You guys might have realised that there has not been any posting since Saturday. Maybe ur assuming that im in one those moods again (emo to be exact) well, one thing is clear, im upset ok? And also i wondered, if i had actually died in the time that i did not post, would i have to come back as a, well, wandering spirit to update here that i have actually passed on? =.=

Yes, im emotional not emo, there's a difference. But then again, maybe i havent been a good friend thats why its not important.

Or maybe its the lack of sleep. Having weird dreams again lately, very very weird. Or im the one who's weird o.o

Slept at almost 4am last nite, coz was trying to get 2 ppl to talk. Its kinda funny how i always have good timing in chanced situations like this - as they put it. I guess im fated that way. A lesson be learnt here, the past will always catch up on you and lies will always uncover themselves regardless of how many things u put on top it to cover it up. Its like trying to cover up all the shit beneath with many many layers of sundae ice cream. Lol, its gross, bt isnt it like that?

Phone is fucked, coz i was too lazy to walk over and pay my friggin bill. Sigh. Am thinking of walking over right now, but, for some reason my butt is still stuck to my seat =.= Shall not mention about work today, 1 word sums it up - sucks.

Was blog hopping this morning, and chanced upon Urban Monk Diaries - i was particularly amused and kinda needed to do some of the the new year resolutions posted:

1. Throw away all self help books - Just observe what u always do in order to be happy. Stop doing it. Be happy.

2.Dont strain your memory - See everything and everyone as new everyday. That way, youll nvr be surprised with anything that happens.

3. Dont waste your energy hating people - If the Sun finds them good enough to shine on them everyday, that good enough for you. ( Hmm.. Hate is a strong word for me, disliking their guts on the other hand is not and humorous enough for me :p)

Also been kinda thinking back when i was back in ME, seriously missing those guys. The non stop kpi's kpi's kpi's, the back to back calls and the pitches which sometimes became so routine you could do it while polishing your nails. Lol. I miss those bitching sessions, the nonsensical talk which served no purpose but crazed laughter among the grp. Yes, i miss them. Alot.

Im really happy when i see the ppl i love come in here to be updated. But dont rely entirely on this page to knw hw i am. A little sms or a nudge on my msn would make my day. An honest act of truly caring and not coz i asked to. Im nt asking for too much am i? (though i knw its cheaper to read it all here =.=).

I need a pick me up-er leh...

Choco and ice cream~~ Wat else could a girl ask for? Me want! :D

Doh, getting a headache frm smelling the paint pen while coloring the clocks for too long x.x Not bery cool =\

Edited: Thank Jy babe for nudging me in msn and asking me if im alright :) Ur exclamation marks and constant lol'ing made me follow too :D And also for this .. "Surround yourself with ppl who make you forget about your past, laugh about the present and dream about the future!"

Maybe thats wat i need to do to be happy, by leaving the things that makes me unhappy :)

Hola hola hola hulla hoop~! o.o; Lol :D

Just spent abt half n hour clearing my FB requests, Farmville gifts (abt 80 over of them which i deleted and when i came back, it was there again O_O; Wtf?) Then all of a sudden i have over 80 FFS free coins? Wtf again? I didnt even see them? FB is so fuggin with me =.= CW gifts...some of which i still dont know what to do with..and i still have 40 over friend requests! T^T!! Which i cant even delete all of coz i heard we might get reported wtf wtf wtf! =.=

Well, work was work ,if u consider making clock frames work lol, i have something else now to add to my resume huh? =/ And now i need to color the dam number gold coz its black? Hmmm..this whole thing is getting to be more n more absurd by the day. Colleague even took off half day lol..damn him! I wanted to take de! ;wild

Anyway had to go out to get the colored paper, dam hot outside can? ;arg Came back office, feeling not shuang liao x.x Worked abit on the webby and cabuted home as soon as i could! :x

Audied a little while later and was feeling extremely tired all of a sudden D: Dono what i was pressing also :S Ivan wanted to try out exp compy lol, it was his 1st time and he getting all nervous haha :x Anyway, i did ok ba..considering i was half asleep while playin..

