Secret Recipe's Caramel Cheese Cake~!!

Happy Mother's Day!!!!

Though the day before there were some arguments in the hse, which lasted till Sunday afternoon, still we managed to get together and let bygones be bygones and celebrated it together as a family :)

As my mum n sis went over to the mainland to buy some stuff n get my dog's hair trimmed, i went on my cake search. After 5 to 6 cake hses and 1hr later, we finally decided to splurge a little more and got Secret's Recipes cake. Yum! xD

Mum n sis bought back sefood, crabs, prawns :) And they went all the way frm mainland to Teluk Kumbar fr it..So semangat lol :p

This is the food!

Well, sorry this post is only being posted today since M-Day was ytd, bt have caught up in a new anime i juz found in crunchyroll hurhur xD..Quite cute storyline and i must say its becoming quite exciting lolz. Am only at the 25epi.. will tell u guys wats it abt in my next blog. LOL =x

Ok, time to continue! x.x

Have a great week ahead peeps! *Loves*

My heart bleeds seeing her sit there n cry..

Im angry at him for making her cry.. Yet i can do nothing to console her..

Inside im crying my own tears, but who will be there to tell me it will be allright?

No one.

My heart is dead.

I think, for me to be truly happy is by leaving..

I dont know how to or what to say anymore. Im wrong when i say things u dont want to hear, and im torn by the things you say. There is nothing that i can do, which will makes us happy anymore.

I dont want to feel sad again when i feel i let you down, and i dont want to feel sad when u show that i let you down. Tell me how to make u happy again? Ppl say, stop trying to please the world. Im not. Im only tryin to please you. And i cant even do that right.

Ive left you once. I knw i can do it again.

Its not that I dont love you, I do. So much more than me. But by being here, i feel trapped, confused, helpless. Im so tired of this never-ending cycle.

Tired of the arguements and the silence after.

"Im all out of faith, this is how I feel

Im cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor

Illusion never changed into something real

Im wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn

Youre a little late, Im already torn"

Lunch made by me xD~

Im so sleepy..Havent been sleeping well for the past few days :( .. Firstly was your doing, doink. Secondly, been having toothache for a few nites d..jus ytd was worse. Tooth pain till my head throbbed >< . Gums still quite swelled, so cant have it pulled out yet.. But i sked see dentist lo :(

Havent been audi'ing fr a few days, partly coz darling is away on hols in Sabah, mei also went on hols in Phils..Wa, i wan to go on my hols also liao :p . Hmm, still on robot wars, my squad juz went up to 151 o.o Legit squads k? Frens joining me, last one being Vara lol..I juz turned Lvl46, well halfway through actually haha..But its getting slower to lvl ><. Zhu already up to 59 d ._.

Oh, and jz found out my value in FFS(friends for sale) in FB is almost hitting 10m^^ And few months ago, i was not even sell-able..Rain actually had to do clearance sale on me T_T. Lolz..

Other than that, nothing much..stil not working..Hmmm..think im losing my mind d..Bored as hell..Bla. Pray i start working soon or ill start doing stupid stuff =x Save me!

I keep reading it over n over again. The words u said.

Though it hurt to see u say it, Im sorry i was nvr enough.

You say wat i said was all untrue.. Which part was it?

The 1st part? The part im reading over n over again? The 2nd part? How u NEVER neglected me when u were with them? Or the last part, do you really want me to go and ask to make sure?Im so tired, yet i could only sleep fr 2hrs waking up frm a horrible dream, only to realise it wasnt. It was real.

I knw u might think im over exagerating. Put urself im my shoes. If then u still think its not a big thing then maybe u dont care as much as i do. This is the 2nd time im really disappointed with you. How many must i take for you to stop?

Deep down inside, i keep thinking you can change but u keep proving me wrong. Even after i asked you abt it ytd, you still continued doing it. Me n awol's theories not true? Maybe ur just finding some1 more obliging.

Stop saying sorry if you dont mean it, if you think you did nothing wrong, just stop doing it. Coz one day, sorry will not mean anything to me.

I've officially lost it.

Im currently Level 39 in Robot Wars and im determined to get to 40 by tonite. Or rather by this morning. I have abt 200more exp to go and God knows wat time i will level.

Great!

Please congratulate me as i am no longer normal. Even after typing this out and reading how insane i am, im still goin to do it.

Lol...

Bla.

Edited: I leveled to 40 at 8am.. Dam im sleepy x.x

Happy Labour's Day~!! xD

And isnt it cool that's is on a Friday? Haha..But even with this some ppl i knw are working today..Some zhu :p..But cant blame him la, he's saving up to buy me my new iPhone..LOL! Thank you!! x333

Rained this morning, almost couldnt wake up x.x heng some1 on their way to work woke me up, so was sms'ing half asleep and poofie my batt went dead. Fk! my phone is so screwed up, sigh. My batt is dying, and i juz charged it ytd ~.~ And the minute it dies, to get it started back up again is a nightmare. Bla.

Ive gotten quite hooked on side slider phones, which has a cute qwerty kb..hmm..bt nokia's designs are quite normal..maybe i shd jz stick to my 1st option, the 5800 lol. My hand really itchy to change le, bt i promised myself i wont change it until i start working. Argh.

Anyway, woke up, had lunch and went to cc lol..wanted to npc n earn some dens, and it's also been a long time since i npc'ed. Hey, i felt pro ok? Lol. Nt bad earning for a few hrs, almost 1M..but i used my noob acc to play ba, since i havent drained most of them, and also the fact that i wanted to change her look =x

Came home ard 7, family had gone over to B'worth and bought back seafood as dinner. Really huge prawns n crabs x.x yumyum :p. Went out again with them to get my fav wildberries yogurt and now am here.. drowsy n blogging lol...

Uneventful? Pretty much mundane stuff bt it passes the time..

Ok la, shall go be scared out of my pants now.. sis gonna put some creepy ghost movie, might as well get my blood n adreline rushing abit. Hope i dont die of a heart attk though lol x.x

"Don't seek for perfections in love ,

learn to love the imperfections in the ppl who love you instead"