hope i dont fall asleep! *gulps*

So wish me luck guys at new place tomoro kay! :D

Sunday was basically spent at home...mainly in bed..well not the entire day la, i went out in the early afternoon to gurney to get my guess iphone case :D Didnt think it would be so nice but it was and im happy with it hehe ;)

And then i came home and slacked on ze bed...hey, ive been out for the past 2days lor..need to rest de lor.. D: And didnt have Jp class today coz we're moving on to 2nd level which only starts in another 2weeks lol :) So hell yea, it was well deserved rest okie! :x

So twas' my lazy sunday afternoon, napped, woke up, played bn, watched dvd, napped? :x Wanted to get new dvd's at midlands earlier but sadly not much new shows were on sale ._. sadded.

Oh wells, now for ze piccy's of moi new toy! :D

Ze phone... :D

Ze case... :p

Nice right? nice right? Say nice please? :p I dont care..i say its nice ;) Funny thing is, i didnt expect to get it so soon and so easily.. Mum followed me to the shop and after all the explanation she was like, ok, up to u.. *dont ask me why my mum needs to follow me, its just wat she does and i being the good daughter obliges :x* Anyway, ya, my mum approving it means alot coz that means she wont bug me whenever she sees me using it..Lol..Wat a twisted life i lead ...~

So that was that, my dream phone finally by my side and i can tick off another thing off my wishlist :D *does the happy danceee* :p

Ok la, enuf of happy-ing and time to get to bed~! Happy Monday blues all and have a great week ahead ne! :D

P.s. Sis was asking me why i dont do a collage and put the pics in all together...but that would mean the pics are much smaller and im in a show-off-sy kind of mood..LOL! Bla. Nites!

Hangover :S

2010-07-31T21:47:00.005+08:00

In fact, i havent had a hangover in years..well not with other ppl that is.. coz there was a time in KL when i was totally under the influence of alcohol..but thats another story :S

It was roughly about 5buckets with the majority of 3ppl drinking the lot (one of them would be yours truly x.x) They seriously out to get me for all those times i ppk-ed them D: or maybe taking into account the next time i will come out again =.= u know la, hermit very hard to jio out one :x

Anyway, had a very funny start to the evening coz i was basically rushing out to meet up with them *and they were later than me ._.* . The reason i was in such a rush was coz i was out in the afternoon to get my....IPHONE! Yes! I finally got it XDDDD~! Will post piccy's later coz im still busy fiddling ard with it ahahahahaa :x

So yea, stories of my new toy will be in another post...thats if i dont fall asleep coz ive been sitting away from the pc these past 2 days staring at my phone :p and and on a side note...audi's been down for almost 3days now T^T~.. Come back soon wor..i miss looking at my ring :(

Continuing back to my pre-hangover nite..

The guys reached Qbay ard 9plus and i was ok being there 1st coz i was busy fiddling with my phone...:x Okok..shall not mention phone from now onwards :x Anyway, they reached and Vara did his overly dramatic act as usual and hugged me. Then i gave him my good news...in my rush out, i actually left my purse at home..LOL! Seriously it wasnt on purpose lor coz i didnt put back in the bag i was using...and and...i was rushing out ma D: Imagine my surprise when i wanted to pay fr parking but bo purse ._. Heng i got alot of ta li kia in my car ok >_>" FML.

They did say wan belanja me de ma....and i really really forgot de D: Sadded.. lol :S And no license somemore ._.

In the end, we drank till almost 3am and all of us were dead drunk wtf.. and to think i had to drive back home without a license and woozy x.x Well i did the normal thing i always used to do...raced car back home :x I know la, dangerous right..but if i drive slowly..will fall asleep =.=

Anyway, was still having a hangover this morning when i woke up hesitantly coz mum wanted me to go buy new clothes for new job on monday lol...Oh well, since i cant audi, went with them lor...kidding la lol..i wanted to get some new clothes too :) its sort of a new start ma..must start fresh lolz :p

But then again, im poorer by a cpl of hundred bucks ._. and then i calculate the fact that i managed to get 5sets of clothing..ima bery happy chica :D Reject shop ftw lol..seriously they have alot of nice stuff recently :D

So, here i am tired as hell, and earlier came back burning up with my face turning red from the heat of all the alcohol i consumed last nite x.x so took a very long bath and now typing this and nodding off as we speak...

And im kena bullied in BN! T^T...ppl keep stealing my collection b4 i can complete...*cries*

They better dont force me to become a bitch lo...=.= lol..

Heading off to bed for now...shall post piccys (well they did take drunkard pics of us...hmm maybe i shdnt post it :x) and my new toy :3 tomoro hehehe....now bery exhausted liao...

Need to liee downnn... D:

Ciaozz!!

Liberation!!

2010-07-29T19:40:00.006+08:00

Im finally freeee...!! After almost 2yrs, ive finally moved on :)

Not to say it was all bad, there were some good in it too..i guess. Lol.. Its like eating bitter sweet chocos (the sweet part would be when im all alone in the office with nothing to do..LOL!) Man, im gonna miss those things for sure. And the fact that they've changed to 5day work =.=

Well, i think i made the right move :) Besides, i couldnt see any raise in anything soon with the old place but with this new one, i felt i could. Hoping for the best as usual ;) *fingers crossed*

Farewell my table...~

Yea yea, i know im being overly dramatic but im not completely lacking in emotions, that would certainly be an understatement. Even felt a sense of lost when i uninstalled audi from my pc :x plus clearing all my browsing history along with all the other stuff which does not concern work that i do when i have nothing to do or rather when i dont want to do anything.

Get me? Blahs.

Hopefully ive cleared my work and handed over to my manager, coz i dont think i wanna hear frm them for awhile :x Even my boss was like "Must pick up the phone if we cant find something ar" ...Shit! Let them see through me dy =.= We'll see... *whistles*

On another note, had my Jp test ytd and conclusion would be....

とてもむずかしいです!!!!

Die die die die =\ crazy sensei...with almost 11 pages of qns in less than 1hr =.= Front page was easy and i finished it fast so i could do the back part which was writing...manatau T^T!!! I wonder if the other students really so fast finish or they also play "ting tong tiang" one =.=

Knn. Epic phail.. now i bery bu shuang d.

Even though its not really the JP proficiency test which we will be having at the end of the year and its more like the teacher gauging us coz after this we'll be moving into lvl 2..still..

BO SONG!! ._.

