Sleepyashell.com... @_@;

Honestly dam dam tmd de sleepy, even fell asleep when i reached office earlier. Think i dozed off for about 5mins ><. Kns... Reason? Hmmm...long chain of events :S

Finally took pc to my regular repairman, coz it kept coming out notifications sayin that my W7 is expiring..when i told him that, he said i might have accidently updated my windows. Duh uh? Im not that dumb lor, must be his fault :x And also the crash dump screen keeps coming out =.= Bery bery annoying leh. Sigh. Wonder how much ima gonna spend tis time... come to think of it, the amount spend on my bi-monthly repairs can actually get me a new pc d..hmmmmm..

Anyway, work was immensely boring..was actually flipping through calendar to see when the next holidays are. But but but! No more till May TT^TT~~ *cries cries* This can only mean one thing....take mc :X Im not entitled to annual leave yet, officially 1 yr in May..if i last that long. Bla.

Still not over the CNY hols yet eh ><. Kns kns tmd tmd. FML.

And the fact that i still have to bs on the daily report thingy. Im only working on that webbie so far..so waste paper ne, havent they heard of "Save the trees"? -takes out pen and pokes at paper-

Anyway, went home early coz had to go pass wages to the workers at site, and went home str8. Backed up my stuff, rested awhile, waited for jam to clear down and took pc to air itam. On the way back went to arizona to satisfy my net craves...which lasted abt 5hrs :X Dam tired. I dont know why i didnt go hm earlier...oh yes, i was waiting for u :( Mai wait le next time, once my pc is back , dont think ill install audi for awhile...

Join comp, which was a big mistake coz kb not nice de and very tiring to press. Dam not light at all =.= In middle of game, have to rest somemore >_>"" But played with random ppl, friends after that and joined ahp and diana when they came in. Jx came in after that and yorke lol.. Its no wonder i lasted that long, i was playing with ppl i knew :)

But got damn hyper after 1, maybe coz i was jz zoning out alot d.. ><.

Wanted to go hm ler, manatau, dam heavy rain and i parked my car very far leh. In the end, still ran to car coz mum kept calling me to go home =.="

Reached hm soaked to the core, had my bath, supper/dinner, and told sis to lend me her pc fr a bit to cafe. Waited for her till abt 4am. Zzzzzz.. Almost died, and was actually considering letting the food spoil ><. In the end, cafe'ed and slept ard 4-ish.

Died in the morning at work.

Once again, FML.

Just finished crying my eyes out.... :(

Lol..Dont be worried (i mean u ever were ><...) Just finished watchin Hachiko, which pulled at all my heartstrings and made me feel so touched..u know la, emotionally high me :x Ive heard his story for so long, this is the first time i actually saw the movie. Though its an american adaption, still touching nonetheless.

Summary of Hachiko's story, which is a true story btw - its about this dog in Japan, who every day , would wait for his master at the train station for him to come home. One day, the owner suddenly died and nvr did get on that train and Hachiko continued coming back and waited at the train station for his master's return for 9yrs until he died of old age. There's now a bronze statue of him at Shibuya's station to honored this very very loyal dog TT^TT~

Wat la...really touching lor..wat can i say? Ima sucka for dog shows...esp ones like these coz its an actual story :(

So how was my weekend now that its almost 2am on a very early Monday morning, other than a very very very extremely blue-ish feeling? Ermm, numbness? Still watching my anime lolz :X

@Saturday - was spent at work, well, 1st part of it anyway. Wat else can i say other than it was extremeeeely boring? Hmmm...it was extremely supercalifragilistic-ally boring? I wonder what i will write on my daily report...shit, have to do that tomoro..Guess ill have to bs ady =.= Lame can? Me and colleague were just laming the morning away.. tmd.

Anyway, was happy when i finally got home, hot hot day, had lunch and took a short nap. Woke up and went into audi and continued tagging hearts :) And very nice new rims babe, bery kakkoii!! ;)

Stopped awhile for dinner, and i took a nap again rofl, continued after babe came back and tagged till almost 1am-ish and went to another LP (when am i gonna get mine? TT^TT ..:P) Lol...uber tired. Met some idiots in audi, while tagging, bt shall not dwell into that. And my pc is giving me more problem by its constant crashing. Sigh. Think will send it to pc dude tomoro morning...hopefully he can fix it by the end of the day..

