Random..

There is always a thin line between many things in life...and yet we tend to overlook wat is really important..are all humans born to be selfish? i guess for somethings we really are...to want or a need? love and obsession?

Ive been angry for a long long time...and yet i have always managed to put on a happy face when im with ppl...only those dear to me will knw when im really unhappy...im angry at myself for being angry..i don like the feeling of hurt, depression..i may seem tat i dont really care..i don actually if the ppl who make me feel tis way are not the ppl i give a dam abt..its those i do tat matters...why? i dont really knw...i wan to be stop being mad coz its tirin me out :(

I read this a long time ago and seemed to have forgotten the meaning tat it showed me then...so i as i was clearing my comp of junk tonite..i came upon on it again..so for those who have read it..its to remind u and for those who havent...well here it is...


"After 21 years of marriage, my wife wanted me to take another woman out to dinner and a movie. She said I love you but I know this other woman loves you and would love to spend some time with you.

The other woman that my wife wanted me to visit was my MOTHER, who has been a widow for 19 years, but the demands of my work and my three children had made it
possible to visit her only occasionally.

That night I called to invite her to go out for dinner and a movie.

"What's wrong, are you well," she asked? My mother is the type of woman who suspects that a late night call or a surprise invitation is a sign of bad news.

"I thought that it would be pleasant to spend some time with you," I responded. "Just the two of us." She thought ! about it f or a moment, and then said, "I would like that very much."

That Friday after work, as I drove over to pick her up I was a bit nervous. When I arrived at her house, I noticed that she, too, seemed to be nervous about our date. She waited in the door with her coat on. She had curled her hair and was wearing the dress that she had worn to celebrate her last wedding anniversary. She smiled from a face that was as radiant as an angel's.

"I told my friends that I was going to go out with my son, and they were impressed, "she said, as she got into the car."They can't wait to hear about our meeting".

We went to a restaurant that, although not elegant, was very nice and cozy. My mother took my arm as if she were the First Lady. After we sat down, I had to read the menu. Her eyes could only read large print. Half way through the entries, I lifted my eyes and saw Mom sitting there staring at me. A nostalgic smile was on her lips.

"It was I who used to have to read the menu when you were small," she said.

"Then it's time that you relax and let me return the favor," I responded.

During the dinner, we had an agreeable conversation - nothing extraordinary, but catching up on recent events of each other's life. We talked so much that we missed the movie.

As we arrived at her house later, she said, "I'll go out with you again, but only if you let me invite you." I agreed. "How was your dinner date?" asked my wife when I got home.
"Very nice. Much more so than I could have imagined," I answered.

A few days later, my mother died of a massive heart attack. It happened so suddenly that I didn't have a chance to do anything for her.

Some time later, I received an envelope with a copy of a restaurant receipt from the same place mother and I had dined.

An attached note said: "I paid this bill in advance. I wasn't sure that I could be there; but nevertheless, I paid for two plates - one for you and the other for your wife. You will never know what that night meant for me. I love you, son."

At that moment, I understood the importance of saying in time: "I LOVE YOU!" and to give our loved ones the time that they deserve. Nothing in life is more important than God and your family. Give them the time they deserve, because these things cannot be put off till "some other time."


There are so many things tat we have to be grateful abt...and though it may seem at times tat life holds nothing for u and for some reason feel tat u have nothing else to live for...ure most certainly wrong..be optimistic and look forward and dont say u cant! If ure any fren of mine u will try, dont make me go there and..well juz don make me go there..lolzz..

In other words, live and love urself and u will be loved in turn..believe me..it will happen :) Dont be uncertain and be strong..lift ur head higher and ppl will look up to you..i knw i will..

So guys, i will leave u with ur thoughts....and this.....

I LOVE YOU!