1st rd - Exp Choreo, shd i be thankful my room of players were 8k handicapped? :x

2nd rd - Normal Indi, i shd have done better in this mode, but dam song was unperfect-able =.= then again, my room was not so cool x.x

Played a little more after compy, but was getting irritated with audi liao, maybe coz i was feeling abit warm and sleepy :S Played abit with babe when he came in, went to an lp and logged off. Thought of getting a new set today de, but apparently my choices are common and not special enough so now im not sure of my taste anymore =\

Oh wells, time to watch abit of my CSI and go oink le :)

Ciaoz~!

Oh oh~! Happy Monday Blues~ Lol :D

Once again, that horrid day of the week has arrived, bringing us mental torture and physical torment knowing u need to wake up and drag ur dead body out of bed :3 Haha...am i being overly dramatic? hmmmm..nop, coz thats how i feel every monday x.x

I accidently skipped Sunday's post coz i thought i already saved it :( Oh well, nothing interesting anyway :)

Slept the morning away, well not really la, woke up ard 10'ish and slept again, and woke and slept..u get the idea :p And dont me call me a zhu ar, i seldom sleep so much its only coz i was tired of Sat's Qing Ming thingy x.x

Anyway, like i said ytd, mum was scolding sis for dono what, and they left home shortly after that leaving me dog sitting. And couldnt find any more dvd's to watch, so ended up taking out CSI again and rewatching frm season 1 while doing story for babe :) Ive actually lost count on how many times ive watched that show lo, but i wont ever get bored watching it :D

Finally went in audi to warm up for compy and instead JF came to find me. Its been awhile since ive seen him , or any of the rs ppl lol. Apparently he came in to relax.. from Dota! =.='' i asked him 'huh, u came into game to rest frm another game?' Lamer >_>" Lolz.. Anyway played till forgot abt compy x.x but nvm, will hv other days :) Babe joined us shortly after that and played till abt 12plus ba. Took my dishes out of CW and went to bed and that was it my sunday lol...

Monday - currently, still working on the dam clock frames. Ran out of colored paper and very lazy to drive soo far out just to get a piece of paper =.= Sigh. Shdnt have come in today, work sucks. Well this one anyway =\

Dont cha love my new table and bunny chair? And and the bunny clock??! LOL!

My little moments of happiness :3

Hola all on a very looong and tiring Saturday.. well i was very, considering that this is gonna be posted on a Sunday instead :x Wat la...i fell asleep can? ><.

Anyway, morning was spent at work which was kinda redundant coz all i really did was the pet project given to me by the bosses. YES, the asdasihewf clock frame that i had to do and i still have one more gigantic clock to do coz i ran out of colored paper =.= Got my colleague to do the other one though :S And even he took at 1 1/2 hrs to do and it was a small clock! Besides, he already saw what i did le ok? Lol :x AND this time i have peektures to show :S Well only one pic coz its too lame le...even showed it to my family.. :x

LOL! Nice anot??!! My colleague said, wah a work of art.. suan me la! *pouts*

Ok, u might think that this looks easy to do..well its not! Bosses kept changing mind of she wanted it to look like =.= and basically i was nvr an artsy person. Artsy on pc maybe, but not hands on art T^T~ Still..not bad la hor :S

Like i said, was gonna be a long and busy day, so left office abt 15mins earlier..and i didnt tell them also lol..who cares =.= as if there are gonna be any phone calls, if got also from them nia la..anyway, left early, had lunch, rested awhile and family and i headed out. Yes yes, for Qing Ming. Though it looked like it was gonna rain, it was also so darn hot k? Felt nauseous on the way up to the cemetary :S i dono, why winding roads gives me this feeling now, eversince that cameron trip we did last year D: Or maybe coz, both times i was at the back seat...im really not a back seat driver.. Lol ><.

Took us about 3hrs to get the whole thing done, from prayers to the waiting till our grandparents finished 'eating', burning of lots n lots n lots of joss paper stuff, this yr got bungalow also..with swimming pool! O_O; have fun grandpa n grandma :D And it was raining and hot sun at the same time x.x

By the time we got back down, it was raining like crazy and imagine saturday nite at gurney area, which we had to pass to get back home.. dam jam like nobody's business k? ><. And one thing abt goin out with the family, they like to make alot of stops everywhere..and complain later that its jam =.= If i say anything, they will say "why? u need to go back to ur game ar?" wtf. Suak, i rather not say anything =.= As if they dont rush home to see their drama/football/whatever >_>" Ended up, took us abt 1 1/2 hrs to reach home :S *pukes*

