:)

Like the new blog? Lolz..

Its somewhat emo, and dark..but i guess its me...for now :)

Loved the old blog ya (hard work by my beloved mei =3)

But felt i needed a change, and been meaning to have it done for some time now..

I asked for baby's help, and i thought she had given up coz the whole thing was juz a big bladi mess lol..

But..

I was surprised to log in today and see this come out instead xDD

Thanks baby, *Loves*

Was supposed to go out for a friend's birthday thingie, but they nvr call to tell me whr..

and i didnt bother to call them to ask also..

Picked up the phone a few times and wanted to dial n call them

But..really not in the mood to go out ..

And its Saturday night for crying out loud..sigh.

Audi's server is down for now (whats new eh?), so playing slots, scratch off, blogging..

And searching for a song thats been haunting me for months..

All coz i cant remember the dam title =.= DAM IT!

CPU is still in the shop but went back to take my monitor..

Jf la, scare me..say they will use fr their own stuff...

Which was wat i actually thought also..initially..

Ask me to go so early and all not there, walao ._. then call them and ask qn

also dono how to answer me..wtf?

So am using my monitor, plugged in my lappy >_>

Though i realised it not as laggy lol..

What should i do abt my cpu? Tmd =x

Ahhhhh...

Gonna rot this weekend..nvm la..been rotting for awhile d x.x

Dont mind me=x

Have a great weekend guys~! <3s~

If only.

After 3 torturing weeks of my leg in wraps, finally it came off tonite :)

Though this also means, no more privileges at home, and doing everything myself again..

Awww=x

Anyway, when i took it off, it felt so itchy coz of the med and

also coz of 3 weeks in there and nvr wash that part of my foot...ewwww gross =x

I bth str8 went to bath and scrubbed my leg x.x...its still abit swollen though,

but becoz of my scratching it, its now red and swollen..hmmm..crap=x

Took my longest bath in 3 weeks and did it standing!! lol...

3 weeks of bathing while sitting on chair while my leg propped up is no fun :(

But it still hurts abit leh...hmm..why ar? Psychology? Maybe..

Oh ya.. took my cpu to the shop again and this time left my monitor there also o.O

They say, need to chk why kenot on..zz.. juz dont tell me nthg can be done d :(

Though i suspect its my graphic card prob..sigh.

Tomoro by lunch im gonna call them see if they can do bo, if nt ima gonna

take it back..donwan leave my monitor there over the weekend..

But then i realise, when i fix my monitor to my lappy last nite, its was not so laggy..

and i can play 130+ songs leh...even do the fm o.O

I dono if its the internet smooth or wat..but it felt different..

Oh well..time to ponder abt..watch a movie..loiter ard the hse till i fall asleep.

Lol..

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If only.

My happiness will last for more than just one day.

If only.

U showed just a little that u actually cared.

If only.

U didnt do things that made me feel unimportant to you.

If only.

I didnt feel like such a disappointment to you when u wanted something i couldnt give.

If only..

Wahahahahaha!!

I made it!! Im finally WorldStar liao!! LOL!! =x *Cheers cheers*

The best part is...I BEAT HIM TO IT! HAHAHAHA..omfg x.x kiasuism to de max =x

Wanted to update ytd..

But..

SO BLADI TIRED! hurhur..i sacrificed alot of sleep time to get there..

YES! IKNW! IM CRAZY! dont have to tell me again...but heck care..i shuang! =XX

On Monday i had my lvl 50 lic..then continued and, and, and

by Tuesday, i was 51 d! LOL...yeah...200k in 24hrs...i knw, im not normal..

Still.....

IN YOUR FACE! HAH!

But hor, i think he bo song me d T_T...he still owe me mega somemore hor..

Cheater :(

He say i sot somemore...wat wor..its not impossible k? Dumbass =x

And its very chi kek, when i challenge myself like this, i knw i shd better things to do..

but with my leg in a cast, i actually hv nthg better to do?

I can only sit ard at hm whole day..so put it to good use ba..lolz

Since it was my target to reach WS b4 my 3rd yr of audi'ing...(Thanks babe fr helping <3)

Now what? hmmm...

Oh ya..i wan pearl rings...so nice T_T...really!!

