Rain..

I really need an umbrella..walked back in the rain again ~.~ and todays was horribly heavy..dont get it..so dam sunny in the afternoon..the minute it hit 5pm rain liao...zzzzzzzz

Didnt realise how bad it was until i reach the lrt!! hmm..not cool T_T ...stood, walked abit, stood, went and bought a key chain o.O why ar? nvm..ps la..everytime it rains i sure go in and see nia =x so decided, well, i needed a keychain so buy lor..lolz...

Friday liao so fast..havent thought of what i wanna do with the weekends yet...haha..oh ya..had an sms fiesta with mei on the way back home..don wanna see the bill d =x anyways..take care wor mei <3

Oh, rained when i came down to cc also..bla..rain la rain la...tomoro rain somemore so i can sleep in ^^..

<3s~

P/s: 4 more days!!! ~.~

You really are..

....indifferent, distant, like a stranger to me.

I dont know what is wrong but i knw something is..

Somehow, uve changed and it doesnt feel like it used to anymore.

Maybe uve gotten bored, maybe ure juz not..

I dont know..

Its juz different..whether u believe it or not.

but how would you knw how i feel, if u dont read what i have to say anymore

And i dont want to say anything..

Silence <3

Doinks..

Currently posting at work..why i donwan go back home ar? What is my problem??

Bleh~

Actually left work early ytd..abit regret k? Ended waiting for the ppl to clear up at the LRT station..wth? why so many ppl one? They kenot go home earlier?? =x

So waited and waited and waited and waited and waited...well u get my point... Wait till donwan

wait anymore and join in the fun cramping with ppl..i don like to be a kelian sardine..but no choice..bla.

Alot of funny things i notice though..how ppl can actually fall asleep whilst standing..hmmm..i mean its so bladi cramp and hot ok? and besides i don think i will ever want to show some stranger how i look like when i sleep k? Never! Never ever! Not in a million years! Not even if i was gonna die from lack of sleep!

Work was fun as usual...lol? Well did wat i had to do...got some good responses though..hopefully i will get my 1st deal soon :) *fingers crossed*

Oh ya..shocked myself today..went to toilet and suddenly saw a guy standing there looking at the mirror..OMFG! Was i that sleepy??

Turns out it was a woman=x

What la..she was wearing a man's suit and boycut hair somemore..not my fault i misunderstood ok? stunned for 2 secs and then continued walking on in the toilet cubicle..and was trying to stop myself from laughing at myself..lol -.-

Housemates are back...well actually one of them came back while i was in Penang..but the thing is i havent seen him since i came back..everytime i go home..he's in the room.. He's there! i know it ok? When i come out of the bath, there are signs that he came out..locked doors, things moved...bla bla bla..feels really creepy though..really, really creepy..

Now all of them are back and i still havent seen them..hmmm..think its coz of my leaving the hse at 6.30am and coming home ard 12+..but then funny la..its like 6 ppl living in that apartment and i nvr see them..doh. But think will see them when i go back today..unless they went out for dinner..oh well..

Think i shd back home now..getting quite late..oh ya! After 1 1/2 years and 160+ posts..i finally realised i can change how i write my blog..

DONT! Dont judge me...thats for me to do only zzzz..

I wanna learn how to lock some of my posts though..hmm..don think i can do it in blogger..

Doink doink doink..

<3s~

Tired..

Im back in KL..

Came back ytd morning..bus left at 10am..doink..no more buses left for the day..so basically i went back Pg for one day nia x.x.. Sorry guys..next time i tell u earlier im coming back so that we can meet up =)

Hectic 2 days..did i needed to do and still few stuff not yet done zzz...oh well..came back feeling sooooo tired..and to top it all off..6 hrs in the bus T__T..and bought the snoozer seats but my dam tv was nt working..so slept the entire journey which made me more tired..doh.

And ate alot of Penang food lolz..missed it so muchh =( and found out it vegetarian month.. adoi..i always do the whole 9 days de..this time in KL i didnt even realise it was that time ady..sigh..

Left work sharp 5.30 and fell asleep after having dinner..now still groggy and sleepy..think ima gonna head back and sleep earlier tonite..no mood to do research..think i have enuf leads to last me tomoro ba..

Thats it..nothing else to post..still feeling a sense of loss..but then who cares?

<3s~

My afternoon nap...

...turned out to be a bad idea.

Had a horrible nightmare and remember crying in it..alot..

Even as i tried to relax myself and forget abt my sadness, i had it in my dreams..

Sigh..

U guys were right....(edited)

..i was doing it for attention, for someone to really listen and not make it feel like something that didnt matter, someone to tell me its gonna be ok and not change the topic coz its something they didnt want to hear.

Was i wrong? Maybe..

..in the way i did it, the way i handled it, the way i said it. Im not proud of it but i was juz desperate for anyone's attention even for 5 mins.Im sorry i did it..

I juz feel that our friendship is not what it used to be, it juz seems to me that ive been shut out from your life and there are things that u don seem to want to share with me anymore..Call me obsessed or phobia or juz imagining things but i knw this things..its coz im super sensitive..which is never a good bad thing =(

Everything i do bothers u, everythin i say irritates u,which never seemed to be last time..u would cheer me up always.. am i really that bad a person? im starting to think that i am..

And for the first time..you made it feel like it was entirely my fault..and u pretended it nvr happened and left me without a chance to explain..so here it is..the reason i kept asking was coz i wanted u to be sure and nt to change ur plans juz coz of me..i didnt say no, i wanted u to think it through..and i was angry and dissapointed that when i was rushing to go back...u told me u couldnt do it..and the reasons that u gave me said i was at fault..and even when finally u said u could again..the way you said it made me feel like i was a burden..it did..believe me..And after it all, u expect me to smile as if nothing happened?

U will nvr get it, after reading this u might even think that im more annoying and nuisance than ever..u will think that im a difficult person and u wont even bother anymore..u might even hate me..i wonder if u will even see this..after being my friend for so long, do u really understand me and put urself in my shoes?

Well im back in penang, reached home late last nite..and juz feelin very tired. Alot on my mind that it makes me donwan to think of anything anymore. Keepin my mind blank..

Btw, thanx guys for keepin me company with ur sms'es on my way back home :)

I dont know what else to say to you, maybe its best if i don say anythin anymore since everythin i say or do seems wrong and aggravates the situation. As a friend said..suck it up and be happy with what we have..thus i will smile..and laugh even when it hurts inside juz coz i donwan to be unhappy anymore..

Shall go back to bed i suppose..and try to sleep.

Juz a post?

Dono wat to post..but needed a place to channel my feelings..yet it seems hard for it come out..

Alot of things were on my mind these 2 days of hols..alot of good things and some bad ones..i dono why im bein like i am now..maybe its coz i always had a family to go back to and now im alone here..its not that i shdnt be here..juz culture shock i suppose or i juz need time to adapt to nt having ppl wif me most of the times..

Im enjoyin my freedom away from the family but i do miss them..i juz hope i will do well in this job and make them proud of me :)

Well tomoro will be going back to penang..but for 2 days nia..couldnt get bus tickets back later in the day so have to leave pg early :(

I wish the ppl who said will leave words of encouragement for me here..will keep their promise :(

Nites peeps, will blog from pg tomoro <3s~