Ho Ho! Its Wednesday!! :D

Nothing much to blog about today though lol, jz normal working day. Busy in the 1st part of the morning and it sort of slowed towards the end of the day. So left office sharp today :D

Currently continuing this post at work now lol, coz when i started typin this post last nite, about 3 sentences through i realise, i had nothing left to blog about @_@ Not that now is any good coz i still have nada to blog about..lol :X

My life is a bore. Work is taking all the fun left in my mundane world. I need more excitement in life :p

Anyway, slept awhile b4 goin for dance class last nite. Classes are getting tougher by the day, i almost couldnt feel my feet ytd. I wonder why ppl pay to insert pain on themselves lol. And they do it ever so willingly :p

Still a cool class though and had lots of fun as usual :D

Played abit of Fb and felt sleepy after awhile, so just watched a dvd and fell asleep lol.

Slacking at work today, bt net kept goin off alot, so just sat ard...much ado about nothing =.= Havin' tummy ache though, must that med mum ask me to take >_>''

Well, guess thats about it folks o_o, havent been doin much these few days, slightly missin audi but missin you much :)

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& i cant change the past, all i can do is to try to make the future better.

Mum's sweet potato dessert~ :D

The 1st Monday of 2010 officially came, and gone :)

In summary? Tiring day indeedy @_@ Maybe it was becoz ive been slacking for the past week or so since Xmas or maybe it was coz it was a dam hectic day. Alot of following up on orders, materials delivery, sourcing..bla bla bla..etc~ My ever so mundane life, lol :)

I wonder why i get bored with work so easily? I guess once the challenge of learning is gone, and it gets too repetitive, then well, i dont find interest in it anymore =\

Anyway, though it was hectic, couldnt help but feel extremely sleepy in the morning and i actually had 2 cups of coffee b4 it was 11 =.= Me gonna die of caffeine, me tell u, just u wait n see :(

And the worst part of it all? I havent even got my salary yet =.= and they had the cheek to ask me to do more work, at it was already 6 >_> ( bear in mind, no ot, no replacement, nada, zip, zilch D:<) Normally i wouldnt mind doin the extra work but, i dont feel like doin it for them. Is that so wrong? hmmmm...NOP.

Am tired, so shall retire soon...to bed i mean lol. My headache is back. I really shd have rested more over the hols..sheesh me.

4 more days and counting.....to the weekend :p

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&we might forget how, when, why we got here,
but nvr forget what we went through to get here :)

Our actions are our choices, and no one has control over what we wanna do,
But, do we think how our actions affect the ppl we love?

1st Monday blues of 2010~ D:

Shall be a very short post for today...well, ill try to make it short =p Dont think ill have any problems though coz all i did was Fb, dvd, bed, Fb, dvd, bed...etc etc..:S

Though i must say, im extremely sleepy TT^TT~ Dont think i slept as much as i needed to. Slept late, roughly ard 4 - 5am and woke b4 9...hmmm.. i dont think im this hardworking when im working :p Mum commented to me earlier..." I dont understand why u dont sleep more, must get up and work....in ur cafe" LOL....blah :X

Its an addiction, or rather, a sense of kiasuism...omg...another one of my infamous OCD's ;sob

Anyway, cant remember much of what i did, logged on FB early morning and left it on, while i got back to sleep.. i think i slept...i think...hmmm..i distinctly remember mum n sis coming home at abt 10'ish after droppin the dog at the doggie spa (yes, doggie spa =.=)

Mum n bro headed off to mainland while me n sis hung ard at home, watch some csi, some other old old old show..intended to sleep, but lepak'ed ard and in the end didnt sleep much. Even watched Pretty Woman :O

Audied abit with ray and was feeling tired awhile after that, so decided to log off early and rest..and yet....TADA! Here i am still :S

Fuck, its 1.30 am =.= Wth have i been doin since 10pm?

Thats it, im going to sleep! Oh ya, before i forget...a sample of random-ness in our family..

Bro bought this cake on New Year's Eve, we just had it tonite lol...