But then again, bo song also bo pian d =\ Anyways, will be meeting up with vara and the old gang frm my Nissan days this coming Friday. Its been ages since i last saw them and its gonna nothing less than a crazy meet up :) AND yes, i wont ppk d...coz they say i always do =.= and this meet up was specially arranged for me x.x Oh wells, havent been out with friends for a while now so thats that :p Will take some piccys.. i hope ;)

And and and....Iphone here i cometh! :D Planning to get it this week hehe...hopefully la hor :D

Thats all folks!! for now.... Ciaozz!!

Space Pang Pang!

2010-07-28T01:47:00.005+08:00

Due to my overwhelming boredom-ness and nothing to do-ness at the moment, ive decided to post ss's of me playin the new mode in audi...Lol..so dont ask =.=

New DreamForest map...
Not bad but the waterfall behind is a distraction to me *blames blames*

Was happily playing with bro's iphone earlier, till he went to bed and took it with him T^T...well im hoping ill be getting mine sometime this week :)

Also the fact that tomoro is my last day at work..wooot!

Though the big downside would be, im having Jp test tomoro...fuggity fug fug fug... x.x

Guess i should turn in earlier tonite...since its already 2am LOL! :x Bleh..

Nites! :)

P.s. Its always nvr a good time, not once. and its not that you dont have time, its you not wanting to make it :(

Donkey Kong!!

2010-07-27T02:47:00.012+08:00

Super Mario! Puzzle Bobble! Tetris! Streetfighter!

Lol..if ur wondering why the sudden shoutings of the names of the games of yesteryears *as in the games i used to go gaga over when i was a wee little girl* then dont ask me, coz it was a random thing i said when i missed an fm while audi-ing =.= Which resulted in the shoutings of even more old games by Jx lmao!

I mean honestly, those were the games which took up most of our times when we were younger. At first we would run to the arcade one school finished to play those games and then came those Nintendo game players. Remember those cassette type game cartridges? I did :) The 1st time mum bought it for us after striking lottery, we were like kiddies in the candy store. Dam overly excited idiots ok? :x

And mind you, those times, where got pirated games de, one cassette almost 30 to 100bucks lor depending of how many games were in there lol...

Then Gameboy came out and we were carrying our games all over the place..LOL! The evolution of gaming eh? :p

So, which was your favourite? Lets run down memory lane shall we? :D

Super Mario Bros! Who could forget Mario and Luigi..lol

One of my fav games, Tetris, then came the portable version Brickgame? Lolol :D

Donkey Kong!! :DD

I used to run to the arcade with sis after school just to play this lor :x

Contra!! And even that time bro had a way of making the ammunition indef haha...chi kek! :p

Tonnes and tonnes of other old games came up which i couldnt possibly put all here when i was googling for old nintendo games..really brings back alot of fun memories lol :D Man, i feel like a dork now =.=! But i loved it ^^;

I wish life were as simple as it was back then when we were easily amused by the littlest things in life :p

2010-07-26T18:58:00.006+08:00

Yay! Finally took out my pics and edited them! :D

Im pooped x.x Actually took them out when i reached home earlier and b4 i could edit them, i went to lay down and ended up sleeping for 3hrs straight. LOL! Its been a tiring day la :(

Was looking forward to audi's new patch coz pang pang mode was suppose to come out in this patch, plus more new songs lor. Sadly, due to dono wat technical problems, it didnt happen =.= I wonder what they did during the 10am to 7pm supposedly patch + maintenance >_>

And babe? I sorta lied :p i do still audi lmao...not as much la, but i still do. Its u who dont play. Hmph! I wanna break cpl d! =.=

Click here to preview Space Pang Pang lol :)

Yes, its kinda weird lol and kinda noisy, but still new mode :p Im actually looking forward to see when they will bring in the Rhythm Holic mode...got cats and dogs and shakers and stuff lmao :x Bleh..

Oh ya! My new headphone courtesy of a zhu.. :)

♥ Thanks babe :)

And just in time, the last one u gave me was going silent in one ear. And no its not coz im chu lu ok, its was..just..coz...i dono la! Ima good user ok? Not like someone i know ._. I think its the connection point problem...yes yes, i think thats wat it is :D

I think my pics are getting nicer no? Ok, totally random i know but still nice right?? Hehe :x Im planning to take up back my previous hobby which i sorta deserted, photography :D Only problem is most of the one day courses are in Nikons' KL campus. Hmmm.. shall plan soon :)

Should i add Nikon Dlsr D90 to my wishlist? :p

Must go dream of getting more money to fulfill my wonderful list of wonderful stuffies!

Note: Please scroll down for past posts coz i tend to post late and do alot of backposting :x Ps la..im not a bery hardworking blogger *pouts* Thats if u wanna read la ._.

Countdown!

2010-07-26T14:35:00.004+08:00

Hello hello hello all! Happy Monday! :D

I know i know, i shd be having Monday blues today, in a way i am but the thought that its gonna be my last 3days here has certainly cheered me up abit :D then its rest for a few days before i start new job :DD I was suppose to start today but current bosses refuse to let me clear my leave and say will pay for my 14days of leave...which means another half months' pay O_O; i wonder if they will actually pay me ._.

So, went to new place and told them about my dilemma and they were very understanding and asked me to start on next Monday, which is so cool by me coz i get to rest for a few days hehehe :D Thankfully all is well, coz this thing has been bugging me for a few days now D:

Annnnd... sorry for the lack of posts.. i actually do have posts...halfway written ones though coz ive been taking piccys and well..i ermm...nvr took them out of ze camera..heheheh..ehehe..hmm.. Ok la! will take them out later tonite coz i wan to deco deco abit ma :( Some piccy's of bros' new car which he took back last Thursday lol.. and he's been asking me everyday, "U nvr post my car pics in ur blog ar!" =.=*

So yea, took pics of his car..ytd >_>"

I just a sinful weekend which i sorta enjoyed...guiltily though..abit :x Was on leave on Saturday (coz i got no other days to take leave ._.) and slept most of the day. Also got mum to cook her famous tao ew bak and in the end we bought like 2 pots worth of bak. Omg, so much guilt. LOL:x And had that for 2 days rofl ... One thing though, nvr regretted it hahahaha.. coz bery nice ok? After this must really diet d.. Fk! But eat with sambal was so dam....okok shall not continue on about sinful food d *pouts*

Met up with babe before he went back Kl on Sunday and he actually came over to take abit of mum's famous bak. Lol... i wonder if no bak u would have come or not =.=! But got a new headphone from him...which i took photos of...which is still in the dang camera. Blahs =\ And im kinda irritated with him atm coz he's so busy till beh reply me d ._. Angry. I wonder if its coz he got new friends in his banditnation game thats why bo time for me d :( Sadddd..

