Screwed up Tuesday.

Lousy day at work, had some work disputes with the OM again =.= She really knws hw to push responsibility away. Big sigh. And my colleague sort of raised her voice because she was gettin too annoying and asking same qns every single day. Wtf. But after that, she had a premonition that the Om will go and tell on her ....which she did. Really fk up. Cant settle by herself, need to tell bosses. Bitch.

I left office early, b4 5, becoz boss wanted me to go collect a sink frm a supplier and sent it over to the site. I was really curious, why were he so persistent on me leaving asap? At 7plus, i found out why. They sacked my colleague. Fk up right?

She called to say wat happened, and though i disagree with her sometimes with work matters, the next day we're ok dy coz its only work. But not for the old bird. Super sensitive and goes cryin to the sis everytime we say something which does not agree with her. Welcome to the real world lady, not everything goes ur way =.=

Its just really unfair and heartless of them to just sack her like that, but she did them a piece of her mind and i guess in a way, its good to just let them knw wat ppl think of them. I have a feeling they might qn me also, coz it seems i havent been nice too. Well, fk her, i dont see a reason to be nice to a tattle tale. Bigh sighss. I hate this kind of working environment. No co-operation, no team work. And its just so few of us.

Gotta find me a new job soon, have been lookin and applyin tonite d..hopefully something comes up soon coz i have a feeling i will be burdened with colleague's work load. Shit.

Just when i thought 2010 was gonna be a good year..hopefully it gets better soon :(

Anyway, went into audi comp again tonite, coz wanted to clear my head, and got into 2nd round lol :D...1st rd mode was c9, which i didnt think i would do so well, but apprently there are others who suck more..hahaha :X . 2nd round was cc8 which i flunked. Abit wth, considering it shd be my better mode. Im getting noobier by the day.

Havent done much the entire night except updating my resume and sending out application and also thinking of wat to say if they do talk to me tomoro. I hate this type of conversations but im pretty much set on telling the truth, whether they like it or not. Fk work.

Time to rest, really moodless nite.

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&im constantly amazed on how heartless people can really be.
Everyday..

B.O.R.I.N.G!!!

What a slow slow monday...yes, i had work to do, but the time sure crawled @__@;;

Oh ya, officially moved to another table, my ex-colleague which just left last week lol. His place is more hidden and thus making me more sleepy. No complaints though, at least im not directly facing the bosses office and yet i can see if they come over :DDD

And sis came to find me for lunch today, treated her yummy claypot yee mee :D Its been awhile since we both had and i thought why not...and besides needed her to follow me to bank ..LOL! I know what ur thinking! No! It was not a bribe....she was the one who suggested it btw ;sob

One of my 2010 resolutions, to settle of my credit card debts in underway! Just paid off my HSBC card off and im free frm one card so far and counting! :D More to come and soon ill be debt free...yay!! So happy that my resolutions are happening, slowly but surely ^^

Hoho! To be continued....at home! :p

Just came back frm bi-monthly grocery shopping with mum...she's been buggin me to go for a few days now and im always very lazy to do it on a weekend..jz the amount of ppl ard and the jam..arhhhh :S. Decided to make her happy and suggested to her lol, hey, im a good daughter ..sometimes...well i try :)

Before i left the office, the boss suddenly decided to come in. Wtf? Already after working hrs, and she is expecting us to stay ard and do stuff for her? No way, as soon and the timer hit 5.30, i was outta there. Sadly horrid jam all the way home and then all the way to farlim =.= Penang traffic is getting worse by the day..sheesh.

And groceries can so expensive nowadays =.= Dont think we bought alot of stuff, bt it would normally come up a cpl of hundred each time. Thank god it didnt reach 200 today though...BUT STILL SO LITTLE STUFF! :S..ive been meaning to complain each time, bt the pain in my pockets numb the workings of me brain =.=

Oh well...had pan mee for dinner and then went into audi, then thought, might as well join compy since so long bo join..got kicked out in 1st rd btw...can i blame the fact i nvr warm up? Can? D: and oh, met someone i didnt want to in same room as me...lousy luck i shd see him tonite =.= and his small talk was lame. Bla. So, lost (4th coz dam laggy and no perf zzzz) and left. And thats that.

Now feeling slightly feverish, maybe i really shd try sleeping earlier..like b4 1?? LOL! Ill try :x

Im kinda surprised that Monday is over..but in a good way :) Sorta been feeling numb since ytd...hmmm..

