Ohaiyo ~ Its finally Friday!! :) And im on half day leave today :p

Well, like i said, am having an interview later at abt 2pm, hoping that its gonna be a better place than here, and more pay? :D Anyway, wish me luck ba ;)

Ytd, bosses were not ard in Penang, and work was well work ba. Still alot of paperwork to deal with and its kinda getting on my nerves coz im suppose to be in charge of projects ma, but no news on new ones yet. Boring =\ I need active work la ><.. My bum feels flat sitting whole day =.=

Went home sharp coz even OM left early lol and she off the pc networks and nvr ask me. How am i suppose to update files which are on the network? Doh head. So just shut down and went home lol. Had porridge for dinner and fell asleep @_@;

Woke up almost 8 plus le, and wanted to join compy so warmed up abit. Wrong idea to sleep b4 compy man, i was dazed like no ones business =.= Even went to bath and came back to join. Didnt really work =.= And i was out in the 1st rd, in a mode which i could have pawned - Norm Indi T_T.. and i did, i was like 1st and 2nd fr the first 2mins then last min, i slowly lost concentration and kept missing, plus horrid lag. Sad man. To make things worse, i lost to someone which i DIDNT want to lose to. Fk! =\

Went to watch anime and suddenly had a feeling to go back in audi. Played till almost 3am and left in the worse possible mood. Sigh. Im really adamant on quitting this time, no more excuses.

Goodbye audi? :)

I just remembered, its been 3 yrs since i started bloggin on the template made fr me by ange, almost the 4th yr of audi-ing, and the 3rd yr we've cpled on audi. Time really flies..so where do we stand in terms of understanding each other? Middle of nowhere? Lol... :)

Oh wells, time to start working and need to finish up b4 i go off..

Ciaoz~!


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Im sorry i spoiled your nite, sorry i made u sad, sorry for everything,
But u werent fair too, hw can u disappear frm my life for one week,
No sound, not in sight, leaving me standing alone, but i nvr complained,
When i only kept silent for 5mins cz i was overwhelmed that u were back,
But u took it as i was being moody...its not fair..

All this while i thought u were busy with work and upset abt life,
When u told me sometime ago, it was time to leave and move on?
U say, keeping till the next one comes,
If they're so dispensible to you, am i too?
Will u leave when u find the next one to replace me?

And u proved me right when u found someone else right away to talk to,
The very next instant, jz coz u said i wont listen.
Did u think why? No, u only had ur own conclusions.

I always thought, no audi, means no anoili,
But now it seems, no anoili, there will stil be audi for u.
If Im not needed in rl and in virtual,
Why am i still here?

U were nvr afraid of me leaving, were you? :)


Is it time i moved on for real? U tell me.. or i think i may already have the answer.
And for the 1st time, its not coz im emo, my head is too clear for that today :)

I wish u all the best in comp this weekend, and always stay happy, be it in virtual or rl..

First of all,

Gratz to Ivan for getting 9 A's on your exams ~! Lol..and sorry for not believing :X U just dont seem like the studying kinda ma.. Haha.. anyway nice job ;)

&

Baby for surviving after fighting with her exams :)

Kinda moody today, coz 1st of all, headache still lurking ard, and actually couldnt wake up this morning, if not for the good morning sms from u, i would have slept it through :S These few days has been kinda busy, esp in the evenings, and i guess the heat is really a killer.

Currently looking at 2 sheets of paper, accounts , and trying to make the amounts tie.. Im still short of about 60 bucks and i dont knw where the hell it is =.= Anyway, made the call and goin for an interview tomoro. We'll see how it goes ba, so wish me luck? :)

Ahp msn'ed me and apologised about ytd lol..which i didnt think he would, but he did haha..so sweet. Anyway i didnt really remember it ady, prolly coz im so friggin sleepy =.= But yeah, he said he didnt remember saying it, and felt bad abt it. In case ur wondering, he used the word "stupid" on me. Lolz. I guess it was on impulse and he said he might have been trying to be cute, problem is, he wasnt cute enough..lol =.= And i still dont like tat word >_>"

Oh well, gonna let it go anyway :)

And yay! I found the difference dy! :X Lol...good to have a distraction once in awhile :P Anyways, back to work :)

Ciaoz~!