Ok la, im being lame and kinda tired coz this whole morning has been hectic. Since b4 i reached office ive been running here n there to site and suppliers and tons n tons of phone calls. Legs bery tired and just managed to have beehoon for lunch :( Good thing is, 2 more hrs before i cabut lol..i dont intend to stay on like i used to d.. i mean for wat? I shd be free-er d, but sadly it seems im more busy than usual ._.

Thank goodness my current good mood has sustained me throughout this whole morning else ill be extremely pissed and luan luan say things again :S

Back to work i suppose, must finish b4 bosses come back hurhur XD and btw they went to some meeting in town. So peace and quiet for meeee :3 Oh please let me get through this day without any pain x.x LOL. Buaizzzz!

P.s. I just realised i wrote alot in this post in just under 10mins. Ima such a cool chick :D

Mark X

2010-07-23T21:53:00.011+08:00

Harpeee TGIF!! again.... :D

Yes, its that time of the week again, we rejoice for the weekends of sleeping in late and sleeping even later lol. Or to some ppl, sleeping the entire day *coughs*. Time to hang out with the family, do some shopping or just stay at home and enjoy being able TO stay at home *coughss*

Me? Im even more happy coz ima not working tomoro! Wooohooo! Well basically its my only day that i can take leave and try or rather a miserable attempt to clear my leave =.= Plus point would be, im gonna be an extra 1/2 richer next month. Heeee..

Which would mean my dream of getting an iphone that much closer...LOL! Sad right? But come to think of it, i rather enjoy the thrill of being able to work to get the stuff i want. Makes me appreciate it even more :p And the excitement is much more overwhelming :p Hahaha :x

Ah yes, this post would be a belated one coz i erm sorta gotten lazy over the weekend to complete it and also i intended to insert piccy's of bro's new car *which i just got out of camera today, Monday, July 26th* :x Well, better late than never right? :D That and my bro's constant bugging is getting to me ._.

So here it is, my total admiration of it... =.=

The front...

The back...

And everything else inside... lol :x

Should have taken more piccy's but i wasnt in a very creative mood. Basically we get that its a cool car lor. Just kidding la bro! We lubbbb ur car :p So when wanna take us kai kai ar? I wanna i wanna i wanna! :D

Cars, not really my th'ng...gadgets and gizmos and stuff, Yes! :p Though i do plan to get a slightly more newer car..My poor kancil is 10plus yrs old d, almost time for retirement T^T..

Oh wells, my wishlist just keeps getting longer n longer eh? Isnt it exciting??! Lmao :x

P.s. Was wishing for my Manhattan this weekend, but someone didnt make it again. Sadded :(

2010-07-21T15:38:00.003+08:00

I feel roasted. Like seriously Kenny Rogers + Nandos type roasted :(

After like the god knows how many times i walked to n fro to the project site. Funny thing is it was raining cats and dogs this morning and i was wet frm top to bottom coz i forgot my umbrella at home and had to run to the office across the road =.=

And now its hot like hell ._.

The reason im so freaking busy is coz my boss is sick (lol?) after taking over most of my stuff since i already leaving in a few days. So fast sick dy..hmmmm...

Anyway, my hair is still slightly wet from this morning and im starting to sneeze plus i had to basically swallow my lunch just now. I feel so so...overworked. LOL!

Ok la, enuf of break time *pouts* back to work....

I feel sick suddenly o_o;

To my best friend

2010-07-20T14:36:00.005+08:00

When your best friend gives up on friendship between the two of you sometimes the only thing you can do is say goodbye and wait for them to come back. If they won't let you try to fix your mistakes you really hurt them. And if they were the one to make the mistake then forgive them.

It hurts to lose the only friend you could tell everything to knowing they wouldn't tell a soul.

Hmm..saw this quote on FB earlier today. It kinda struck a chord with me coz i was just thinking of the same thing and was fairly surprised when i saw it :) I dono, maybe im thinking too much? But its been lingering on for a few days now.

Work has been quiet for me, which im fine with coz i have time to clear my pc of my erm...stuff? :p My work UNRELATED stuff :x Hahaha.. Things that i do when i cant concentrate at work and need some diversion...i think u catch my drift la hor ;)

They've been having interviews the whole afternoon and im happy! I know i shd feel nostalgic..but im NOT! And i know it sounds ebil but i dont really care? Lol :x At least they quickly hire ppl and i get to leave earlier....like this Friday? Hurhur :D

Bah...*fingers crossed*

Back to work lor...see im such a moder emproyee hor? :p

P.s. Its been 5days since we last spoke.. Am i already forgotten?

2010-07-19T19:59:00.003+08:00

Have u ever heard the phrase,

"If you love something then let it go, if it comes back then ur meant to be, if not then let it be?"

or something like that. Well in any case, I like my version coz it rhymes lol or rather it sounds cool :x

Mind you, this could be applied in any situation or r/s :)

Yea, we've all heard it, we've all faced it at some point, we've all tried doing it, problem is nobody ever reads the instructions in fine print below on how damn hard it is to really let go of something knowing it might nvr come back.

Or maybe its just me and my ocd's.

Monday T^T

2010-07-19T01:55:00.005+08:00

..again... TT________________________TT~!

Cant believe my weekend came and leaving soon... huaaaaaa :(( And to think ive been doing absolutely nothing at home, slacking and loitering ard like a slacker :((

Oh btw, i lub being a slacker once a while xP!

Though i wish my weekends were slightly longer, as in no Sat work. Which is what i will get when i start new place..yay :DD And im thinking of taking this Sat off hurhur D: I know i know, despite saying how big a waste it is, but am gonna find out hw many more days of leave i have so i can take them all since its gonna be my last week here and new work officially starts next week.

Im hoping i dont have to postponed starting at new job coz current bosses are sorta giving me pain =.= Esp with my leaves >_> Blah, will sort everything out for sure at work tomoro..or shd i say later? Huaaaaa :((

K-On!

Its 2am dy, shd i go to sleep or continue with my K-On? Oh ya, finished my Lovely Complex..loved it till the end, loved the beginning, middle parts and the ending.. DAISUKI! Lol :x Currently watching 2nd season of K-On which is also bery the cool :D

Sorta reminds me of when i was in a band last time D: Missed those days alot..

Oh wells, a few more epis and off to bed!

Oyasumi nasai! And have a great week ahead :D

P.s. Do you ever think of me even a little? Do you even miss me? Maybe not. Must be not. Sighs.

Laksa Day!!

2010-07-18T14:27:00.013+08:00

Hehe.. its been awhile since mum made her speciality - Laksa ♥_♥ Recipes passed down from grandma who made the best laksa soup ever *drooools* And it takes alot of preparation works, cutting, fish de-boning, soup making which would normally take about half a day to finish and normally mum would make the soup the nite b4 bt this was completely spontaneous.