Reached hm, took a bath, had dinner and joined exp comp..yes yes i did..guess what? I dc'ed even before the song started =.= Now doink that pls .. =\ Pek chek-ly left and played my fb games and met up with ivan later in game. Wanted to do his story but sat nite, nt many players online :( So, just lamed ard in random rooms till babe came on and logged off after awhile x.x

I remember typing one sentence here and dont remember the rest :S lmao...think i fell into a coma =.=

So thats it, my once in a blue moon busy saturday which i cant avoid and am forced to do unless i wanna get screwed by ze familia =.= Though i did say i was gonna be busy, wouldnt kill to ask me why ma right? Right bor doink head? =\ U guys rely too much on my blog le tsk tsk ><..

Ok la, i hear mum incoherently scolding my sis, better go pretend to be busy for abit until bro takes her out :S

Tatas! :D

P/s: Finger getting better le, though it itches now =.=

HAPPY TGIF!! :D

Well, it was a pleasant Friday until in the afternoon ><. I accidently sliced my finger with a penknife :(( Lol..yea, like ahp asked, knife, board, feng shui, wat the hell is your job scope?? I just lol'ed =\

I was suddenly given the task after bosses came in frm Easter prayers in church (together with manager..so shuang..work one day, one 3 days, come back work on Fri ard 11 and went out at 12 for church =.=) to go get mounting boards. Nvr did ask for what coz ive learnt asking has no point de..esp when it comes to them. So i went lo. Manatau came out shop heavy rain ==!!! And no umbrella. So stood there coz scared cards would get wet, until bth ran to car anyway. Didnt seem like it was gonna stop (it did though...after i reached office zzzzz)

Came back with cards and lai liao, dumb tasks =.= Ask me to cut those bladi thick boards to make a frame for the clocks (later found out, must do her house ones also wtf?) Now, ur gonna ask, wat frames? O_O; Same look on my face, with mouth wide open somemore. Apprently, feng shui master asked them change clocks to square ones and all theirs was round ones. SO, instead of getting new ones, they came out with this idea. And guess who gets to do it?ME! Yay!

U cant possibly imagine hw it looks like (ill take and pic and post later ba) but its like so omgwtfbbq can? Do office already enough, somemore must their house de..really too much la. Anyway, those boards dam thick de, and my penknife is those small kinds de (u knw, normal office use de? =.=) so yea, was trying to cut through the board and the knife kinda just ran sideways ba :( Sigh.. Pain as hell ><. Went to doc after mum came and well, thats that..All in a day's work. Bla.

Went home, wanted to sleep but couldnt for some reason. So audied instead lol.. At 1st was thinking if i shd even try exp compy again, since ive been dcing quite alot, bt wth la, nothing better to do, so just went. I can still press ar, if u all are wondering. Cut is on space bar hand lolz :x.. Saw the room i was in and went "oh gg, this will be fast, or maybe dc faster" Lol :D..

Yea..tell me about it..seems hopeless right? :p

LOL! Apparently not that hopeless :D Aiya, it was FS mode and a lucky chain at the end :p Tot i would dc though, felt screen freeze few times..but i didnt rofl :X

LOL! WTF! And my score not bad also ok! Considering it was 4k! Lol...i shd have chanced ><..

So that was that..something to cheer me up the last few hours of Friday :D But its gonna be a kinda long day tomoro ><. Played awhile with ray and his cpl and went to tag with babe a FEW rounds b4 he had to go :(

Then i saw it again, that name, that that...=\ Bringing back all those shit and fk up emotions to the surface for awhile and so tried to soothed it down the whole nite by watching ahp tag lol..even yorke came to join us hahaha :x Actually stood in his room till almost 3am x.x Still didnt help much and though i tried to console myself, i hoped for something else.

If i wanted you to do something to rid me of my doubts b4 my sanity and reason leaves me, would u do it for me zhu?

Lol, this was the hardest post to write, partly coz i dont have exactly 2 hands to work with, only abt 1 and a half lolol :X So u can actually imagine my praying mantis (tong long kuen) moves on the kb ><.

