Maybe.

Well, its almost 4am now, am actually feeling quite sleepy lol =\

Been sleepin early these past few nites, b4 3am sleep le..

maybe coz my body is really tired.

Really straining to walk properly, i feel so useless at times.

So many things i cant do for myself, even bathing is a problem,

walking to get my own food or drinks, i need to think twice.

I feel like a burden :(

Im frustrated, angry and stressed out.

Anyone who says they want to be in my position, please come n take it.

Anyway, had my second visit to sinseh today..

Unwrapped my foot coz the med was making it itch x.x

And the swelling hadnt reduced, they say quite serious coz of the fracture.

Sigh.

So had it wrapped up again.. hope it doesnt itch.

Thought wanted to cancel my dinner appointment with frens but ive been stuck

at home so many days and i really missed them, so i went.

Had to have mum drop me, though she grumbled abit she took me anyway :)

Well, they had alot of seafood courses..something which i cant eat of the leg thingie.

So had to eat veggies nia x.x

Laughed alot, lamed alot..really missed those times.

Went on to cafe after dinner to continue our chat..coz one of our fren

was back frm UK for 2 weeks.

It was quite a cool nite, and enjoyed myself outside of home xD

Well they dropped me home almost 10plus and i came back to an empty home.

Family went out shopping (seriously my family shops alot x.x)

Chatted with bass n a fren, played abit of audi, and here i am now..

My cpu is giving me problems, as in it wont detect the monitor..haiz

i dono wats the problem, bt i tried fixing it juz nw and hit my leg coz i slipped zz

Floor slippery + my bandage + my sis wide table = pain

Nuf said.

Shall try again tomoro...lol.

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"would you be happier if i wasnt there anymore?

juz say the word and ill be gone "

=_=

Sry guys, but these few days de posts wil have a lot of ramblings and grumblings from me..

Lol x.x

The reason, you all shd knw by now right?

Im very moody n restless, esp when the size of my toes are like oversteamed cocktail sausages..

I think they wrapped abit too tight, bt then again i guess to make sure the plate don move ard..

And to top it all off, it itches where u cant scratch dao..

It itches now @_@ Great!!

Am now watching anime in hopes that i will forget abt it..

Even audi'ing doesnt help, coz it only reminds me that ur not there :(

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Dont push me away at times like this,

Dont hide ur pain from me,

Dont keep silent and keep me worried,

Dont do all that and expect me to keep calm.

Unless..

What I thought never mattered in the first place.

x_X

Slept for more than 10hrs ytd o.o

The nite before couldnt sleep a wink, anywhere i turned to, my foot hurt..

Well, went to see the sinseh ytd..and he said my ankle bone was cracked T_T

He kept asking me to relax my foot while he aligned the femur, i tried lor..

But dam! Really painful k? I even tried looking elsewhere and thought of happy thoughts..

But in the end, it still came back to the stinging pain in right foot zzz..

Anyway, i knw have a steel plate on my ankle, and walking properly is a bitch.

Sigh.

Slept my record earliest in a long time, b4 2.30am lol =_=

And im suppose to having with some frens who juz came back frm UK tomoro..

Hmmm..wonder how im gonna do that.

There goes my plans for awhile..

And i thought i was gonna get my monitor by this week d..bla.

Oh well..

Pain! T_T

Im feeling so dizzy, so faint...

Why?

Coz i juz bladi fell again.zzz..wtf sia..

My slippers were abit too big n the pavement was not flat..thus T_T

I sat there fr awhile, coz i couldnt stand up and the minute i did..i almost fainted @@

The pain is unbearable..tried to lie dwn but it was stinging..now im sitting here..drowsy..

Fk sia..sigh..:(

Will need to see sinseh tomoro, coz i think i heard it snap x.x

Arghhh!

These past few days have been feeling down..

More of dispppointment ba..

Trust..such a fragile word..once its broken, it wil nvr be the same again.

As frens, i try to listen as much as i can, help as much as i can,

be there as much as i can, in short..try to be a good fren.

But i realised, somethings we cant control..like wat other ppl say..

And if those frens choose to believe them rather than their hearts,

Well...i have nothing to explain right? I mean..wat is the point?