Thankfully, this time it was surprisingly fast according to mum. Maybe coz we were all so coordinated and everything was done b4 12 :D Just typin this is making me drool lmao :x and yes, we'll prolly be having this for a few days hahaha :p

FYI, our family are extreme Laksa lovers, esp the ones made by mum :D

And since we finished everything so fast, i had time to get the cam and snap away :P even mum was telling me how to take this and that hahahaha :DD. Anyway, here are the piccys!

First there was veggies....

And then more veggies...

Here came the fishies...
..which kinda reminded me of Manhanttan Fish Market..which ive yet to go :(

And then ze noodlez... :)

And and and and ze prawn....paste that is ~ :D

Finally!! Ze' Masterpiece!!

So thats it, my wonderfully lazy Sunday, which was spent eating , sleeping and watching anime. And oh ya, a Sg movie my bro imposed on us, and whn i mean imposed, i mean, forcing us to watch it or he will nvr lend us another movie again ._.*

So yea, threaten is more like it. But shhhh...u didnt hear it from me.... *pouts*

It was so so nia la, show was called "Being Human". Had its funny parts but ending sucked ttm. Like bo ending nia >_> So went back to anime after that. And slept. And ate. Hmmm.. :X

Man, looking back the pics i posted is making me feel hungry again. I...erm...gotta go do something!! Chyotto matte ne! :x

*slurps* :p

Happy Weekends :)

2010-07-17T10:20:00.007+08:00

And im waiting to go home...waiting...waiting...waiting....lol..

Actually the office manager made a suggestion to me ytd, well according to her, was boss' idea. She told me that since sat was a free-est day, i could take leave if i wanted to. In normal situations, i might have just taken the sats off and cleared my leave, BUT the fact that they recommended made me feel guai lan :p

Hey, its not worth taking a full day leave on a half day work lor..right? Though it would have been fun to sleep in, but like i said, they suggesting it meant they were trying to take advantage and let me finish up my leave. I take Monday then they know ar.. muahahahahaha!! Dumbasses :D

So until then ima gonna watch my anime at work LOL! Lalalala~ ;) Ahya, its my last week here, let me enjoy lor :D And i cant wait to go home and watch it coz ive found the best anime so far! Its funny and at times so close to home. Daisuki yo! ;)

Lovely Complex ♥

Summary, its about a guy and a girl who are always at each other's throat and ends up as best friends coz they have so much in common :) And the facial expression are damn amusing it makes me laugh out like crazy :DD Another twist would be, the girl is exceptionally tall and the guy is shorter than the average guys in school haha.. so the terms "amazon girl" and "midget" just flies ard constantly. I guess its the only show now that can make me laugh and cry at the same time lol :)

So, back to erm.. 'work'? or etc etc etc ;) Ja mata ne!

Heehee

2010-07-16T01:14:00.005+08:00

I..am...sleepy...

BUT! I had the urge to put in one more random, no link, totally pointless, no sense post :DD

*inserts evil and crazy laughter* Muahahahahaha!

My new roof for my cafe! Kawaii desu ne! :3

Yea, cafe world came out with a new feature where u get to deco the outside of ur cafe. Totally pointless and a good way to spend those coins which u have nowhere else to spend at. And yet, i have proven myself even more lame coz i spent 3m coins on this one and me is now bery poor :(

Bite me for my lame-ness ._.

Ok la, me shd really go sleep, coz me is posting junky posts and not making much sense.

*pouts*

Niteess!~

P.s. HAPPY TGIF PEEPS! :D

Random

2010-07-15T17:44:00.009+08:00

Got a new look in audi... retail therapy la katakan... well, pixelised retail therapy anyway but im happy, so what! =.=

Cute right right? But then again, she's always cute ba *coughsss* :p

Total random and useless post i know, but im in a irritable mood from just now, so i guess its a source of release =.= Blah.

Honestly hun, its the same excuse over n over again, and im starting to find it hard to believe it now. Maybe ur saving ur phone batt for more important calls and its ur way to get me to stop wasting it. U tell me if im wrong.

I resent the fact of how u always say im being not nice n unfriendly when thats all uve been to me these past few weeks. And what was that phrase u used to me when i said it was coz i was abit unhappy with myself? Oh yes, "Can still be nice wad." - can u use that for yrself regardless of the problems u have now? Asking ppl to do something is always easier isnt it?

The fact is, if i would to stop trying, we might not be talking anymore coz it seems that u really cant be bothered. So why am i still trying to be ur friend when u obviously dont need it? Lol. It should always work both ways..

In the end, im the fool, to think that our bond meant something when it was all just a joke :) And believe it or not, im actually sad.

Oh wells, heading home soon, raining now and i wanna go home and sleep >_>

Tatas!

The sky is the limit :)

2010-07-14T16:53:00.006+08:00

Recently instead of looking at the ground each time i walked coz i was afraid of falling, ive been looking at the sky any time i had the chance. And surprisingly, it feels liberating :)

Took this picture from my car while at the traffic lights near my house :)

These past couple of weeks has been a roller coaster of emotions. Anger, disappointment, feeling of loss, goodbyes, hellos, silence.. of coz there has been happiness, the ups and then the downs. For the 1st time in a long long time, im not sure what i should really do.

Work has been relatively carefree. Sure i have my busy times, but somehow, it seems less frustration on my side. Guess its coz im leaving soon :) And oh ya, the OM had the cheek to ask me to stay on for one more month. No way jose ! Reasons were coz they wanted me to train new staff. Lolz, i dont even know why tat should be a problem since they like firing ppl on the spot ._.

But also have been making choices and goin through with them and safe to say, im feeling much more happy with myself. It was a long due move and im proud that i finally saw the light and went toward it lol ..

There are also some things which i still have no solutions for..

I always said, the people who really care for you, will nvr leave you no matter how many times u shut them out and ask them to leave u alone. And ill always stood true to that, but now im starting to doubt my stand.

A few months ago i posted that i lost all my smses from my old phone and though at the time i felt i could do nothing more to salvage it coz my sis who got it from me, deleted it all coz i was taking too long to think whether i shd keep it or not. And it was ok, i suppose, for awhile. Until lately. Now i realise i miss those old smses, coz they were really out of care and lately i have received nothing like that.

I guess i will nvr get those anymore. Things have changed :)

Everyday i think, should i try again? Should i care as much as i did? And everytime, i get disappointed. Im starting to think its really not worth it. Not when im only treated as a spare.

There was a time when i did move on without u in my life, and i guess i could do it again.

But what should i do, really?

..time to look at the skies again and watch the clouds move :)

Hola!