Kinda tired and cranky at the moment.. Just got very irritated with ahp in audi awhile ago lol.. Something he said, a word which i nvr liked, and he used it on me on the wrong day.

That and the fact that my head feels like its gonna explode ><.

Been having really weird dreams and waking up a few times in the middle of the nite. Cant really remember what they were about though, and some of them quite scary de. Hmm.

Work was uber busy today, running in and out of the office, and just when i needed to go hm sharp for jp class (and some last min revision lolz :X) Had to fetch boss to get his car which was at Jalan P Ramlee. The worst possible place to be at that hour. Major friggin jam and my car temp is still goin up, need to get it to the mechs this weeked coz apparently the tank is dirty =.= Reached hm , sat fr 10mins and left fr class.

My hiragana abit sucky, dono why my memory so bad nowadays. My convo skill are ok, but when it comes to remembering the writings, all that is in my head is a white sheet of paper >_>" And we were given another 15 today, which makes the total to 45 @_@;; Kill me nao.

Jyjyjy me!!! >////<.

Random side note: Audi's new patch came out with the new hair that ive been eye'ing since i saw it last yr....i wanna get it , but refraining myself frm doing it :(

Cant believe its Thursday d though :)

Got a call earlier today for an interview O_O, so might be taking half day off on Friday to go for it, not sure, will call them tomoro and arrange i suppose. Was really hectic today, and couldnt even get back to them on when i could go over. Crazy =.=

Time for bed i guess, its gonna be an even busier day tomoro and my back is killing me now.

Ciaoz!~


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Sometimes, the past should just be that, the past.
Whatever that has passed u by, will nvr come back,
And it was the decisions we made, the roads we chose,
Regrets will not do anything to bring that back, so make them wisely,
Coz forgiveness may not be so easily given when u look back,

At times, i read back on my posts and write things that may not have come out the way i intended,
But i nvr re-edit coz others might have already read it,
And i know, ppl who really know me, will understand what i was trying to say,
If they dont and get upset, then i guess we were nvr really friends? :)

Im tired of standing here by myself, maybe its time to walk away?
Yes, maybe :)

Booo! :)

Actually heading to bed soon, but thought, what the heck, short post ba, and still watching my anime since its so nice to me tonite being able to play every single epi :D Also ivan's sms'es at this hour lol..think he's excited to be coming back frm NS :) Welcome back to penang ivan ;)

Just came out audi actually, was playin with the normal fam gang . Went in to see see nia, coz abit tired tonite, but tot since havent played with them for a few days, might as well ba :) Didnt join comp today, wanted to, but 20mins b4 comp, bro called up asking me to fetch him and at the other end of the island somemore =.= Guess ill have to wait till Thursday ba ><.

Still need to memorise my 30 hiragana writings leh! omgomgomg .... あ い う え お, か き く け こ .......あら!!! Think need to memorise during lunch time dy ;eeks

Work was work as usual, still stacks n stacks of files and papers on my table =.= and OM suddenly remembered we nvr gave our last weeks daily report. She even writes time on what time she completes each task. Duh? I still feel its a complete waste of time ;wild

Now im thinking, shd i join the cc8 compy on sat? i feel kinda noobish these few days :( Hmmmm.....

Oh wells, time for bed, headache again tmd =.= Oh ya, found this in my ss folder..:p

LOL! Must have taken it ytd...I feel anoili looks cool being in front eh? Shd stand there more often...HAHAHA :XXX Ok, im being lame dy, must be the sleep deprivation symptoms.

Ciaoz and sweet dreams!

The calmness within vs the storm surrounding me..which shall prevail?

To be able to keep your stand regardless of what happens around you,
To be able to still think clearly and differenciate between what is right and wrong,
To not lose yourself..