♥

Im determined to be happy and stay happy. And if there is anyone who thinks they're gonna hurt me, then please get the fuck out of my life now? :)

Lol..sorry for the crude language but trying to make my point clear :D Yes, after 3yrs of blogging and going through almost 450posts, i intend to find that girl who started this blog 3yrs ago. The one, who though at times seemed kinda lame and at times sounded like a dum dum, but was also the girl who was able to make ppl laugh or smile (even the me now :p) when i read about her stuff and rants and ramblings etc etc etc ~ :D

Somehow, she let life get too much to her and lately its becoming more n more bitter? Lol :D..But! Im not saying there will not be anymore rambling of moir anymore, there will always be mag's ramblings n rants n complains n hate hate hate :p Hey, thats what makes me cute right? ;) I complain and yet i still do it *pouts*

Finally published my company webby and showed to boss, still needed to do some amendments ba, but im shy to show it to u guys :S LOL! And somemore boss dare comment, outside designers do need to pay ard 10k plus! Wtfuggot right? I did the whole damn thing for her free de lo. Yes, its not that professional, but its worth something also le! Tmd tmd tmd ;wild And manager still nvr come in today o.o weird, worse part is, i had to do her work =.= Even got a memo frm boss abt payments...wtfbbqnusttm! I plan to ignore coz it has NOTHING to do with me. Bla bla bla n more blas!

Came home and fell asleep for like 2hrs and woke up with a headache. GG! Id do better without sleep i think =.= Watched mum n sis wrestle with dog to feed its quaterly meds. Lol..cracks me everytime. Well the last time i had to do it, so wasnt really that funny anymore >_>" The damn dog goes into his killer dog mode when we have to do it ><.

Went into audi ard 10ish and loitered ard wondering if i shd play in my bery blur state of mind. Afk'ed instead :O till babe came in and we tagged fr abit :D So here i am now, almost 1.30 and im wondering what movie to watch. Wth mag! Go sleep already! :x Ok la, time to scour my humble abode and see if i anything to watch on tv or anyone to disturb or not.. Yes, my family is still awake, go figure eh?

Anyone need a hug? :) Lai lai i hug hug :p

P/s: And to those who love me, guess what? I love you even more :D

Tatatatatasss!!!

Happy April Fool's Day and an early Happy Easters!! :DD

Lol...these 2 shd be declared public holidays huh? :X Well, its Thursdays anyway and since ive survived till today, i can make it for another day ba =\

Im bored..

Dead bored..

Suicidally bored...

Anyway, as i foresaw, i didnt get to go back on time again for Jp class and ended up just making it in time for class =.= Actually no, class already started when i reached zzz I dont know why this only happens on Wednesday. Its become sort of a habit with them. Blah. Class was ok ytd, more on convo practices, though our vocab has not really expanded much , so right now i can say my name, where i worked, my hp phone no very well.. Now the only thing to really master is, to say all that incoherently LOL! Its true eh...sensei played a cd for us on Jp ppl conversing and all u could really hear was alot of, well, not much words is all i can say :S

Went home and tagged with babe awhile. Was kinda tired after awhile and we logged off to rest :) But in the end, baka me slept at abt 3am. What the hell did i do b4 that?? I seriously cant remember at all leh *tries thinking* Hmmmm..nop, cant remember shit :x

Logged off, went to bathe, came back sis was using my pc to talk to a friend of mine on msn, so i used hers to play my normal slots, pull tabs and scratch offs, work my pets, take out my cafe dishes...and thats it? :O Wtf that took me 4hrs? =.=

Oh wells, its gonna be a looong Thursday for sure. Thankfully i have some work to preoccupy myself. Yes, i know i shd be thankful that im so free at work, bt u guys come here and sit ard doing nothing for almost 2 weeks, 9hrs a day. Believe me, insanity is not really so far off. Its either too busy or too dam free :S Think i shall not bring my soul along to work next time, let is sleep in my nice nice bed.. :x

Am actually slowing down on finishing my webby designing in case i really dont have anything else to do after this D: *takes gun out*

I wan a white iphone! D:! Lol..random yes, but i still want it T_T~

Oh, i shd continue reading my old posts then lol..some really funny shit that i wrote and cant even remember now. Thank god im so long winded :p But i still say i sounded like a dum dum last time ><. Must go find honey dew drink liao...right babe? :p

Back to work (or whatever u guys wanna call it) Ciaoz!! :3

P/s: No pranking, lame jokes, or tricks today. I will get very angry de ar =.= Lol :x