2010-07-13T23:02:00.006+08:00

First of all, let me share with you my or rather my family's recent indulgence...

Tada!! Secret Recipe's Chocolate Indulgence x.x

Yes yes, this was my sis' de birthday cake lol.. when i bought this i was calculating how much a yr we spend on cakes and the amount came out quite shockingly to me.. roughly about RM400? Ok la hor? Well i figure the reason why its so much its coz we love our cakes, esp the very sinful ones @_@; And the fact that everytime we buy it, we say its only once a year, but problem is, everyone's IS once a year. LOL. So it actual fact, its a minimum of 4 a year.

Oh forgive me father for i have sinned. Big time.

And we still love it ever so much regardless of bad it is for us. Tsk tsk why are humans so bo kia si ar?? Lol... :x I could think of a million reasons why we shd not stop this, and another million on why we should but ive unilaterally decided, talk is cheap and pointless. Its already been done, and in our fridge :p

Just do it! Nike style! Lol...blahs.

Am still hooked on anime watching since my last post :D and watched a really sad one ytd T_T which in summary potrayed ppl in Japan during an earthquake and the aftermath. Very sad show but in a way empowering and makes one feel nothing but grateful ..

My own online anime is almost finishing, so guess ill go search for new ones to watch d. And my bro is still being a stubborn ass when he keeps complaining that the reason why he doesnt have net connection is coz im using cable o.o I know right? Im speechless. And my suggestion that he uses cable too has been shot down with "Why would i wanna step back in technology?" =.= I dont think he remembers we're living in Malaysia Boleh ._. How can he compare to, let say, Korea? Stubborn ass la, and ive resorted to silence when it comes to that topic.

Funny part is, when i was using wireless, he also blamed me fr his no connection coz he blamed my wireless device being the culprit. Im starting to think i can never win. FML really.

Moving on....ive been joining exp compy again...when i remember. Dam the new timing and i know its not really new anymore but i liked when it was at 9pm ._. Anywayyyy, been really sucky :( sadness.. am trying to train back as much as i can, and if anything can do it, its the compy.. best way to force train myself :D And it did worked the last time lor ok?

One conclusion though, my 4k still sucks like hell and i think its coz i still hate it....Boos :(

Oh wells, time to wander off and ponder on unnecessary stuff ;)

P.s. I miss you...alot :)

Almost forgot !!

2010-07-12T11:21:00.003+08:00

Happy birthday to you, Happy birthday to you, Happy birthday to my most annoying and sometimes sweet sis, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

Lol.... :x

Love ya la! Despite ur sometimes extremely irritating "i dont know" replies =.=

Huggiess!

P.s. Im sure she's still sleeping like a pig...so HO MIA WTF! =.=

Monday! Yay! =.=

2010-07-12T10:38:00.004+08:00

Ok, its been ALMOST a week since my last post, and im seriously getting disturbed by the fact that i havent been blogging since last wed. But but but... i do have posts saved up in my acc, just that i didnt finish them .... *draws circle in the corner*

REALLY, PINKY SWEAR! *pouts*

And my now feeble attempt to make up for my lack of posts are failing...seriously epic phailure to the max ._. My fingers are doing nothing bt hovering over the kb while waiting for my brain to come up with something funny and interesting to talk about.

Nothing. FML. PFFTTTTT!

Ok la, shall attempt again and blog about stuff i did that people might not be interested to read except me *cries*

So what have i been up over the weekend other than goin to lectures? And yes, if i had posted my friday or was it thursday post, u would know that my teaching diploma course just started. But then i didnt right? So how could have known? Bahs. I...shall...post...about....it....later..DONT CARE!

Anyway, yea, been goin to class for the past 2 days and its been well kinda interesting :D Of course saturday was a holiday and to sacrifice that to go for class was torture, bt still, it was either that or mum holding a knife by my bedroom door. LOL! JK! :x

Ytd class was a killer, almost 9hrs lecture x.x But thankfully the lecturer was a cool dude and it just swift by :) And we even had to teach out in front. And need i say that my grp was the best? :p Really! We were the last to go, but it was the best :D Muahahahahahaha *gloats gloats* As the lecturer was goin over each grps presentation, he was tellin all the mistakes or points to be taken into account but reach mine, he jz said, he couldnt find any fault at all, it was perfect. LOL! OMG! *shy*

I know im boasting like no ones business, but hey, its my blog ok! I can boast when i feel like it :p *head growing bigger* :x

Other than that, havent been having much time to do anything else, not even sleep T_T and to think it was hols on sat :( Thank god lectures are only once a month lol.. bt am having exams next month *gulps* and a teaching praticum assesment *double gulps*

Havent been loggin in to audi too lol..mia for now i guess since im still hooked on my animes. But i wish i can remember to log in for compy...i always seem to forget till its 8pm =.= Wtfish.

Well, hopefully its been a good post, and i hope i didnt just type a whole lot of nonsense coz im extremely sleepy @_@; despite the fact i did NOT watch WC finals last nite. And its finally over lol..i just wonder how many ppl on leave today :p

And im having Monday bluess.....lalalalalalalala~! =.=

Doyoubi desu!

2010-07-10T23:33:00.005+08:00

Taihen desu x.x.............

Just came back from my 1st lecture today, and it was only from 2 to 5. Tomoro is going to be the killer one, from 10 to 5pm @___@;; Thank goodness its only once every month and 5months kao tim dy lol.. Only thing im worried about is doin my teaching practical. I mean its ok to teach ppl who genuinely dont know English and are strangers, bt teaching classmates as a rehearsal is really nerve wrecking. And to think im so used to getting up on stage =.= Boos.

Anyway, been hooked on this these few days and hence the lack of blogging and audiing and fbing and etc etc etc..

Yumeiro Pasterrie... :)

Yes yes, it looks kiddy, bt i like kiddy shows :p Actually watched a few different one before deciding that this one was more funny than the rest and best part, they make lots and lots of cakes and sweet stuff x.x And at the end of the show, there's a cooking demo. I so wanna make pudding! :(

Oh wells, time to continue my show! ;) Ja matane!

P.s. I wanna play Patapon 3.... RAWR!

Long weekend~

2010-07-09T20:09:00.004+08:00

Happy happy TGIF!! :D and guess wad! I just realised tomoro is a holiday! Muahahahahaha~! Coz of... *takes calendar* OH! Coz of Penang's CM Bday! Lol...i didnt know that

But the downside would be.. my 1st lectures for my teaching diploma is tomoro and sunday =.= How fml is that? Of all the dates, they picked this one. Blah..sadded. But still excited nonetheless...i guesss... :(

And very kin cheong...LOL :x

Thankfully, class for tomoro is at 2pm so can still sleep in abit :S Just wondering how many ppl are in my class and how its gonna be. I do knw i have to do practice training during one of those days.. Sweat x.x Pray that i dont turn blue from nervousness D: And yes, some of u are asking, why is she afraid when its not the 1st time to stand in front of the public? I dont know la! Its just different :x Sked! Blah blah blah...

