Its been the longest 48hrs ever...

I wonder if i can go through it.. Its killing me inside :(

Will I ever matter, juz for a little bit? Yes, for awhile..but it will nvr last.

And my tummy's been hurting the whole day..sobs.

Would you cry juz a little, lie juz a little,

Pretend that your feeling a little more pain,

I gave not wanting something in return,

So cry juz a little for me..

Weekends come n gone, and i feel the same. I am trying to make somethin of my life, i wan to look back and see all the things ive done and be proud of myself. Not to say that im not now. I am. Im happy with the choices ive made so far coz even though it has not been all good, but there also that silver lining :)

Im reminded of all the ppl i knw, the frens ive made and it makes it worthwhile. So far, no regrets :) The only regret i have is not having my own career yet. Something which i will be good at, something i can be proud of.. I guess some ppl wait all their life to find it. Im sure i will find mine soon. Pray for me?

Didnt do much this weekend, bt did alot of soul searching. Of what i shd start doing and stop procrastinating. What is good for n what is not. Who i need n who i dont. So ppl who couldnt care shyt about me but pretend that they do, juz do urselves a favour n stay away. I don need more pretence in my life k?

Hmm..it actually took me 3hrs to blog this. Lol. Well, that n the fact that robo wars has been givin me problems the whole day, so gave up for now. Shall continue tomoro. And also was editing MY pics n posting in FB lol..And also ange convincin me that they looked nice =x ALOT of convincing hahaha...Spammed my fb would be the more precise word for it :p

Oh well, its officially a Moooonday, it might be a blue one for some u guys but hey, face it strong peeps xD

I feel irritated, annoyed, flabbergasted and left out..
Where were u when i needed u the most?

Dont shut me out unless u want me to do the same.

Battle battle battle! :p

Jus turned lvl31 earlier and currently having 87 squads lolz =x Im nt really extreme k? There are other ppl who are more *hints babe* Lololol :p ... Juz had my bath, and thought..hmm i really shd update. Although i didnt really do much except to hit attk when the time came LOL! Bleh~ Well, its rainin now, been raining fr a few days..good weather? Er not really lol..Unless its cooling rain..like the one now..ahhh~ Feeling sleepy x.x

Seriously, been super hot lately, not only hot hot but humid too..nt an ounce of cold air AT ALL!..Came to the point that im wearing less garments to sleep an ard the hse lol..Im decent la, juz braless n pantless LOL! I REALLY CANT TAKE IT K? T_T

Fell asleep fr 15 mins...o.o

Ok, so where was i? Oh, in short? Malaysia is hot, Penang is hot, Greenlane is hot and im hot LOL! Jk la..Heat gettin to me *sobsob* Been sleeping in the wee mornings these few days, wat else ar, battling, watchin dvd's, and chatting with a pig who's working abnormal hrs :p

So basically thats abt it, nthg much..but i juz realised thats is a Friday d! lawls..i really didnt realise lor..Oh well..

HAPPY WEEKEND EVERYBODS!!!

"I wish so much to be the person i was b4, ever trusting, ever happy, ever ignorant, ever full of love..the person u once knew. Im trying, but i need u to help me move on..Will u hold my hand and be there?"

It took 3 women, multiple pcs of plank, alot of screws and 1 1/2 hrs.....

To put together a DIY cabinet~ LOL! Hey..it was hard work k? But we managed to do it..as usual :p..Woohoo! Girl Power! =X.

Tadaaa~~

Oh, i forgot, the day me n mum went to get it, i had to go buy it and dam it was heavy k? But i managed to get 2 guys to carry it down until Tesco's car park for me. Either im still very charming or i was lucky to meet some helpful dudes..I like to think it was the former..LOL! =X

How time flew by and its already Tuesday. Past 2 days have been so engrossed in Robot Wars lol..Im level 24 (at the time of post :p) and that only coz i havent been playin much today x.x. Was busy sleeping in the afternoon..WAD! Its the 1st time in weeks that it actually was cooling when it rained k? Anyway it was juz abt 2hrs nia la..Woke up, went for an interview, came back, took mum to get dinner, had dinner, fix cabinet, sis cut my hair again and here i am bloggin..

Busy day? Not really..lol.

Interview went well, i think..we'll see what happens after they call me fr the 2nd one :)

Hmmm..i really need to boost my squad number or else ill kena bully :( *thoughts trail off~* Aaaanyway..been watching this new series Women's Murder Club(WMC). Its in its 1st season nia, but so far the storyline is quite good. Its a this group of 4 women (hence the title.. WMC) a police detective, a public defender, a reporter and a medical examiner and together they find the bad guys :p It sounds corny i knw, but hey, its nice corny hahaha..

