Friday, August 31, 2007

HAPPY INDEPENDANCE DAY~! MERDEKA!!! the title implies.. yes we are having our 50th Independance Day.. 50 years a free country..of being able to rule itself and not be under another's to say what they can or cannot not being patriotic juz because of today..juz as much i am not happy with things here..i am still proud to be Malaysian..jyjy Malaysia..make us proud too..hahas

Days have been uneventful and yet im not complaining..i have been a bit reserved lately..too many things happening ard me..within me..discovering many things abt myself and the ppl ard me..understanding more..forgiving more..and though there is disappointment, that will soon go away..but i will nvr be the same person as i was before..

Saying less is more i suppose..learning not to care too much and take things too seriously..although it might seem impossible..i know me..ive been me for 20+ years..even mum said before.. friends are always before everyone else..even family..which has always been true.. should tat change? should i change..? we will see bah..

Being sleeping alot today..its a nice day to sleep^^..relax and take things easy..later maybe going to meet up wif a fren :P...if im not lazy..hehe..days seem to be moving faster lately..juz realised its gonna be Sept tomorrow..3 month to the end of 2007 and welcoming of time flies..

Oh well.. no use dwelling in that.. however we think abt it or dread will still the best we can do is live everyday like there's no tomorrow and cherish wat u have..


Found another test to take..i like taking tis type of tests..not always true but amusing nonetheless :P... enjoy guys^^

You are The Empress

Beauty, happiness, pleasure, success, luxury, dissipation.

The Empress is associated with Venus, the feminine planet, so it represents,
beauty, charm, pleasure, luxury, and delight. You may be good at home
decorating, art or anything to do with making things beautiful.

The Empress is a creator, be it creation of life, of romance, of art or business. While the Magician is the primal spark, the idea made real, and the High Priestess is the one who gives the idea a form, the Empress is the womb where it gestates and grows till it is ready to be born. This is why her symbol is Venus, goddess of beautiful things as well as love. Even so, the Empress is more Demeter, goddess of abundance, then sensual Venus. She is the giver of Earthly gifts, yet at the same time, she can, in anger withhold, as Demeter did when her daughter, Persephone, was kidnapped. In fury and grief, she kept the Earth barren till her child was returned to her.

What Tarot Card are You?

TIll my next blog..<3333 hugssss and muacksss^^

Wednesday, August 29, 2007


Ima pro^^ finally.. actually been pro for a week le...but too lazy to blog so so so.. :P
but then.. don audi as much as i used to, mainly coz the ppl i know and play wif don play as much liao :( .. but then i still do go in to release stress once in awhile..

life has been pretty much the same.. work, come home, watch tv, fiddle wit comp and sleep..routine routine.. but trying to break out of the cycle tat i have gotten so used to..trying my best to leave the hse and meet up wif frens..had my company annual dinner last was fun..will post some pics when i gt them :) after dinner.. went to Starbucks and sat there till 1am..laming wif a fren abt life or my lack of it..lolzz..fell asleep when i came home..though i was in audi.. i think i fell asleep on the kb =x

the main reason i was so tired was becoz the nite b4 i was out till 4am.. went out to find a fren and ended up bought a cpl of beers and sat by the beach =x=x .. dono wat got into me but juz a lot of stuff on my mind.. and din wan to be at home n seriuosly needed a quiet place to yeah..

oh is such..juz living through it day by day..oh yeah found tis pic in phone ytd while i was back-uping the data to my pc..its my work nice rite..lolzz..

my work table^^

ah well..gtg go liaoz..need to do something for mum...

until my next blog..<33 hugss n muackssss.... oh b4 i forget..below is my fav song lyrics for the it and weep ppl..lolzz

To the song here in my heart
A melody I've start
But can't complete

Listen, to the sound from deep within
It's only beginning
To find release

the time has come
for my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside and turned
Into your own
all cause you won't

I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home, in my own home
And I tried and tried
To say whats on my mind
You should have known
Now I'm done believin you
You don't know what I'm feelin
I'm more than what, you made of me
I followed the voice
you gave to me
But now I gotta find, my own..