This was the convo between me n him:
Me: Huh? Why u buy cake?
Bro: Dono? Saja? It looked pretty :D
Me: Oh..ok =.=

Yes! The epitome of random-ness. Even to post about it is totally random and pointless and yet im posting it nonetheless, why? Coz i can and i dont care :p

Nite nite guys~ Have a great week ahead ~ !! :DD

P/s: Bro just asked if i tried his cake, if i had said "no" on my part then i would be as termed by him "a sinner" . Dont ask =.=''

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&Revenge might be sweet but the aftertaste is bitter :)

Its only Saturday!!! Cant believe how cool it is to wake up only to realise u dont have to go to work!..lololol :X

Slept uber late last nite, was too excited with Full House - the Kdrama ima watchin now. Yea, yea ive watched b4 last time bt still its cool to just sit around and watch dvd after dvd after dvd without a care in the world :p Though my brain feels abit toasted now...too much :S

But still work up early @_@ Dont know why, must be the thought of not having to leave home :p And also Cafe World dishes..hahaha..Though at this point, my dishes cant really finish x.x i have like 50k servings for one my dishes >_>'' Guess ill have to start making 5 days dishes now lol..

Anyway, woke up, slept back, woke and slept back a few times :x Continued with my drama in the afternoon, though sis had to go out and ask me to wait fr her, and i did eh...after about an hr and went back to watching it hahahah :p Slept abit more after that...

Woke up and msn'ed ren to reset and remax my latest pet to 2b then had dinner and tot of audi'ing for abit with ray :D But the abit turned out to be 4hrs lol....... all coz of a very very extremely bored ken who went to play maple alone came in coz he was that bored hahaha..poor ken :p

Wanted to log off at about 12 initially but ken 'wah-ed' me, saying its the 1st time he heard say wanna log off before him. HMPH! A challenge huh? Ok lor..see who will last :p Played till abt 1plus he said last song...tired le..LOL! (actually i said b4 him, bt he didnt see, coz he was looking fr song heeee :D) U lose! :DD

So, that was my saturday come n gone...and to think i still have sunday! :D Cooolio~~ Now watching Sister act 2 before i go to bed^^

So, have a great Sunday peeps and happy holidays~!

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&i just wish i didn't care what happens.
but i cant.

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010!!!!! ♥

Hope this year brings everyone more happiness, more prosperity, more good luck etc etc etc! :p

Seriously cant believe 2009 is finally gone, it feels so distant and yet all the memories of 2009 seems to be so near. Guess its time for us to look back and learn the past mistakes and reminisce on the good times :)

Work was busy as usual ytd, my migraine was still quite bad and the bosses got me doing office boy work ytd, delivering docs to ppl =.= Do u knw hw hotttt it is now in Penang? Seriously freaking bladi hot. My migraine just got worse TT^TT~ Anyway, they bought those HK style "Lou Poh Peng" as a new year treat. I think can buy number liao ahahaha :X It was nice though eh, but i was afraid eat liao sure got kang tao..sure enough...GOT! >_>

They asked to find some accs docs and by that time already 5pm, i told the PA, no way am i stayin back today, its gonna be a hellavu jam near queensbay coz apparently some taiwanese artists were gonna perform for countdown. So she told them i was leaving sharp, and she said they abit bo song..lol...as if i care? Duh them.

Jammed jammed peanut butter and jelly jam all the way home (&^#@%&* ;sob

Reached home, took 2 panadols again and slept. Woke up abt 10'ish feeling slightly better, thank god :) Took a long cold bath and stood under the shower thinking of the year b4 it ended lol..sort of drowns out alot of other thoughts in my head. Sat ard in front of pc, as usual, until it was time to countdown, and then, well, there it went. 2010 had finally arrived..lol. I did feel somethin different though this time. But its the promises that id made to myself had suddenly come to position OwO~~

Alot of fireworks, well somewhat, some ship blasting, i think lol and there u have it, 2010 making its grand entrance. Surprisingly not much sms'es also tis time ard, just like XMas, which is kinda sad. And i didnt update the old contacts frm my old phone. The other day accidentally deleted alot of msgs in old phone and felt somewhat sad, coz im abit nostalgic and i knw i will nvr see those sms'es again :(

Well, come March, it will be 3 yrs since i started this blog. 3 yrs of life's ups n downs. 3 yrs of ppl coming n leaving and some still ard. 3yrs of me and the ppl i care about :)