Other than that, nothing much happened d..yea i knw..my life's bore..but i like it =.= Oh yea, got my watch back from the shop..Missed it so much =3

Oh well, have a good week ahead guys :)

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Since when did i become your "when i feel like it.." friend? Maybe i always was, but juz refused to see it for wat it was, hoping i was actually something more, not the world, but not so unimportant. I was fooling myself. I get it now...

Its'a Saturday~!

Lolz, as if that means anything to me. Everyday is like a Saturday to me xP! Though its not a very fun saturday, coz its so bleepin hot x.x Even when ur sitting down doing absolutely nothing, its still as hot. Tmd tmd tmd =x.

Been preoccupied with robot wars the second half of the day (till now =x), 1st half, im not so sure..hmmm..maybe cursing the weather x.x.. oh ya, that and the fact that i did not have ppl in my squad which made me lose 1 out of 3 battles fought, so was lazy to play. Not until i added ppl in my squad. Dont ask me how though lolz..its a complex procedure staged out by my zhu =/.. so now i have 8ppl in my squad and im hooked on fightin ppl x.x Babe, i blame u for this!

So now, im having a hot drink, playin robot wars, watching Rush Hour 3, bloggin, reading ppl's blogs, reading forums (LOL! Multi-tasking to de max!) and basically enjoyin my nite xD..Shall sleep soon though, hehe..need to meet up with some ppl tomoro..i think..oh well, we'll see :)

Nites peeps n sweet dreams~ <3s~

Uppie datie~

Am currently havin my hair done, by my sis! Finally~ Well actually its been more than 5hrs x.x... Almost lost my mind during that last hr, think both of us did lol. My conclusion to her, i will stick my "One cut per year" stand=x. Yes, she's training as a hairstylist and almost at the end of her classes. And she showed me this cut 1st, sort of str8 on top and wavey at the bottom. Turned out great XD! Will post photos in FB soon coz she took some to put in her profile lol..but...i...a...bit....shy=x

Endured the hot iron for straightening, made me have a headache as usual and all for the sake of vanity, its a painful beauty..but if it didnt turned out rite then it would juz be painful x.x

Past 2 day have been engrossed in FB, why? Robot wars. Dont ask me, all because babe wanted me to join his squad so he can attack ppl and win ._. and now im hooked on it. I dono why, i juz like to see the numbers ticking lol. And im not obsessed k? Some1 has, the last i heard ard 19 squads in his team, dont ask me how he did it, so yeah, babe pls, obsess much? He's trying win this dude who is in 1st place. Kiasuism :p.. I HOPE YOU WIN HIM SOON! =3 . And also partly coz i havent been able to go into PS since Monday..What a ding dong ._.

Other updates :

- CPU still in shop ._. I seriously doubt he knows or bothers doing it, so shall take it back tomoro.

- Swollen leg has gone down..actually juz donwan see doc again :s, still hurts though =x

- Have a few interviews next week, hopefully those go well. Knowing me, it normally does. LOL! Bleh~

How time passes by, its already Friday tomoro~! Happy happy? ^^

Neways, have a great day tomoro, and a wonderful weekend xDD!

"I said once, i will forgive but will never forget, someone said to me, then you never forgave. I wish i had amnesia everytime something happened. Maybe i'll be happier.."

Nothing much to blog about today..am actually quite sleepy lol x.x

*Note to self: SLEEP EARLIER!*

But wth, its already 3am and im still here =.=

Woken up today by zhu's phone call..YES I WAS SLEEPING! =x..though i said i was awake d hurhur...i was awake la..juz juz...couldnt get out of bed =x..

Played abit of audi with babe and it was already 2pm...tot of goin back to bed. But i didnt lah ok?

Im not a pig =( .. Watched abit of movies, sent out resumes for jobs, made some phone calls..so yeah hopefully there will be some interviews soon. My leg still swollen hor babe..its not an excuse lor =( .. Need to go see doc again tomoro coz my ankles really swollen sia x.x..

Went in audi later in the evening, played with darling till she lvled then drove out to get dinner. All this time, still bery bery sleepy..even with playing with darling..But i didnt want to sleep coz i scared i wont be able to sleep later. Hmm..so much for that theory coz im still awake!.. I really need to wake up earlier tomoro..

Babe! call me again pls =x

After having dinner, went to lie down and i think i fell asleep lol x.x..short nia la..(sorry zhu didnt hear ur sms lol)..audied half asleep again until ard 1.30 then went to bath and here i am now. Awake but tired o.o..

Going to force myself to sleep soon. Need to go some places tomoro.

"I know i can be demanding, because i believe ppl can change, but I can also change and learn not be so demanding and meet you halfway.."