@Sunday - woke up early for Jp class @_@;; imagine waking up at 9plus on a Sunday~! Torturous also eh ><....luckily not many times ba..will bear with it..Class was good till the last 15mins when i found myself zoning out x.x Really bery sleepy suddenly :X

Went home, tagged abit with babe, my pc crashed 2 times =.= getting fked and irritating. Sigh, might as well dont have pc then can hide from the online world....omg..i might get withdrawal symptoms..Must go to those like Alcoholics Anynonomous de grps, except these are for ppl who cant stay from getting online LOL :x

Ok, dont mind the tired crapping :S

Slept abit, watched Fast & Furious 4 (yes, havent seen it yet..didnt even knw there was a 4 ><.) and Hachiko.. Had some chicken salad for dinner, lepak-ed in audi abit, and here i am.. tired and moody with alot of Pre Monday Blues *pouts*

Oh wells, another day, another week, another month tomoro..time is moving rather fast isnt it? Mama's bday coming soon too...wonder what we should get her. Hmmm..

Off to bed guys! Have a wonderful week ahead, though u might hate it, but still have to go through it, unless u suddenly get mc lol :X Be positive!! :p

*loves*


Ciaozzz~!!


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& im sorry for acting up when it comes to that person,
it shdnt even bother me, and it wont anymore,
And sometimes i wish u were more patient with me,
my pc dying really not my fault T^T
Sigh..

Hola people on a Saturday morning~ :)

Gonna head off to bed soon, so just a quick post before i do ;) Today's hols was basically, well, majority of the day was spent tagging hearts with babe :) Woke up early after he sms'ed and asked, went into audi. Tagged till about 1plus and had a break.

Babe went for lunch and did his stuff + sleep lol, while i loiterd at home alone coz family went out to eat choo char lolz. Wanted to follow, bt was lazy at the same time :X So stayed at home doggie sitting, had my laksa lunch and continued with my anime - Kaasan. Dam funny one really :D

Was feeling a little down in the afternoon, but that show really managed to lift my spirits up slightly :)

Family came home, went out again with dog and i just continued lying in bed. Surprisingly cooling afternoon leh...bery nice :D And luckily i didnt follow them go eat coz apparently the food not so nice anymore :p

Went back to tagging hearts after babe woke up and tagged fr about 7hrs str8 O_O;; Havent done that in awhile , so brain abit not functioning really well at the moment lol :X Watched dvd's and read some books while doing it lol.. and at the end of the day, we went to 2 lps (1of which we didnt really know) and 1 wedding - ptn's lol...yes again.. :X

Fruitful day, no? Lolzz..

Gonna head off to bed now...think will watch one more epi b4 i sleep though :D But having bad headache dy ..dono why :(

Ciaozzz~!!

P/s: Thanks babe for tagging with me today...we're that much closer to the next ring le ;lub


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Was feeling slightly down in the afternoon, luckily had my anime and baby's company lol.
Thanks ya :)
And ur right, i know it, i shdnt keep doing this to myself, i shd be happy more.
Ill try my best to keep my screwed up thoughts away.
Had a little revelation after i went toilet (yes! lol :x),
Its doesn't matter how worried or sad or how much i think about it,
Its not up to me to stop anything, its up to u,
When someone know hw much an action could hurt another and does it despite that,
We really cant do much about it , can we?
I hope it does not happen, but that is all i can do, Hope and a little bit of faith :)
I shant be worried over something which i have no control whatsoever over..
What ever u do or intend to do, please remember me.. :)

"To have others believe in you, you first need to believe in yourself"

I guess its true, the more u are afraid of losing something, the more u tend to lose it,
The more you keep telling yourself u cant lose, the more u tend to,
Dont know if its fate's way of telling us to have more faith, or its just our own doing for we do worst things when we are uncertain.
We try too hard, grip too tight and plead too much,
And believe me, its not the way :)

I keep telling this to baby, and yet i do the same thing, i really shd start listening to myself lol.