If deep inside they don believe us, wat u say isnt gonna change much.

I guess i was dumb. To think u understood.

So, thats that then. Goodbye?

I can only take so much..

Saturday was spent feeling down..tot it was over..

Sunday was spent with family, from morning till late night..

Did alot of things, did my stuff, family furniture shopping lol=_=

Ate alot! omg omg omg.

Then came hm to bad news again frm darling..

Oh well.

I leave it to fate..

All i knw nw is..my trust is not the same fr now..

:(

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"why do people never appreciate when they have it,

but mourn when they lose it?"

The aftermath.

Slept earliest ytd, ard 4.30..lol..early for me k?

Laid down n juz fell asleep..weird..didnt roll ard like im so used to doing..

Woke a few times in the morning, thought i heard my phone sms..K garden's Hope of Spring lol..

Thought it was you.. and then ard 1 plus..it was..

You knw, i was happy when i saw wat u did for me..i really was. Honest.

I juz realised, language, spoken words, written words are very powerful..

How a simple qn, could be misunderstood..how a simple reply could be too.

It shows what a person is feeling at that moment, tells u what their emotions are like..

Its not always correct..bt if u knw someone long enuf, it normally is..lol

I would be happier if u didnt take ur anger out on me.

Really, i cant take those things u said and the way u said , it hurts.

Sometimes, things can be put in another way, and not the way u did it.

Im sorry if i seem sarcastic.

Oh ya..on a lighter note..my pc is back :)

Now the only fuggin problem is, i don hv a monitor =_=

Dam it!

Need to go scout fr one d..hehe.

And and and...audi came out with the new cpl 31 hearts mode..

Cute moves, cant do much on my lappy though..

And stil don get how it works..lol

Bt i like the animations for it, esp the winners heart thing..haha =x

Heavy rain this afternoon..hmmm..

Shall go watch Pirates of the Carribean, the 3rd part ba..

<3s~

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"& im sorry i hurt your feelings,

but you hurt mine too..."

Misinterpretations.

Im so irritated! Annoyed!

How could u say that ur not sarcastic, unlike me?

By saying that, arent u doing it also?

Gah!

How many times have i asked u to control ur temper?

Why do u end up saying such things and make me feel so bad?

Was it really necessary?

After all that, what do you expect me to say?

I have to eat god damn banana pie at tis hr to calm me down! Wtf.

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"if u dont know me by now,

you wont never ever know me.."

Another day, another post..

Tick tock..tick tock...tick tock...

How time flies when ur having fun..

Having fun doing absolutely nothing much..zzz

Dont ask me wat im doing, coz most probably it will staring at the lappy,

Wondering what to do next x.x

I go in audi, come out, go in facebook, come out, go in mailbox, come out..

Well, you get the picture...lolz

Boredom!

And yet too lazy to do anything else...omg..rot si me zzzz

Mum ask me go out buy laksa, i also no mood..

Juz the dam weather here...when it rains it hot, when it doesnt its like hell x.x

And starting to get very easily irritated..arghhhh!

Need to find a job...soon..crap.

Juz finished washing my car...washed it like so dam long k? And juz had the roof fixed :)

Then watched National Treasure 2..and now sitting here..staring again..

Blah.

Been in FB alot, actually i nvr even close it =x

Slots, scratch off, and PS...lolz..

Oh ya...pics of my ano in Ps...wait wait..i post! (tis is hw free i am=x)

This is my new look for ytd :p...i like my pirate set hehe(thanks to baby hehe)...

and also went berserk over the toys ytd x.x...i love my pirate ship =3

i still need the ambulance!! Last missing piece..

Ahhh!!=s

My previous look b4 the pirate set...it was for St Patrick's Day de i think..

I like the elf thingies hehehe =x

Oh ya, anoili is currently Lvl 48 d hurhurxD..few more and WS d x.x

And then wat? hmmmm...

I try not chiong'ing but hor some1 is chasing me..and i donwan him cut me :p

Kiasu me...LOL! =x

And now, i need to find something to do..before i lose my mind...

Should i go try get my ambulance in PS? =xxx

Tomoro's Friday guys!!

Have a great day tomoro for a greater weekend!!