Ok, bath bath and rest! :) Ciaozz~


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& how we try to comprehend the incomprehensible.


.::Si tu amor no merezco, no me ames, mas quédate otro día::.

This is by far the grossest dish in Cafe World.....Martian Brain Bake o.O ....eerhhh :S

Yes, random. But seriously needed to share my distaste for the dish @_@;; and i swore i wouldnt cook it...and i just did :X. Couldnt help it, the portions are big..lol :S Oh well, i just wont look when the customers eat them :p

Soooo, Sunday came and Sunday has just left :(

Woke up early and family left for Ipoh, went back to sleep after they left :D Audied awhile when i woke again. Some sad incident happened in between and took the dog out for a run to clear my head. Came back, slept again after awhile. Oh well, it was a sad afternoon.

Audied again after that and family was back home shortly after that :) Just realised didnt have dinner tonight. Just had abit of the Wan Tou Long they bought back. It was nice, abit sour'ish but still very nice :)

And thats that. My Sunday :) Nothing much, yet enough. Heading off to bed i guess, this page has been opened since this afternoon and i just managed to finish it lol D:

Have a great Monday guys, and a great week ahead :)


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You will nvr cease to amaze me on how much your words can hurt me.

On how much u can make it feel like im the bad person in your life and deserve to be treated as such.

Every word that came frm u today, even though it was just a few, and yet cuts so deep.

How would u react, if someone close to you, left in a fit of anger? Wouldnt u want to knw where they were, or if they were ok? That was all i intended, to find out if u were ok. And in the morning, if u were safely home..was that wrong too?

Didnt we always used to ask each other where we were goin? What did u mean by, why i have the need to knw where u go? Believe or not, dont think so highly of urself. Im just concerned for the person i call my best friend.

And yet, what do i get in return? U looking at me, with hatred and contempt like im out to catch what ur always doing. Ive given up on that :) U might nvr change the way u see the world but dont blame everyone else, esp the ppl who really care. Even if there is no one else, there is still me. I knw its not much and u might not need it from me, but its all i can offer.

I will nvr understand why uve become who uve become. Even when u were back here and doing the same stuff, u would have never asked me to shut up. i wonder if u knw, hw much those words hurt me the most. It felt like a part of me died inside. U say i was wrong, but only u knw the truth of what really happened.

Im torn. Do u knw?

.::& will it ever be the same? maybe not::.

This is me, on a working saturday...the damn time just wont move! :x

Well, as predicted, i was alone at the office today :) So, ended doing more things then i usually do on normal days lol..which is cool by me, coz not much disruptions and i dont get pissed as much :p Boss came in at ard 12'ish but just to ask me to do some scanning for him and he was at the pantry on the phone most of the time :)

He left shortly and i wanted to leave sharp! I only act that way when its saturday :x But as u can see, i sat there and waited n waited for 5 bladi mins to pass @_@ And the thing is, that dam machine is 10mins slow, and it was actually already 10mins past 1. Plus side, i can come in 10mins later :p

Drove home under the very very hot sun. My god, once its near CNY's the temps go up like crazy x.x Reached home, bathed and played some Fb and fell asleep watching Monster House :D

Woke up to abit more FB lol then audied for abit with babe for a few games and then myself (hey, i cant change mode, so stayed on since it was already changed :X)

Did nothing much throughout the nite, though family asked me if i wanted to follow them to Ipoh tomoro, but have to wake up early and i..erm...abit...lazy :S . Most prolly, i will stay at home d :p

Off to bed i guess, still very sleepy...dont think i will ever get enough sleep to make up for all the non sleep i do D:

*loves*


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&i wish u would count on me at times like this, like u used to.
i pray that you will be alright and safe tonight ♥

Hello world on a Saturday morning~!!! :D , well a very early Saturday morning :p Weekends are here! Wootsss!

Its time for sleep, sleep and more sleep~ :p

Work was cool today, not much disturbance from colleagues. Peaceful working :3 Though it was a busy day in the afternoon, i still managed to get everything done and by 6, i was outta there :) Though im still working on saturday (my opinion? God didnt invent humans to work on a saturday ><) but then again, its all about the money eh? So, cant complain, just do it! Nike style! :D Its only half a day, alittle bit of Fb, a little bit slacking, a little bit of coffee and im paid~ Lolol :D

Thankfully, i might be alone at work tomoro too! Hurhur XD~

And and and! I slept when i came home jz now :DD So proud of meself, though it was only abt 2 hrs but i did hehe...now wide awake again @___@;;; and its almost 3 again! Hmmmmm =.= Had a cpl balls of takoyaki for dinner and been watching dvd's after dvd's since i woke. Just cant seem to shake the habit of sleeping late TT^TT~

Oh well, got to go force myself to sleep, coz frankly i might be living up my panda nick very soon >_>'''

Oh oh! Took an ss of my cafe earlier (please dont ask =.=) coz i liked the VIP meal ...LOL! It looked cute ok! Bleh.

