Tuesday, April 29, 2008


Ima sad...

Sheesh...wish everyone would juz leave me alone...Its always been this way...so why change it now....

Monday, April 28, 2008

Hiak hiak^^

Currently bloggin at work...

Why u ask?

Coz im posted in another factory at Butterworth at the moment and while the QC inspectors are checking and doing their stuff...i have nothing to do but sit ard and idle...kakakaka...

Will be going off soon..wootsss!

Sleepy and hot....lolzzz

Sunday, April 27, 2008


Im stressed out...

Seriously i am...my workload juz increased tremendously over the week and im getting really tired..mentally tired i mean...it has come to the point tat im have been thinking of wat i shd be doing tomoro at work><....ppl might say..wats a little work..aiyo need to be stressed like tis meh? i don stressed out easily (at least not at work lolz) but i really am now...

Its not only work...it alot of other stuff...family stuff...financial stuff..i really feel like im losing my mind d...don knw which one i shd do 1st..haiz...help? Im losing focus in alot of things and my mind is so blank now..i get irritated in the smallest of things and it almost feels like im breaking down..i wan to run away..

Not all is bad though..ive set a mission for myself..and i plan to complete before the year is done :) Lets juz hope everythin goes well for me so tat i can start by the 1st week of May^^...i suppose tats all i have to look forward to at the moment..

It seems recently, alot of ppl seem to be leaving me :( ...only this year..ive had a few frens go off and one very recently left me for good...Another set to go off this week to UK for work...

"Siao char bo! as much i hate to see u go, i hope for the best for u and let u find husband there quickly ya :P... ill certainly miss the lame n dirty jokes we make at the office..hahaha..don lose touch ya..i wont forgive u =x"

Isnt tat all we can do? As unhappy as it makes me..still i wish for all the happiness for them..not coz i have to..bt coz i want to...and even though we all must grow up one day...i will still be the girl u all knw..now and always xD...My prayers and bestest of all wishes are for u, no matter whr u are..ure always in my heart and in my thoughts..<3's~

Wednesday, April 23, 2008


Pissed. Full stop.

Saturday, April 12, 2008

Gah x.X

Hot hot hot hot hot!! Wat a %@(%!^%#$ day! =x

How many times have i bath today? Numerous! I actually lost count d><... Went to work on a hot hot sat, after work went to get my long awaited haircut :).. Tot the weather was cooling down..but noooooo..stil as hot..gah bah >_<"

Tried to play audi and hs5 but but but..as usual laggy line irritated me..it was either laggy in audi or dc'ing in hs5...sighzzz..not cool...gt pissed and slept the afternoon away..well tried sleeping anyway..alot of things on my mind recently..gt a worrying sms and and spent the next 2 hrs staring at ceiling into space..Think i might have felt asleep then for abt 1/2 hr when my dog started barking into my ear>< Tats the end of my rest..Mum asked to drive her out..so there was our monthly routine of bills payin...Hopping from bank to bank to bank and end up penniless and tired...mentally, physically and financially...lolzz..

Came home...still hot (and its already 10.30pm! gah!) and goin to bath again....bth la...walao eh..and again tried playin hs5 and audi but..sigh..need i say more? If im here obviously im nt there -.-" ...anoili is very de annoyed..bah again..

Oh well, i suppose i shd juz go bath and watch my American Idol with my ice kacang (YAYNESS!) bought on the way home juz now..hehehe.. cool cool cool :P ....

Am still worried abt u..hopefully i will be able to sleep tonite...need to wake up early to have my hair straightened..lolzz..it will be a long long day at the salon tomorrow...all for the sake of vanity..ahaha..hey i only do this once a year k? Im not that vain..blek =x

Hmmmmmmmmmmmmm...bath time!!! Muaks Muaks peepsss~

Friday, April 11, 2008

<3's ...something to think abt..

525,600 minutes
525,000 moments so dear
525,600 minutes - how do you measure, measure a year?
In daylights, in sunsets, in midnights, in cups of coffee
In inches, in miles, in laughter, in strife
In 525,600 minutes - how do you measure a year in the life?
How about love? How about love? How about love? Measure in love
Seasons of love

525,600 minutes! 525,000 journeys to plan
525,600 minutes - how can you measure the life of a woman or man?

In truths that she learned, or in times that he cried
In bridges he burned, or the way that she died

It’s time now to sing out, tho the story never ends let's celebrate remember a year in the life of friends
Remember the love! Remember the love! Remember the love! Measure in love
Seasons of love! Seasons of love

I knw it might seem corny...bt in times when sadness comes over me and when im inclined to cry for my failures in life, i try to think of all the other ppl in world who dont even when life fails them...