Its always been the same, make resolutions and by the 2nd month, its gone. Im ever so determined to keep them this year. My korean language classes, my teachin diploma, my goin into intermediate lvl in dance class, and some other stuff which i swore i will keep tis yr !!! Jy me eh ;) Places to go on my wishlist this year? Korea, Japan or Taiwan :D *crosses fingers >_<* I want to smile more, worry less, laugh more, think less, love more and be more loved ;) The only mistake i ever did in my past r/ships last yr was thinkin i did not deserve to be loved. And selling my worth short of what it really is...tsk tsk :)

I have alot of other plans, but i dont wan to bore u guys with details, so ill post them slowly over the weeks :D Im gonna take life as it comes now, and ppl who dont deserve my attention shd just go away oh~ :)

So, what am i up to today? Well currently watching K-Drama, painting my nails while i get ideas on this post haha..actually started typing since ytd but wanted to put it all in a way that its not chaotic :p Ok la, shall not make this post too long, i knw some ppl dont like to read alot of words...must have picture de..eh wait, thats my siblings, i think =.= I remember them telling me, hw can u read this book? All words and no pics >_>

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& maybe im making amends for what used to be
for by not saying much does not mean im ok with it.
Ive just refuse to let it become all my life.

&i believe, if i really cared for someone, i will nvr do anything to hurt them,
No matter what.
and the rest are just excuses to console myself.
but if u do still do it despite it all, means ur no longer afraid of them leaving, right?

Its Thursday!!! Happy New Year's Eve!! :D

This would be a very happy time for me if not for the throbbing headache im having now :( and my left ear is startin to hurt too TT^TT~ The minute i came out of bath jiu pain le...sad~ I wan to have a healthy hols lo.. :((

I will not let this dampened my holiday mood though :)

Work sucked big time today, sigh. Bosses are being their 1000% asses again =.= Sometimes i think i wanna give them a piece of my bladi mind. Always taking advantange if the staff as much as they can. I just lazy to say anything coz well i still need a job. But if i get one (soon i hope) , they are so gonna get it >:(

I hope that 2010 will be a better year for me. Im hoping for the best and planning for alot of stuff to be done. 2009 was just a very bad year and alot of on and off depression :( Thank god, i manage to let some baggage go and learn to be happy and let things be. Tryin my best not to let things bring me down and gettin back up as soon as i can :) Still learning, bt im gettin there xD

2010 plans? Hope to get my teaching diploma by March :) then i can travel and teach ^^ and also some of the 2009 resolutions which i nvr kept. Im adamant to keep them now. And im doing it for me.

Wanted to post more things, bt it seems my migraine is gettin worse and i cant think of anything else to type :( Will continue tomoro ~

Happy New Years eve guys~ :)

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&someday soon the tables will be turned around
i wont be the one who will be doing waiting anymore :)

Ahhhh~~ Wat a sleepy Tuesday x.x

Serves me right fr sleeping at almost 4 last nite TT^TT~ Was watching some DVD which i cant even remember which ady >_>'' But then again, it was a super super busy day at work today..not much time to even Fb and dam net kept goin off anyway, 1min im online next im off =.= Lousy office wireless.. :(

Dam bosses being a pain in the ass over some small little baby project. It would seem like it was their 1st project ever by the way they're handling it. Oh well, its not i get any commission out of it. Need a new job. Soon. Lol, yes again.

Car repairs came up to Rm200, accumulative for this month? 700bucks. *stabs self repeatedly*

Major sighing in progress.

Came home early, fell asleep, and went to dance class :) Came home, nudged ray to audi abit with me and whoosh 4hrs has passed =.= Maybe i shd sleep. I need more sleep.

And i just played Tomb Raider on tv. Lol :S

Oh ya, ss for the night frm ray :p

Its so unbelievably easy to post this, so i posted anyway~~ :p

Lolol for the nite~ Thanks ray for cheering me up :)

Time to lay down i guess..back pain >< chair =".="">_> Bla.

Tootles!!

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&i try to block out the insecurities, shoo go away!
I love things just the way it is, dont take it away just yet :(