Wo yao wo yao wo yao =x

See meeeee!! :p

Went to see sinseh again today and tomoro can take out bandage le xD

But now itchy as hell lor T_T...and juz now pain like wat x.x

Got my monitor today also! xDDD but dammit...my cpu problem sia..zzz

Tmd tmd tmd tmd =x

Now im looking at my wide screen, which is attached to my lappy >_>

DUH?
Gonna get it fixed tomoro (again =_=) hopefully i will finally be able to use it

if not ima gonna throw a bitch fit =x

OH YA, MY PET FINALLY LVLED, ytd also !!! lolzz..:p

After a gazillion, million years =x

Ok la...time for movies! On my new monitor! xP!!

Sweet Dreams peeps ^^

Hot hot hot!!!

Omfg Pg is fucking hot and humid recently..i shd say the past few weeks x.x
Its gotten worse this week..even when it rains, its hot!!

Crazy lar, i end up bathing many many many times a day =_=

Went for Qing Ming today.. my grandparents..

Lucky it was not sunny, though a little humid and also rained abit x.x

Reached the place at abt 4 and ended up staying there till abt 7plus,

coz granpa n granma didnt finish eating yet lol..

Until at last, i asked them and they finally said "ok, hao le" haha..

I think must be so many ppl keep asking, they also fan le xP!

Saturday nite jam, finally reaching home 8plus liao..

suddenly had major migrain, must be kena rain..took 2 pills to stop it from turning

into fever :( ..then somebody made me sad..so i went to sleep at 2am..

But then everything is fine d..thanks for the "fresh flowers" xDD

Ill try to be nice frm now, but u also har! lol..

Im irritated lor!

MY PET WIL NVR REACH 32!!

Everday i log in so many times..and when i see the gap closing i keep thinking

"goin to lvl, goin to lvl, goin to lvl!"

BUT!!

IT NEVER DOES!!

*&^%^*(^(@$*

Even lvl'ing in audi also not so hard. Omgosh x.x

Btw, gratz babe fr passing ur lvl 56 lic - once! So pro =3

My turn! LOL=x

I intend to finish up the remaining % tonite coz i figure, even when i say tomoro

morning, i wont be able to wake up x.x

Im juz nt a morning person...rofl..

Oh ya, watched jf, ky, baby and huii brbp earlier (wish i have my com TT) and

saw this panda npcs!

SO CUTE CAN! LOOK LIKE JF! LOL! =XX

He say, if got this pandas appear means, the npc wont drain o.o

I dono he pian me or not =x

Anyway , the pandas dam good dancers k? They can moveeee xP

Im feeling easily irritated these few days, maybe my period is coming o.o

or maybe, sometimes wat i say are meant to be jokes, bt ppl take it so

seriously and then i get annoyed..lol..

Life is simple, u live, u laugh and u love..wats so hard abt that?

It was a joke when i said i had no life, but u guys took it the wrong way..

Im nt negative, not abt life.

If i was, i would be dead long ago. lolz.

Enuf abt that, maybe its juz my crazy hormons..

Sorry guys if i seemed pissed..im not :)

And tomoro IS gonna be a fk up day fr me (ask me 1st why, b4 sayin im negative)

COZ COZ COZ..

i need see doc again, hopefully its getting better coz i really need to start working..

Oh well..its officially MONDAY!

Hope u guys have a great start tomoro and a wonderful week ahead~!

Cheers peep and lotsa luv x3's~

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"dont judge me before u really understand me"

Another week...of my life

Juz finished watching Sex and the City - The movie (YES! again..lol)

Thought it would a lame show b4 i watched it, and as my family put it..

alot of sex (duh..as if they're all saints =_=)

Anyway watched it not coz of that, bt the concept of the whole show..

abt finding love and also the frens tat are there for you when u need them..

Made me think alot of my own friendships.

Maybe, baby u were right..maybe i didnt put in enuf effort, didnt care enuf,

didnt make the fs strong enuf..

Maybe in a way, ive become cynical of the term friendship..

Maybe its all an excuse..an excuse to hide my weakness.

Trust - it is a 5 letter word. But it means so much to me.

And yet, i cant even trust myself..for now.

Im contradicting myself, i knw..its juz how i feel now.

I knw wat i need. I need a job..lol

I need a monitor fr my cpu also..hahaha

Tired of talking, tired of thinking.

