Worse day ever..

1st day at work...after almost 2 weeks of not doing anything..

Had to be waken up by my lovable zhu lol..thanx wor :)

Morning was horrible..i couldnt even pick up the dam phone..ughh..*gasps*

Forgot how to pitch..messy messy x.x.. and kept dialling wrong ._.

Afternoon picked up abit n though i met my daily faxes out..

i don think i made my call rates though..lolz..and i dont really care..hahs!

Fuck kpi's

Managers had long meetings today..after they came out..it seemed ppl would be fired if they were non productive... and again...hah! i don care either..

Got an interview for a new job...will see wat happens..

After work, went to upgrade my lappy ram...now its faster...much better than last time..

Tried audi on it..lagged abit still...but im happy :)

Thats abt the only thing that can...

Bought an external kb..and a lappy cooler..

My smallest burst of so-called happiness..

Problems again..ended up reachin home 9...tired and back pain...and problem still unsolved..

Sigh..

It juz seems like a nvr ending stream of problems for me...

My life is like a river that is nvr calm...always full of rocks and stones...

I feel beaten down...i try to stand up every single time..smile and face the world again..

Im gettin tired..

Im startin to lose faith that life will ever reward me...even a tiniest bit..i really cant see it..

Im exasperated at string of bad luck i have...but i tell myself to nvr regret..

Im starting to get cynical in life...

And i fell today...i mean really fall...as in fall and scrape my knees :(

Forget dinner..I came home, laid in bed n started sobbing...

After it all..i feel ashamed.. ashamed that i am not strong enuf..that my problems seem so minor..

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"i dont blame u for not listening, i blame me for not telling..

But if u really knew me...would i have to?

I don want u to ask me what happened..

I need u to ask me how u can make it better"