What i can possibly imagine happening is me talking like a bullet train and saying things that dont make sense. Plus talk in horrible England. Neh neh....

Ok, shall not thinking abt it anymore and go watch my anime better...the more i think, the more petrified i become....*gulps*

What if i stutter......?

*slumps over kb and dies*

Durians, durians and more durians!!

2010-07-08T19:56:00.004+08:00

And yummy yummy yummy oness!!! Especially the baby durians ♥!! Seriously, the past few days the ones we bought were heavenly delights lol :p But sorry ya, bo peektures coz too nice le, no time to snap also T^T! Really overdose of durians dy. Thank goodness the season is endin soon, as in the nice ones all sold out d ;)

Eat till i think all goin to fall sick soon :x But then again, have u heard of the old wives remedies of preventing heatiness? Wash your mouth and drink from the durian skin that u ate... Im serious! And im nt sure if its psychological or really works coz we're still very well :p *touch wood*

And and and, mum cooked her tao ew bak after so long! OMG! So bladi sinful but eat with rice and sambal walao bth x.x Im craving fr it again...Aiyo :(

Hmmm..what else?

Well, work has been the same. Other than the fact that the bosses are still treating me super nice and refraining me from goin to site ever so often lolz. I dono if they're still at it and trying to get me to stay by showing me how nice they are *rolls eyes* or what. Anyway, dont know, dont care :)

Im still thinking of taking my leave to clear the last week. I wonder if anyone can help me and tell me if after u get ur annual leave after one yr, and if u resign during that time, do we still get the leaves or its purata-ed. Or does it differ from company to company? Sigh. Just wanna be prepared b4 i bring the subject up -.-

Help!

What if?

2010-07-07T17:12:00.004+08:00

Got into a fender bender today while on the way home frm work.. My poor car was knocked frm the side. It was partly my fault too for reading smses while driving lol...i know, nothing to laugh about but im still trying to shake some of shock away x.x..

And i got a bruised shoulder as a reminder.

Have been trying to sleep since i reached home but havent been able to close my eyes and fall asleep. Too many things running in my head atm, and suddenly alot of "what if's" going through my mind.

U knw how they say, ur life flashes in front of ur eyes in situations like this? Well mine wasnt really tat bad but still after "debating" with the guy who banged into me and i got back back in my car, i suddenly was reminded of alot of things.

And how one second can actually change ur whole life.

I thought of my family, my friends, the things i havent done and wanting to do. I recalled the last sms i read b4 i heard the loud and horrid bang. "Bye" lol... was it really meant to be eternal goodbye fr me?

Regardless of it being kinda minor, i still am grateful it wasnt something worse. And im thankful im still able to sit here, even if im feeling insomniacal for now lol.

Thats why i nvr liked saying goodbye, for any occasions. Coz it just seems cursed for me.

P.s. Please dont say it to me again, can?

Gladiolus

2010-07-07T11:13:00.004+08:00

Finally LP'ed after 3 days of waiting and got our Gladiolus rings :) Totemo kireii desu ♥ Lolzz..

Despite the hiccups of me just waking up and doing it, hence the blur and noobish play (which im still not happy about...too many misses on my side) im still happy overall nonetheless.. in some ways :)

Finally Gladiolus ♥

And no, we didnt have audience this time round lolz, just did it, and passed the 2nd time (due to my out of mind, out of body situation at the time...bahs)

I still have a lot of posts i have yet to complete, but all of it are written halfway =.= Just somehow not in the mood to write for the moment. And i think my readers have given up on waiting on my updates..lolzz.

Just wanted to post a short one, only for this :)

P.s. Im stil alive, i think.

Naive

2010-07-06T21:08:00.008+08:00

As you can see, i havent been blogging much these few days, partly coz i suddenly ran out of things to blog about. No happy things, not even sad stuff coz i seem to be living in a daze.

Time seems to be moving faster when ur at a standstill....or maybe i think it does..hmm..

I wake up, get dressed, go to work, run in and out of office, to suppliers, meetings with subcons, supervise work progress, handle workers, etc etc etc.... and before i know it its already 6pm. And i still have a ton of paperwork all piled up on my table ._. Go home and stare at the idiot box, occasionally crawling into bed coz im just too tired to do much. Physical pain ftw. And the sometimes emotional pain. Cool!

Every single day, same routine. Im getting bored with life. With my life.

People u care about are supposed to make it all worthwhile, to make all of it forgotten at the end of the day. But lately i feel that its just the exact opposite. I hate letting go of relationships, esp ones which have been there for as long as i can remember. But somehow it seems inevitable. What should i do?

Teach me. Accomodate me. Love me. Just like before.

Dont ignore me. Neglect me. Treat me as invisible just cause u dont come online anymore.

And yes, u do it. As stubborn as u are and refute it. U do it.

Its been 3 days, 72hrs, 4320mins, 259,200secs.
And all i asked was for less than 5mins of all that time,
But here i am, still waiting :)

Dreams

2010-07-03T11:28:00.007+08:00

I woke up startled this morning, i mean really in shock and also very sad. Had the worst possible dream ever since i can remember...so bad that i could actually count it as a nightmare :(

And the worst part is, i still remember every detail till now.. feeling kinda down coz of it and if it would to ever happen to me in rl, i would not be able to pick myself up for a long time. Yeap, its that bad D:

Dont ask me to explain what it was about, coz it hurts too much. The things that were said, the actions and the feeling of being deserted by the ppl u care about. Heavy huh? Tell me about it lol..ive nvr felt so down waking up from a dream since i cant remember when le..Maybe its the the emotional roller coaster ive been going through these few days and the unanswered qns that keep running in my mind...Lolzz :)

I just hope i feel better soon and forget all about that horrid dream i had :(

Anyway, work was a hoot today..had the noisy client over to sign off on some variation orders and decide on paints and stuff..boring actually lol. It sort of spoiled my saturday coz its the only day of the week i get to relax on the job =.= Bosses are tryin to expediate on this work coz scared im leaving then they cant handle it by themselves le. Bahs...

And they finally gave me the "why are u leaving", "why u shdnt leave" lecture le =.= After almost 1 week on handing in my resignation lolz, they finally came up on what to tell me or to persuade me to stay on. Summary? Lousy job of doing it. Maybe coz i already made up my mind and well what they have to say is a load of crap. They just say these things when ppl are leaving and everything goes back to normal, if not worse if i decide to stay on ._.

