To: Ange-Mei~

Dont worry abt me..

I will take care of myself =)

As you said..i dono why i cant seem to eat or enjoy food as i used to..

I know im hungry and yet when faced with food, i juz feel sick x.x

Its becoming harder and harder for me to finish my food..

And even if i forced myself to finish it..i regret it when i get home..

Coz the pain is unbearable..

Food use to be my outlet to release stress..

Now its my cause...

Because of You - Kelly Clarkson

I will not make the same mistakes that you did

I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery

I will not break the way you did

You fell so hard

I've learned the hard way, to never let it get that far

Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk

Because of you I learned to play on the safe side

So I don't get hurt

Because of you I find it hard to trust

Not only me, but everyone around me

Because of you I am afraid

I lose my way

And it's not too long before you point it out I cannot cry

Because I know that's weakness in your eyes

I'm forced to fake, a smile, a laugh

Every day of my life

My heart can't possibly break

When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you I never stray too far from the sidewalk

Because of you I learned to play on the safe side

So I don't get hurt Because of you I find it hard to trust

Not only me, but everyone around me

Because of you I am afraid

I watched you die I heard you cry

Every night in your sleep I was so young

You should have known better than to lean on me

You never thought of anyone else

You just saw your pain

And now I cry In the middle of the night

For the same damn thing

Because of you

I never stray too far from the sidewalk

Because of you

I learned to play on the safe side

So I don't get hurt

Because of you

I tried my hardest just to forget everything

Because of you

I don't know how to let anyone else in

Because of you

I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty

Because of you

I am afraid

Randomly blogging..

On mc today...and for the 1st time in a long long time..

i slept for more than 14hrs..

Last thing i remember from last nite was..

i had my dinner while watching a movie..

And...ermmm...well thats all..lolzz

Oh yea..woke up at 11plus and saw a few msn messages..

Read and fell back into my slumber :P

Woke again at 4am to realise my movie was still running x.x

My headache is still ard..comes and goes..

I really wonder why im still having it...

Startin to think im really stressed out at work..

And my taking mc today, i really feel bad abt it..

I shd have gone to work :(

Its almost 3pm now and havent eaten yet...

Lookin outside my window and its raining...dam..

Thinkin of goin to audi but lazy..

Thinkin of eating..no mood..juz ate 2 pks of mamee..hmm..

Thinkin of so many things..yet im still sitting here..

Why do i have a feeling i juz blogged? Oh..ok i remember d..lolz =x

Well one good thing abt tomoro would be thats its a Friday..

but then again..

Tryin to be happy...truly i am..

<3's~

x.X

My throat is swelled up and i cant even talk without coughing..
imagine i have to make ard 200+ calls per day at work >.>
Nothing else to blog abt as my life at the moment as it has taken a nosedive
all i have to say for now is..
Im so GG...

My head...

..hurts like hell..

It feels like its gonna explode and i almost fainted while i was walking back from work

Yes..its that bad..

As soon as i reached home..i couldnt even do anything else..

I didnt even eat the dinner that i bought and str8 fell asleep..

Even the voices of my housemates talking outside made it hurt..even more.

And no one knows...

Saddening :(

Sunday...came and gone x.x

Thats it..

The end of my weekend..

The end...lolzz

Its nt that dramatic..but i like to make it that way :p

Alot of sleeping and quite abit of audi'ing occupied my weekend this time..

Coz of the new season, the old songs, old friends coming back..yadda yadda..

Think ima gonna quit audi...lolz=x

Though i slept alot..but still it wasnt really sleepin...

Juz had a lotof nightmares..weird ones..i dono why im having those recently..

Then woke up and thought of this..

Have u ever been surrounded by ppl and still feel lonely?

Have u had a grp of frens with u and yet u don feel like ur there? Like u dont fit?

Like ur life is a big jigsaw puzzle and somehow along the way..pieces gt lost?

I do. I feel it now.

I dont know how or when i started to feel this way.

But i do feel alone. No one who will really listen.

Maybe coz im so far away from home. From my comfort zone.

I feel like a stranger..

I dono if u get wat i mean..its juz how i feel..

I dont knw..im juz confused and stressed..

I need familiar faces, ppl i can relate to..

Although im a nice person to everyone (at times lolz)

Im still very much a loner.. antisocial? haha..

Anyway..

It was juz somethin i needed to say out..

Life goes on..

Cheers peeps and have a great week ahead!

I hope i will.....

<3's~

Hiak hiak :)

Guess where im bloggin from??

HOME!!

No no..not Pg home...KL home!

Yay! Woots!! =x

Haha..was excited when they told me ok le :)

And true enuf here i am..hehhe..

After almost a whole day of audi'ing in cc..this was really really good news..

Hopefully the line is stable though, coz apparently service provider co told them our condo nt so..

Hmm..we'll see hw it goes..

Juz in time, juz when i was thinkin of doing some siggies..for audi chars lol :p

AUDI!

Falling in love with it again..well the songs i mean xDD

Brings back alot of memories...alot..

Everytime i play an old song..it reminds me of something..

BU also so many songs..walao..hopefully the songs are there until im done playin all..

Which also means, never! LOLZ!

Now the only thing i want is my lappy reformatted and upgraded..

so hopefully ill be able to audi at home..well..sometimes ba..

Eh, i also need a laptop cooler..for ma poor lappy :(

Other than a few, not so happy incidents..today has been a great day!

Hope it will be the same tomoro :)

<3's~