To pick up urself and move on....what has past is gone..time to look forward and lift ur head high to look at the possibilites in life..even if u cant see them now..it is there...juz open ur eyes and ur heart..

Even when in times of depression..when i think of leavin tis world..I stop to think...think of the ppl i leave behind...the sadness i will put them through..so even if u feel that no one will ever care if ure gone..ur wrong..i do.

To you,
Im sorry u chose to leave,
Im sad that u had to make the choice that u made,
Yet u will always in be my thoughts and in my prayers,
I will miss u..


That is all that is left...
Leave me be..

Wednesday, April 9, 2008

Bloggin @ Sleepzone...........

Im angry for being a pessimistic..
Yet i am unable to see any goodness in life..
Im sad that i feel lonely..
Yet i cant seem to trust the people around me enuf to be loved..
Im depressed at where i stand in life..
Yet i dont have the courage to move on and make life happen..
Im a walking contridictory of my beliefs..funny how tat works rite?
Guess im pretty much screwed..hmmm..

Tuesday, April 8, 2008


Bye bye Tuesday....Hello Wednesday..

How time flies..its already the middle of the week and it seems that life is passing me by..day by day..funny how i cant even remember wat i have been doing for the past 2 days..lolzz..all i can really seem to remember is work, work and more work ><

In summary? Life sucks =x

It does really..im nt trying to be emo is me or anythin like tat..but its true leh...everytime u think something is going ur way..life has a way of messing it up..i used to think..hmm..maybe its me..maybe its my bad luck..i try to keep a positive view on life..but it manages to disappoints me in the end..maybe im expecting to much? i could u know..but then im only human..who doesnt expect the most from life? Doinks..

Today at work..a collegue of mine..well actually she had quite a sad childhood..nt to say she was an orphan but it felt it like when she spoke abt her family..She had a big family..the old fashion kind of big family where all the extended families lives in this big old hse..and there was always fighting and well to cut it short..life was not really fun for her..The reason she was hired to my company was becoz they were goin to send her to work in the UK...it was wat she wanted..to explore the outside world..so many obstacles she had to go through to see this happen..and it was finally happening...she was due to leave tis weekend...

We asked her over coffee today...how was her preparation..was she ready...all those stuff..and she seemed so excited..happy to start anew..even her parents..the same parents who had made her childhood so unhappy..had made her happy again..they went shoppin for stuff and had a decent conversation..after all tis time..i was happy for her..but..this is where life comes in...she received a call right after our coffee break..her father had been in an accident..and was actually in ICU..he had serious head injury and was in coma..we didnt know hw to react..there was sudden silence among the group of us..wat do u say? wat can u say? silence...

So her trip had to be postponed and she rushed to see her dad..and wat is to be concluded from all of tis? U make ur own decision..was it fated? or was it life messing wif us? Earlier converstions of how happy she was and tat her parents seemed happy for her replayed..times like tis reminds us hw fragile life really is...hw one happy moment can change juz like tat..

Oh well..who are we to complain? We are only living on borrowed time..arent we?

Saturday, April 5, 2008

Slurpzz :P

First and foremost....


Loving ur throbbing gold bo? ^^ ehehhe...ok now my turn babe..get for me =x.. jokin lar...i only want until blue nia..don think i can go through epi 40 - 60 again...uwek><.. As for the rings.. well..tis is wat we've gone through:P

2nd ring - gold gold de^^

3rd ring - yeng sia^^

And now to the 4th..LOL! =x i wan ar!! blek..

Weekends pass so fast leh...blink and its already Sun evening>< Monday blueeeesss.... if only i no need to go work tomoro lol=x Don get it..even with 2 days off..i feel more tired than on a normal working day..hmmmm...Wat did i do? Alot of brainless activities..mindless playin, mindless watching of tv, mindless conversations wif family, i cant remember wat i did frankly...juz play n play n play n sleep..jajajaja..n then?

Life is so full of ups and downs isnt it? And yet my life has more downs than ups..cant help feeling lonely at times..even when i knw when everyone is actually alone in this world..Jus tat it would be nice to share ur problems wif...oh well..and so life goes on...

Tis post has actually taken me 2hrs to do..and yet it seems like i havent written much..lolz..all i knw is tomoro there's work! Nuuuuu TT...i better go sleep le then..hope tomoro goes by fast..hehehe...Nites peepss^^