So, everything they had to say was erm...expected. It even felt like they were putting me down at some point, idiots dono how to talk, coz it made me even more adamant to leave *not that i wasnt before :p*

And thats that, end of this journey in this company for me :) I think a little change in environment is good, no? :D

Also picked up the appointment letter from new place after work today, very pro lor and very systematic. So far so good :) Hoping for the best *fingers crossed* ;)

Things to do today : Finish of our remaining hearts needed to get new ring. Maybe cbp to speed it up :p 400 more.....jyjyjy me ><..

Have a wonderful Saturday all!! :D

Weekends again n again..

2010-07-02T23:28:00.006+08:00

and again and again...lol... But still thankful that it is the weekends :p

Work has been...erm...cute these cpl of days. Bosses have been extremely nice to me, which makes me feel very suspicious. They got something up their sleeves for sure =.= AND this afternoon even bought me lunch coz we were at site and was waiting for the plaster ceiling guy to come.

A VERY BIG PRAWN BEHIND A VERY SMALL ROCK (or udang sebalik batu...in this case, udang besar -.-)

Seriously la, since when have they ever been so nice. Even the samples and stuff they go and take themselves wor.. and at site, they will go chk and i dont have to stand there and monitor the workers ler.. shoooo niceeee worrrrr ..Ya right ._.

Somemore had the cheek to tell me, so tired running up and down to get the clients stuff, uh duh? i also know lor, i have been getting wad all this while. And whatever happen to her husband saying when i was running up n down like a mad woman, "Like this also tired meh?"...I shd have said the exact same thing to her hor? :p

Idiots. Bahs.

One thing though, regardless of how nice they are now, its only coz they want me to stay and after i say i will, they will turn ard and kill u. Yep, these are the ppl that they are. Oh wells, let karma deal with them :)

Just abit not used to them thanking me for every little thing they ask me to do and if they do ask me to do stuff, it will end with, "when ur free then do" Lololol...my god! Hillarious!

But i gotta prepare for the storm when they realise they cant pull me back anymore...Hmmm..bring it on guys, im ready when u are ;)

For now, i shall continue having fun with the remaining days that i have here and i wonder if i can leave 12 days earlier since its the number of leaves i have left. Hmmm..i wonder if they purata it or not de..Must go do some research ._.

Heart counts as of today = 439 x.x Jyjyjy me!

P.s. No such thing as selective answering hun! It either reply or never replyin anymore. I don care! -.-

TGIF!

2010-07-02T02:04:00.006+08:00

Happy Fly-day yet again! :D Lets all sing and dance the friday song...lalalala..:x

But then again, work has been kinda bearable these few days, coz most of the things i suddenly dont have to do dy O_O; The sample collecting , the meeting up with the sub-cons and telling them the work needed to be done. Suddenly no need me to follow up...at all @_@;

Maybe, they're learning to grow up and feed themselves ba :) Or maybe, they suddenly feel im leaving becoz i have to do so many things at once. Lolz.. Either way, its still too late.

Im just waiting for the lecture *yawn* to begin. Im sure they're thinking of something up this very moment :p

Their 1st tactic was to send the OM in to interrogate me on why im leaving. *Laughs* So predictable la ppl ;) and them being overly nice, until it feels fake to me. Being my bestest of bestest friends and concerned on how much work i have to do.

Duh?

Anyway, im thankful weekends are here so i dont have to put up with their fake-ness for 2 days.

Lets see what else they have up their sleeves kay? ;)

P.s. I wanna get my Iphone dy! Sooooon!! :DD

Jealousy!

2010-06-30T20:45:00.007+08:00

I am i am i am!! Well sort off....coz bro is getting a new car =.= Ass-much.

And here it is..

Toyota Mark X!..Jealous righttttt!! Hmph!

Its been his dream car for like ages dy...But then again, cars arent really top on my list of 'wants', though i wont really push it away if given the chance to change..lol.. walking contridiction much? *pouts*

Work has been crazy today, though the bosses seem to be treating me nicer than usual, which is kind of creepy. All of a sudden wanna pay allowance for my hp and my claim are paid out o.o I must say, i dont know what they're up to, but it feels like reverse psychology to me =.= They dont know who they playing this game with, when ima pro at it :p

Anddd... i overspent this month T^T, ima broke T^T, ima no money T^T..... Lol..until i get my pay again..heng i nvr even dip into my savings :p Suddenly feeling very lonely and emotional this few weeks and been splurging to keep myself happy :( Retail therapy la they say >_>*

Too bad, most of my retail therapy has been in audi. Fuggity fug fug fug!

Sigh, need to earn more moolah man...so i can splurge more :x Sadded. Bahss..

Hmmm..

2010-06-29T20:29:00.008+08:00

..bad headache comin over me all off a sudden. Maybe its because i just came out of exp compy..lol :x Yaya...its been ages since i attempted joining compy, i cant even remember when i last was brutally slaughtered out of the 1st rd :( I wanna advance to at least 2nd rd like i used to leh! T^T

Extremely saddening.

Though i did quite well i must say, if not for the baka who x16 and keep kpkb'ing in the room saying how tyco he was. Ya, tyco my cute arse.. hack la >_> i was well in 1st and 2nd place until i got ninja-ed to 4th in the last min. Bah! Maybe i shd try again tomoro...if im not screwed up with work.

Work...ahh..work..

How i could make an endless list of how much i love my job and the crap i take daily with the measly amount im paid. Like i told someone, im doing the job of a manager and getting paid for office boy/girl. Something to that effect ok? U get the picture :)

Its like every single dam thing i have to do. No material, i order, cannot send, i go take, wages i have to take to the workers and i need to work out the pay, machine break down i have to send to shop and take back, checking on the daily progress of the site and write a daily report to the bosses *like i have time to sit down*, do price comparison, do quotation, talk to subcontractors, talk to supplier..........and on and on and on....Mind you, this is only one days' work. 'Nuf said.

Did i thank god that i have new job and leaving this one soon? Thank you God! Hallelujah!

Anyway, i think they're out to get me to do more things now tat ive officially resigned. I wonder when the "ceramah" on work ethics will start...hmmmm =.=

I intend to do what i set out to do, and finish up any loose ends with this project. Anything coming after that, they can go fug wall and do it themselves :) I can say, Monday was definitely not a good day for me. But then, so are the other 4days ._. FML really.

I didnt even tag hearts as much :( and i have 1.2k more to go. Sheesh. At some point i was even thinking, why do i even bother when u dont? And did this..