My dearest,
I hope u will be able to get through whatever it is your facing,
Ive had my lowest points in life too, when i felt that i had nothing more to live for,
But i remember that night, when i had all of u, showing me who really cared,
And that i still had people who truly did care.
Im here for you too :)

I believe, if someone truly loves someone, they would nvr leave you,
And i believe the same thing for you,
Cherish what you have, and try your best to hold on.

There are some things which i will nvr agree you doing, and u knw what they are,
Its not fair, to anyone, and will only bring hurt if they ever found out.
Just because you feel down and unloved, does not give u the right to do what u do,
To run to another just to get redemption for what u feel u lack,
How would u feel, if it were done to you?

Its not an excuse, and i will nvr accept it as one.

Regardless of what has been said, your still one of my bestest friend,
The person who i trust with my life, despite everything.
Hey, we're only human right? :)

I just did something which i nvr expected a reply from...

I sms'ed to join a comp by Red Fm- a local radio station and they called me back! O_O! LOL! RM750 ok? And i thought i heard the start of the game ler..apparently it was the 2nd half which means i only got the last 5 songs ><. The minute i pened the last song, i was like, OMG, i only got 2nd half...dont call, dont call, dont call!! And they did! RAWR! And they aired the convo! Omg la...and i sound weird on radio ><. So shy ... Not really! TMD! 750 fly! ;wild

Other than that, same ol' Monday blues with all the rainbow colours as well.. spent the day staring at the pc and numbers and stacks n stacks of paper. Sigh, work is fkin mundane =\ Came home, rested awhile and practiced for exp comp. Guess that my only entertainment nowadays, dont really play much, coz it does get abit lonely..think i might be quitting soon lol :)


Yes, i got 1st, which came as quite a surprise lol, considering the fact that i actually missed lvl 10 n 11 =.= Seriously need to get some moves for those levels. But cool right? Lol.. Was out the 2nd round though, dam friggin cc4 and stupid no perf song :X *blames blames*

Stalked Jx and faifai npc'ing and after abit couldnt tahan le, eyes dam tired and sleepy. So log off and tried to watch anime, got one epi and now it cant load anymore. FML >_>"

Gonna head to bed i guess, its been a tiring day, physically n emotionally lol..

Oyasumi ~ :)


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Is there a valid reason im being treated as invisible again?
Ive nvr done it when u needed me,
Isnt that what friends are for?

I hope im wrong. This time.

Hola hola hola! 3 cheers on a very blue Monday~ !! :p

Just a short one b4 i go to bed.. :) Currently thinking whether i should wait fr my dishes to be ready..which is in an hrs time. Boo.. miscalculation on my side and its gonna be ready at 3am =.=. Shd be able to make it if i take it out at work...but then that means less one dish..><. LOL! Ok ok, i shall not be so paranoid and go to bed :P

Anyway, joined exp comp today, even though i was blur as a squid lolz, which actually turned out not so bad eh :) Though i was out in the 2nd round but i actually beat ktkr in the 1st rd :D I know it was him, coz he said hi to me when i went in the room :X Oh wells, guess i was lucky it was FS mode :) and the funny part was, i didnt know i was second till i suddenly jumped in front. If only that girl didnt chain =.= But still can gloat right? :p

Oh ya, almost didnt make it for comp, coz i tot i still had time, then they told me, left 50secs and i had like about 1min plus in game, i alt tab'd and came in with an almost full channel and 10secs on the clock O_O and in the end i got a better number than ahp..lol! Im cool eh ;)

Lamed ard with ahp and diana, which were tagging for their next ring, and they're almost there :) Played abit with ray, well actually, ray was watching magic show =.= so i just practised by myself, which is good, considering i havent been really playin since last week.

Anyway, that was basically my day, nothing much, slept abit, watched some new anime to replace the old one i already finished ><, and lepak'ed ard the house.

Off to bed peeps, and though i hate that its Monday tomoro, its still gonna be there, staring me in my face =.= So might as well live with it and say.... HAVE A GREAT WEEK GUYS! AND I HOPE WE ALL SURVIVE MONDAY! :D

Ciaoz~!!

P/s: Craving for mum's bday cake TT^TT~ Nuuuuuu.....go to sleep!!