I really shd start clearing my closet of insecurities and doubts, and start believing again.

Im sorry i made it seem like i didnt trust you, ill try my best not to next time.






Sometimes, i dont know if im doing the right thing, staying on,
Would it be better if i didnt and walked away?
Would it make us happier? Hmmmm.. :)

No more thoughts for the night.. and welcome home babe :)

P/s: Was today the last time i would hear so much frm u in a day?
I hope that all goes well this time, and we stay as we were b4 u came back.
I have faith :)


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Just had a haircut and dyed my hair :D, been meaning to do it since b4 CNY bt figured i had the long hols so kept postponing it. Then it was trips every single nite, so more postponing lol. In the end, hols was over and my hair looked like shit =.=

Finally asked sis to cut for me coz it was getting too thick and i came home with a bad headache from work. Even slept fr an hr and felt slightly better after that. Maybe its the late nites too. Thankfully no work tomoro! Yayness :D

Im kinda impatient when it comes to sitting down quietly. Half hr tops and i get squirmly le :X But bo pian la, still needed to have it done :D And i like it :)

Didnt join comp today, coz well, was sleeping lol and besides babe wasnt ard for moral support D: anyway, maybe one day break frm audi will bring more pro-ness out the next day? LOL :X

Bosses wasnt ard today, so peace and quiet, bt still got that dam form to fill out asdafuitehg =.=. Left work early anyway, too lazy le since tomoro hols lol :X

Came home to see siblings..both! mapling :O Sis even asked me wat her pass was...i made that acc fr her 3yrs ago ok? Cant remember d la =.= so end up, she's using my acc lol ..

And i just realised im writing incoherently again and my posts are all jumbled up. Oh wells, screw me.

Thinking of goin to bed early today, maybe see some animes or watch a dvd...hmmm.. we'll see :)

Oyasumi nasai~!

Havin a bad headache at work.. think its the heat ><. And feeling uneasy.. =.=

OM passed me a Daily Report form this morning. We're suppose to be doing this now, writing down what we do in the day. Lol. There can only be 2 opinions on this move:

1. Bosses dont believe we have any work to do. And that we're too free hence we're forced to bs on this report.

2. Bosses still think we have nothing to do, so this task will actually mean we're doing something with our time.

Lol. Either way, i hate filling out forms like this coz its only 2 ppl working in the dam office. And do they think its our fault we have nothing much to do? Not that im saying im free.. IM NOT. Still doing that fkup website designing. And they say like its so easy, bt dont wan to pay for ppl's services (i.e pro ppl who actually do this for a living?)

Not happy at all. Still need to do it though. But doing it unhappily =.=

Fell asleep at lunch and now im hungry d ><. Luckily almost time to go home :)

And oh ya, have a safe trip back babe~ :)

P/s: Got a paper cut again today...pain la! :( Looking for some sayang...anyone? Pls? :(

Konnichiwa~~!!!

Officially started 1st lesson in JP class :D Left work sharp so that i could come back in time and rest abit before going. Class started at 7.30 though :) It was cool and the teacher was actually not that bad.. he emphasized alot on pronunciation which is cool by me, learning to say it correctly is very cool ;)

1st class was basically like learning your abc's, just that theirs is called Gojyuuon - or the 50 basic sounds of the romanji..i think lol :X Brain pretty tired now la, just figured i shd quickly post this if i shd forget all abt it tomoro :S Alot of a e i o u's ...ya ya...just that its not pronounced how we learnt in kindy ok? Different sounds totally. Note to self: must bring water next week...coz mouth dam tired and dry after all that :X Overall, quite happy with 1st class, and lookin forward to next lesson! :DD

Work was erm, okok ba...nothing much. Still working on webby, here and there ba unless i get interupted to look for this and that, which is pretty annoying =.= Bah, works sucks, so shall not dwell into details.