Notice anything different? Lol..

P.s. If u had bothered to look here, u would know, i would never had gone through it, it would sadden me too much, but put urself in my shoes once in a while and for once think of other ppl than yrself. Since u cant reply me, then i have nothing to say too.

Farewell Weekends T^T

2010-06-27T23:45:00.002+08:00

...and here comes the dreaded Monday :(

Didnt do much except, woke up, dragged body out of bed, went to Jp class, came home, had lunch, oinked for 2hrs, tagged hearts, oinked somemore :x, camped in mall in audi (omg im so addicted :X), tagged somemore hearts, played with babe a few rds, tagged somemore, and VOILA end of Sunday. Fun wasnt it? :DD

And oh ya, beggeddddd bro for a new movie to watch coz ive been watching all the dvd's in the hse at least 4times =.= What la....i need entertainment when i tag ma...abo sian die me :( Not tht my cpl is ard ok? *hints*

Well, he gave me this to watch...

Another remake of an old show...The Wolfman.

Which wasnt all that bad. Benicio del Toro wor...well at least thats wat my brother said when he handed it to me. Alot of ripping of body parts, intestines, head rolling, arms being flung...that sort of thing. If u like gore then this is the movie for u...me not so much *gacks*

Didnt really like the ending though...kinda letdown. But then all good body slicers must come to their end, regardless of how cool they were..Lol :X

On a Sunday Morning~

2010-06-27T02:35:00.017+08:00

.. and i just finished my nihon no shukudai *pouts* Very sleeepy now....*pouts again*..

But but but! 1st things 1st....

.....

I GOT THE JOB!!! YAY YAY! LOL :X

The afternoon 2nd interview was just a formality and they just wanted to see me again and look through my resume..abit of chit chat...and TADA! New job :D And best part is...more pay..way more and not as tiring...physically i mean :) Well, hoping for the best in this new company which i will be starting end of next month. Pray that im goin to have a more tolerable boss ;)

Mum has a new lappy after my last acer one dieded and is in a coma for a week now.. Sadded case coz even with numerous attempts to resusitate, it still refuse to wake up. It was my bestest companion when i was all alone working in KL, accompanying me throughout all my lonely nights T^T~ R.I.P my good friend....

Ok enuf drama...here is the new addition to our electronic family :)

Toshiba Satellite L645 :p Kinda cool also la... Hmmph!

Anyway, didnt do much except tag tag hearts..1.5k left T_T so far yet so near...In the middle of game, mum pushed an old new table to my room. Reason why i say old new is coz, its relatively new looking but bought ages ago :x There must be a reason why i didnt use it the other time...Oh wells, continuing my story, she pushed it beside my old table and this is what happened,

Mum: U wanna change to this table bo?
Me: Erm, why? Now?
Mum: Coz im clearing the back, and this is excess. Now cant change ar? Ur playing?
Me: Hmmm (is tagging considered playing?)....arh..ok i change.
Mum: Well, if u dont wan nvm, i take back to the back room *got knife liao la this sentence*
Me: Ok la, i change NOW *regardless of how much work is needed to take out all my stuff from my old table*

*pouts* I nvr can win =.=

So this is it... my extremely high table and suddenly very bright area =.= *now i know why i never used it*

So neat right? Bt abit small :( And i need a new cooler kb :(((

My wrist is still giving me problems at the moment..and its going to my thumb area hence making it painful to press space bar :( Sadded... do i need to go to the sinseh again?

Random shot of my poor hand :x Pain la :(

Ok, stop the lame-ness and time for bed and dream of my Jp homework =.=

Rest time!

2010-06-26T11:03:00.004+08:00

Saturdayyyyy! ♥

...and so far its been an ok one. Havent really been doing much work though :S hey its been awhile since my Saturday has been this quiet and the bosses n client not coming in and staying the entire morning.. But there's still 2hrs b4 i actually finish work so im hoping they dont come in AT all...or they come after ive left :x

Ytd was tiring as expected coz we were clearing debris from the project site and the head of the workers was on 'mogok' mode and didnt come over to work so i had to watch the workers closely to make sure everything went on smoothly. Plus it was raining the entire afternoon ._. Body ached like hell when i reached home and took a bath and somehow i managed to hurt my wrist. Now i cant move my left hand fingers without it feeling painful :(

But i still managed to finish off babe's exp needed to lvl despite having wrist pains....OCD ftw! :x I just really bth when its so close and besides i get to tag hearts too wad...ish a win win situation :)

Well, will be having that interview later today after work...abit nervous...not coz of the interview, more like hoping for the best :) Hope the best for me too ya!!

Ok la, i shall be a good employee and stop blogging and facebooking for now...and do some work :p Once a while snake not bad la hor...still very good employee.. although i bitch abt work alot :x Shuuush! D:

Fairfarren all~ ♥

P.s. Why am i having tummy aches all of a sudden..? Or is it butterflies in my stomache? :x

2010-06-25T03:14:00.005+08:00

Happy TGIF!!! :)

First of all, i apologize for my "little" outburst ytd.....bt i couldnt help it and having no one to shout it out to, i had to release the pressure somewhere =.= I just really really dislike being the middle man, coz everyone gets to indirectly direct their frustration at the other party at u. What do i look like? A punching bag?

Anyways, things got a little better in the afternoon, though its been raining like crazy these cpl of days...hopefully it continues raining over the weekend WHEN im actually NOT working? ._. It tends to be so bright and sunny and HOT when im at home.. What did i do wrong?? T^T

Work has been crazy with bosses, deciding to drop the project one day and doing back the next. Very tiring and my mind has somehow gone kinda blank when it comes to them telling me what they intend to do. Im like, Uh yea...whatever. Im even getting smses from them till 12am...siao or not? >_> And i tot it was my lansi zhu replying...guan lai..not :((

Well, like i said ytd, i got a call back fr a 2nd interview and im hoping for the best..in terms of better pay, better working environtment though according to sis, who knows the bosses coz she's dealt with them b4, are quite nice ppl... *fingers crossed*

Maybe i wont get so tempremental and moody dy? :x

Oh ya, OM suddenly belanja-ed me this ytd when she said she was hungry (and she constantly is..) she went to get this and got one for me also O_Ov..

Cornetto!! :3 Its really been ages since i had one...nice and somemore it was raining outside...LOL :x

In case ur wondering, whats with the doodle on the ice cream....erm...i had....too much time on my hands and i know it looks sucky...Arts was nvr a strong point for me =.= Still nt bad la huh? D:

Have a great Fly-day peepos, though i know im gonna be pooped, im still thankful its finally the weekends :)

Loves!