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"How can you see into my eyes like open doors

Leading you down into my core

Where I’ve become so numb without a soul my spirit sleeping somewhere cold

Until you find it there and lead it back home

Wake me up inside(I can’t wake up)

Wake me up inside(Save me)

Call my name and save me from the dark(Wake me up)

Bid my blood to run(I can’t wake up)

before I come undone(Save me)

Save me from the nothing I’ve become

You can't just leave me

Breathe into me and make me real

Frozen inside without your touch without your love

Darling only you are the life among the dead

all this time I can't believe I couldn't see

kept in the dark but you were there in front of me

I’ve been sleeping a thousand years it seems

got to open my eyes to everything

Without a thought without a voice without a soul

Don't let me die here

There must be something more

I’ve been living a lie, there’s nothing inside (Bring me to life)"

I wonder who shall save me..

Anyway this will be my last post for the year.. after this i will not be ard for awhile..

Too many things have happened in my life for the past 2 week..

Some, more than i can actually handle..im losing grip on my life..

I dont blame anyone..even ppl who said they would be there for me..

Coz i knw in the end its all up to me :) (or at least im trying to tell myself..)

Sleepless nights and endless staring out my 4 walled box windows...

Im afraid..for the 1st time in my life..i admit it..

Sorry guys fr cancellin my trip to sg..bt i really tried..

too many arguements...too many problems.. too many things happening..

I'll try to make it on Chinese new year..but no promises..not till i sort out my problems..

Sry pea..for not attending ur wedding...i wish all the happiness to u and ur hubby kays?

If i do come on CNY, we must meet ya? Hope u wont be angry with me..

..and tazz, mich, ange and bass too :(

Sigh..

I wont be able to say this when it comes, so shall do it now..

Hope u guys have a VERY MERRY X'MAS AND A BLASTING NEW YEAR!

Dont miss me when im gone..life goes on..with or without me :)

Lotsa luv <3's~

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"..i cant pretend that this tears arent overflowing steadily,

i cant prevent this hurt from almost overtaking me,

but i will stand to say goodbye

for you'd never be mine

until you know the way it feels to fly.."