You should have listened
There is someone here inside
Someone I'd thought had died
Sooo long ago

Ohh I'm free now and my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside on words
Into your arms
All cause you won't

I don't know where I belong
But i'll be movin on
If you don't....
If you won't....

To the song here in my heart
A melody I've start
But I will complete

Now i'm done believin you
You dont know what I'm feelin
I'm more than what, you made of me
I followed the voice, you think you gave to me
But now I gotta find, my own..
my ownn...

Saturday, August 18, 2007


life is so contridicting... or should i say ppl are...we say one thing and though it seems like we mean it.. its rarely the only applies if we are not the person affected..when it does happen to us..we beat ourselves up and so the same advice tat we gave comes back to us..lolzz..isnt life ironic?

why do we depend so much on wat other think abt us? abt how ppl view us?when im dissapointed its normally how i see myself and not because of wat other ppl think of me...why should words of a perfect stranger bring us down? it nvr should...if the ppl around you.. ur frens, ur loved ones thinks the world of u.. tats all that matters to me.. even if they dont..always trust urself... it doesnt matter wat i think...its wat ur heart tells wat if u fail..pick urself up, dust urself off and start all over again...

u might say.. yea we work for recognition, we present ourselves to be accepted, we mould ourselves into something other than ourselves to adapt with the majority.. is that how it works now?

life will nvr be wat u want it to will nvr be a perfect world..u can complain, whine, shout will not change the way it works..fate is always in your own hands..

i have never given up on anyone see the positive side of someone..and though they might have their flaws..who heart is open to the beautiful side of that person..

" is never what it seems.."

until my next post..lotsa of luv and hugss^^ muacksssss

Friday, August 17, 2007


ima bored... its almost 2am and here i am sitting here wide awake and bored senseless... all of a sudden feel like there's not much i can do...tonite is the 1st nite in a long long long time i did not play a single game in audi...a miracle!! wanted to test wat other things could possibly occupy my time and make me busy.. apparently not much :(

im wide awake..maybe coz i fell asleep for 1/2 hr after staring at comp for abt 2 hrs...

hehe..stopped blogging for 1/2hr..had the sudden urge to spam forums...juz randoms forums :P ..trying to get piccys up.. but tat might not happen tonite..still trying to understand my updated tis hr brain a bit slow..

its 2.30 now.. and its raining..going to love the smell of rain in the morning..will be wishing i was still sleeping..but its a FRIDAY! wootsss..brb.. *continues spamming*

3am...body tells me im tired, worn out, brain says dont sleep, heart says ure many contridictions in me...

work today was tiring..again :( feel like my boss a bit bian tai.. always when almost time to go home nia wan meeting le -.-! then talk talk no ending de..btw today also got..end up finish at 6.30..rawrss!! the oni good thing tat came out was he gonna get 19inch screens for our team (officially called UK team :P) hope tats something tat will happen.. coz he quite niao de >.>

gah..wanted to put photos no ideas le..sadded...ohmigosh brain starting to die on me also>< ... I WANNA CHANGE MY HANDPHONE =x totally irrelevant i know..but juz saw mine and tot of it :P:P

okok sleep time..tomolo be the undead again ;) walk around aimlessly..lmaozzz

huggzzz, lovess and muakssssssssss^^

Thursday, August 9, 2007


hey guys...its been awhile...lolx.. i wonder if anyone ever comes here anymore...its ok i suppose...i havent been here myself too..

times passes so quickly nowadays...i remember it being january and now it almost halfway through time flies...and yet i wonder wat i have truly done this year...i have had my ups and downs... more downs than ups..but nonetheless i cherish all the ups that i have will not be overshadowed by sadness and hurt i have experienced in the past..


is it the hardest word to say? i suppose its only hard when u dont really mean it..if you dont believe forgive..that is the hardest does it feel when u have truly forgiven someone who has hurt you..disappointed you..

hahas...i suppose when ppl come here..they feel depressed..i hope that not how hey would feel..but it is a place i say wat i feel...and when i let it out..i let it guys don feel depressed.. feel enlightened :P

life is beautiful...cherish it with all ur heart.. whenever i feel down and sad.. i try to look deeper into things and there are really alot of things i will be thankful for...i love my days :)

will update some piccys soon.. wait i not so lazy 1st :P

*loves* muackssss