Saturday, March 29, 2008


Hmmmm.. 2 weeks since my last post:P...not bad la huh..not my fault i dont blog k..ima very busy gal..lots of things to do de..wahahaha..not really la..juz nothing to blog abt nia =x sigh boring me....

Wats new in my life currently? ermm..nothing? except for the fact tat im pissed at work >.> but then tats old news...updated news would be tat i will be handing in my resignation next week..i cant take it anymore..i suppose after one year of "give it a chance" ill have to let it go and trust im makin the rite decision..pray for me peeps><

Other than tat...Ima back in audi!! lolzzz..for now i think..kakakaka..current craze wif me n babe? updating our wedding rings :P...i wan tat ring babe!!! uwaaa T_T...don care don care =x *sniffs*

After almost 3 months of MIA..coming back to audi was..erm..weird for me..lolz...alot of new ppl and some old frens :)...reminded me of the time when i started playin..but audi is seriously more stressful than hs5..i have no idea why..somehow i cant slack when im in audi>< i cant take the pressure!!


Why am i here tonite instead of audi? Coz ima all alone and no one else i knw is on..well actually there is bt i lazy to find them=x...they only play npc line so lag will hai them de...*blame blame* and babe gt no elec at home :( so kenot pei me T_T...was ready to chiong tonite de after a long nice nap in the so alert and nothing to do...siannnnn..maybe i shd install audi in my lappy and chiong...hmmmmmmmmmm....

Story mode is saddening for me...only 5% completed and after the "bug fixing" patch in audi few days back, we cant seem to play it anymore..ironic huh? well wats new..the main purpose of audi's patch is to get rid of old bugs and then implement new ones to make our life more interesting..haha..true rite?

And so life goes on n on n on....time keeps moving faster and faster..i cant believe tat its already April..well soon anyway...mum wants me to go back to studying and get my degree..something which i had to forgo last time..even though i had a scholarship to continue tat time...there was juz to many personal problems which made me have to carry nt sure wat i want to take up now..but i think it wont be in Penang..we'll juz see how it goes^^...

Ok im getting bored..back to audi i suppose..or or? Wont say will post soon now..will say "will post when i think i have things to post abt" :P uwek..


Friday, March 14, 2008

-aNo- <3's

Only one word to describe me now...TIRED x.X....and yet out of pure insanity..instead of sleeping im bloggin -.-" actually watching Martha Stewart show and typing tis in the dark..(dont understand why mum wans to kill my eyesight><)

Getting slightly irritated by the typos im making coz of the lack of light..and might end tis post here n now! lolzzzz...bleh bleh.. Anything new? Hmm...will be moving hse (YES AGAIN><) soon...trouble is still no place to move deaded T_T...and the tot of moving again....arghhhhh! nowadays i look ard my hse and ask my mum "Hmm tis one u stil want meh? =x" indirectly making her think its useless stuff and throws it away (fingers crossed) or else ima in deep shyt..donwan to think abt tat rite now...lazyyyyyyyyy

Still playin HS5...becoming power crazy day by day :P.. hey its a way to past time...come home dead tired from work...switch on com and continue the brain deadin...juz play n play n play n play n play n play till u cant play no more..lolzzz.. my lvl at the moment? juz turned sweet 42 tonite^^ lolz my ano (hs char) lvl is higher than my anoili d>< wat..bite me..lalala

~ me wif babe :) will post more soon..hopefully do a video..but needs experimentation lolz :P

Have tot alot these past few days...alot depression at work is affecting my personal life alot..i seem to angry more often and over the stupidest things..i blast and then only think...then regret tat i did it..not to say all of it is my fault lolzzz...but mostly ><.. thanks for still bein ard despite all my tantrums..u knw who u are xD...huggies and muackss for u..keke..i will be there for you 2..always..i promise..

ALSO!! Ive decided tat i wan to be more spontaneous...if i were to die tomorrow..i donwan to regret not experiencing life...slurps :P will keep u posted on my escapades..hurhur ;)

I WAN TO CUT MY HAIR!!! i bth d...grrr...its gettin on my nerves..hmmm.maybe tats why im so emo LOL! zhu -.-" Wah 1am again...omg my eyes really bloodshot d...need to sleep d la><

Before tat...i wish to say tis...

My dear...
Dont cry, dont lose hope..
Be the person u were, confident, proud and strong..
Stand up again and i will be be at ur back..pushing u on..
Though u may feel lost and broken...
This is not the end..
Trust in urself as much as i trust in u...
If u ever need someone..u knw whr to find me :)

Ok die..almost 2 dy..sleeep sleep..baibaibai

Monday, March 10, 2008

Just a post...

...for the sake of posting..lolzz..don be lame lar zzz..

And so..why the emotional outbursts recently? Im not quite sure..been falling in and out of depression faster than u can change out of ur underwear -.-" wahaha =x.
Seriously though..maybe its the stress at work..since i started work self confidence was almost taken away by the power crazy bosses at work..luckily i have managed salvage the remaining pieces of wats left...or maybe its jz me losing my mind..

Ive become extremely sensitive to my surroundings..the slightest thing could tick me off..saddening indeed..and as much as i try to stop my sudden outbursts..its getting the best of me..I feel disappointed with the ppl ard me...ppl i call frens..i find myself sayin sorry for alot of things which are not my fault to begin with..if only ppl could understand wat im feeling..but im expecting too much..maybe coz i listen i expect ppl to do the same...tis is not the 1st time ive said it..but time n time again i try to put it at the back of my mind...trying my best to overlook it..

u might think..there she goes with her emo ramblings again..but if only ppl would care abt my emo ramblings there would not be so much to begin with..i need to feel needed and not as a last minute replacement for someone else who could not make it..someone else who too busy to entertain therefore i was the only alternative left..i might seem carefree but i am human and i have feelings..

and my only source of pouring out my problems seems to be here....i donwan to bore ppl with my sadness nor do i want ppl to sympathise with me...i juz need to feel cared abt...and not juz after reading tis post do u all feel the need to care for me...if tats is how u feel..then dont..

Thursday, March 6, 2008


Nothing to blog..

Just this....

Please appreciate when i am here to care, to love and to be ard when needed,
But never take it for granted,
One day i might leave and nvr come back,
If you will never regret losing, then i have nothing more to say.

Died...tats all and nothing else..