Maybe i shd stop.

Maybe...

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Not everything i say is sarcasm.

Will u listen to me once in a while?

Will u be there for me like u promised?

Do u understand anything abt me?

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

"Ever thee

Ever me

Ever ours"

I feel...blank?

Uneventful day, as usual lol..

Went to see doc again today..swelling has gone done but still needed to rewrap..

He said shd take at least 2 weeks more b4 the ankle heels x.x

Follow mum to see rattan chairs (she's been buggin for ages lol)

..and went home. L.O.L =x

What else did i do today? Hmm...

Oh. No more. Sad.

Oh oh..watched anime yay! =x

Now realised i might hv watched in wrong order.. tmd tmd tmd x.x

Oh ya, fr ppl who are wondering who "The arguement hubby" is..

He's non other than mr ricky c lol...my former partner in crime at ME,

the reason he calls himself that is coz, we argued alot in office...ermm..debate alot..

and one day my boss said, "U two sound like husband n wife la"

O.O!!!

I told her.."Thats the worst thing u can say T_T"..

So yeah, that why he calls himself that >_>

He's finally an auditioner, but i doubt he'll stay long..LOL! =x

Never chionged today, actually watched quite alot of tv instead..

Sigh. Moodless.

Oh well, shall attempt to change my blog background tomoro..

Somehow, i feel scared..feels like im losing ppl i care abt..

Or maybe they dont need me anymore..

Am i useless for anything else?

-Silence-

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"ive learned that by not expecting anything,

i wont get hurt.. as much.."

Random thoughts..

As usual, my blogger page has been opened fr the past 2 days

and i have yet to see a single word typed out...

So, it shall not stay empty anymore..i shall attempt to update! =x

Am currently multi-tasking..

As in playing with my facebook (PS shd have new stuff today lol),

my sis asking to look after her restaurant in FB ...she say she want to cut her fren's

level, so ask me look after fr her until lvl 14 at least =_=

and also my very frail attempt in updating my blog..

These past few days has been somewhat eventful,

even with me being not able to walk alot..

Proud to say, Im, or at least anoili is lvl 49 in Audisea xD.. 2 more lvls to WS..jyjy~

And all this juz to cut some1 who cut my lvl earlier..lol=x..why u so kiasu??

Anyway the main reason was cause, we said whoever reach WS ,

the other person will mega for them...and i want him to do it 1st..LOL!

Other than that, my leg is still swollen..was suppose to go see doc today but

i was worried for someone and decided to stay home in case he needed me..

Shall go tomoro.. :)

Been checking out some stuff, so been walking out alot as well..

not very cool coz it hurts when i reach home x.x

Other than that, have been rotting at home..really bored..to the point i find things

to argue about ...i dono why..but its not all senseless k?

Its juz when i have alot of time of my hands, i tend to think more than i normally do :(

Today, watched Sex in the City - the movie, Hancock (Will Smith, yum :p)

Old movies, but then again i havent watched movies fr abt a year?

Thanks babe fr passing them to me =3

Also been tryin to company some1 who was feeling really down..and i felt useless

coz i couldnt help with anything...and i couldnt be there for you :(

Trust.

Been hearing alot of this word recently.

One thing i knw for sure, once its broken..it will nvr be the same anymore.

U said to me, don always dont trust you, and think negatively..

Its becoz of the past..

Dont deny it, coz that would be like treating like im a fool who didnt know..

I dont like finding out things frm other ppl, i juz want u to be able to

tell me the truth..even if it hurts me.

Ppl have said, maybe its coz i tend to overreact, how can i not sometimes?

I knw wat u can do, coz uve done it before..

how can i not treat everything u do now with a little bit of suspicion?

Im sorry i turned out this way. Im trying to change my thoughts..

Wanted to say these things to you, but didnt want to make u feel worse..

so i kept it in..until now..

I dont knw whether u will read this part, but i needed to get it out.

When i said there was no reason for me to go back, and u said ok..

It hurt me, coz i felt unwanted, not needed anymore.

Maybe as you said i am the single candle will shine through the darkness,

but all im trying to do is to light it so that u can find your way out..

In time.

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"somehow, i feel..im not who i used to be

not anymore..

i dont even know if its a good thing.."