Cute right? Right?? lolzzz..

I was bored. 'nuf said =.=


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& i wish it was easier.

Hoho!! Happy Fly-day peepos!! :D Time flies even faster in 2010 :O Next thing u knw, ull be celebrating 2011! :p Lol~

Ima office-alone today. One of my colleagues last day was ytd, and another one is on mc today, which leaves the office manager and she sits far far away frm me :D So i count myself as alone..LOL!

Kinda scary though coz i wonder if my workload has just been added :( Sure, he's the graphics guy, but then they dont really care and i might just end up doin some of his work =.= Time to ask for a salary raise? *grins* :p

I really shd sleep early, thats wat i tell myself when i wake up, when i go to work, when im at work, when its after lunch, when its time to go home... its sorta a chant that i do but then it nvr works coz the minute im home i do everything else but sleep x.x

SLEEP EARLIER MAG! *slaps myself*

And my sleep earlier is nvr early, its about the same time i sleep each nite..3am =.= Though i did catch abit of zzz's when i went home, think abt 1/2hr and i think its alright to extend my sleepin time again. Wth is wrong with me? Lol..:X

Thank god its friday! Must must must must promise myself to rest more this weekend! AhhhH!!

Other than my poor sleeping habits, there's really nthg much ( seriously guys, why do u still read my blog? Even i..well i do read, coz its my blog and i like to read my crap lol) Bad bad bad bad tummy ache the entire day. Dam those meds, plus side? I dont even feel like eating anything :S

Anyway, have a great friday guys! *prays it ends soon* >_<''

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Found this song a few days back while watching Toy Story 2 :)

It reminds me of the friends i had and lost, partly some due to my neglect....

They say, real friends will nvr leave yr side, no matter what u do to them.
You will always stay in their hearts.
But im sorry for those that i left behind and neglected,
I might have not done it on purpose, but the guilt still lingers in my mind.
One day, i hope our paths will cross again, then i will nvr let u go :)

Hello world @ 7th Jan~

Its been a long long long day. Pretty tiring and bad tummy ache the entire day :(

Lost my cool a couple of times, even with the bosses lol. They kept calling n calling and calling. Asking me to check this, check that... Its still such a bladi small project and they think its building the KL twin towers =.=

Drove home in the rain. My best posts are normally in my head when im driving. But when i reach home, it all seems to disappear and i cant seem to put it like it was. Tried writing it down today but as soon as i grabbed a pen n paper, nothing came out =.=

Mum was out the entire day with aunt, they went to some temple up north. So had to get my own dinner. Had the best western food! The uncle go hols very long ler, n jst came back. Missed his mushroom chicken so much! Very nice :D

Sat ard, rested, fb'ed abit here n there, msn'ed with baby and here i am. 2.30am and im screwed with my still very bad tummy ache.

Isnt life ironic?

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Confessions of a lost soul ♥

What do we seek in life?
The world is an empty place and to go through it alone would be a unimaginable,
Hence we search for our other halves, ppl who will bear witness to our lives,
What we lived for, how we lived it, someone who will truly care and be grateful that u existed.
Who these ppl are, only u will know.
Some how, we need to be to acknowledged in life. To be remembered.

I am not perfect, nor will i ever be. So are u. So are all of us.
Yet, through imperfection, i try to see the glimmer of some perfection.
Through unhappiness, i try to smile and rejoice in the slight happiness there is to be found.

Yes, i might not hold much importance in ur eyes anymore,

For what used to be daily conversations has now become a pain to you.

Ego's are now playin their part, and stubborness is standing beside it, prodding it onwards. Its not a win win situation. What do u think?

No, this is not an emo post. Its just me trying to comprehend how ppl think, and its clear now that ppl will nvr love past what they see. Feelings are for amateurs.

Yes, i love you very much, bt i will not be a pawn in your quests. Nor will i continue to be an ego booster by saying i do.

And it hurts to think when i say "I have no one to count on" , will u still say "U still have me" ?

.:: & maybe its better to have not loved, thus i would not have lost ::.