Lunch time went over to Queensbay, thought of eating bread for lunch...u knw those like Bread History kind of breads? Diverted into Bead Zone while looking and ended up getting toe rings :P Ive been meaning to get the ones i lost quite some time lor...just lazy to walk over under the hot sun even if it only takes me about less than 5mins to actually reach the place ...hahahah :x

Can u believe there are not such shops in Queensbay?? The best i could find was only Roti Man or something to that effect. Tmd. Somemore the breads not even that nice D: Shd have gotten sushi instead la. Bodo bodo me.

Well, come str8 home after lessons and joined cpl compy, which results were not so good :'( Maybe my pc idle too long le, so abit laggy, and so was net connection and also my blurness...sad sad sad. Shd hope that i do better ma, i feel so discouraged tonite T^T~

Played abit with babe and some old friends and left soon after. Watched abit of CSI- new season wor !! :D and now nodding off at pc..Really tired frm ytd ba...and really tired now too. And omg la, its almost 3am again D: D:

Thank god friday is a holiday again :) As if i will sleep in...i just wake up early nia...must must sleep more! :x


Okok sleeepp!!! Ciaoz~!! :D


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2nd day, and ur still here..
Just like old times, i missed it so.
And i dread when the day it goes away again..
But like i said, no one can promise tomoro...just live for today :)
;lub

Hoho!! 1st day of work!! Conclusion = Sleepy as hell man :X

Though i was suppose to officially start work on M0nday, bt laziness gt the best of me and mc slowly crept from behind... ima such a model employee :S Not bad lar...some ppl actually start today also lor... D:

Work was erm, lost to me.. Couldnt find the things i stopped doing abt 10days ago lol D: And had to make sense what i didnt finish..(luckily not to much) Was suppose to start on website designing for comp (though i did hope the bosses forgot...wat la! they're not hiring me to do designing work lo!..cheapskates..)

Went through half the day, sorting out papers after papers after papers..i was basically piled up with papers =.= And then sometime in the afternoon, she remembered le! ><. And ask me if i was looking into it..Sigh...Im nt that good at designing webbies de lor...thank god i found a site which was quite easy to handle and str8 forward! But by the time i actually found it, almost time go hm liao lol :X Did halfway le la..shall look more into it tomoro :D

And office was DAM HOT today! asdjqariuqerfpoejrfqpoejfrqef :S

Left office quite late le, ard 6plus, came hm, had dinner, and went into audi.. New moves eh...weird and confuses me (excuses :X) Saw baby and joined her for inter comp. Not very good results so shall not mentioned it D:

Practiced by myself abit and babe came in. Practised abit more and went to exp comp :) Me so proud of meself tonite!! :D Made it through Rd1 - 2nd place :D , coz i x8 :p and made it through Rd2 also 2nd place O_O!! At the last 20secs, my hand were like shaking lor...couldnt believe i didnt miss much wor and chain chain chain :D Bery bery proud of myself! Hehehe...and babe was my supporter behind :3 Didnt pass Rd3 though, lagged and made me miss my fm TT^TT~ Besides, it was a tougher grp.. i think.. Babe shd have played for me! D: hahahaha :X

1st Rd~ :)

2nd Rd ~ :O

Played abit more after compy with ahp and diana and then headed off to cpl compy :) We made it to till semis! O_O! Im quite surprised with my playin tonite...misses here n there, bt still better than i expected wor :D Lucky i have a pro cpl, eh babe? :p Too bad lost in semis, coz abv 120 de speed, i basically lose control liao :( Sorry babe....i will jy practice de! Compy's are fun! :3 I still feel if i had a better grip, would have made it to another rd in both comps de ><. Bah me.

Prelims & 1st rd met the same cpl lol ~

2nd Rd - met with serene n hanhan lol :)

3rd Rd~

4th round got take but mai put liao..bo song :X Could have done better de! Bla bla :S

Anyway, played abit more with guild and before we knew it, its 1am dy....and now its well, late? :S And getting hungry le...zzzz ..I see Pringles! Lol..

Oh wells, time for bed. Overall day, happy with my audi'ing ...though i dono why i suck at normal games today, kept missing like siao, even b4 comp =.= Maybe comp more challenge which brings out the best in me? :X Hehe ..

Ciaoz~!!


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& how long will it be like today?
it seemed just like old times,
I hope u can be the better friend that u promised..
One last try? :)