Sleepless In Penang...

I was asked by my zhu to update my blog daily,

then i said eh i donwan bore ppl with my lame posts leh..

Then i tried to update ytd...hmm nothing x.x

So i asked baby, would she be bored if i updated daily...

I mean, i don hv the life of a jet setter leh, jz normal me and my post

are quite emo de lo..haha =x

But she said, well, its a diary of your life...

I guess so..

So here i am, trying to update (bore) you ppl on my happenings..

Since ive been back here..ive realised that ive been sleeping in the wee hrs of the morning

and waking up in the afternoon..

No, its not fun..

Mainly coz, im thinking, im worried abt a lot of things..

Contrary to the belief that i could care less, the fact is, i care too much..

Especially of what my family thinks of me..

There've been some cold wars in the hse, dont ask me abt what,

it juz stresses me out..

Sigh.

Well, enuf sad stuff...

Lets move on to other topics..like wat i did these few days :)

Alu uncle came to town,

And it was his birthday, so we ( me, hani n sai kk) went to sing K,

Screamed like crazy (it was good to release)

Maybe it was the red wine..lolz

Then they played snooker..i dono how to play lor T_T

Noob me, duh.

Played once when i was in Sg nia, tt time it was ange, mich and tazz that taught me :)

I miss u guys.

Then we also had seafood dinner on saturday..bt i went late coz was waitin for mum

to come hm..believe it or not..i had to babysit the dog x.x

Went there, they were already eating crab liao..then i also abit not in the mood d

So juz ate abit x.x

Then went to cc lol..went to this one in Farlim coz they had Ip bonus.

Extra 30% dens n exp o.o

Cool eh^^

Well played till almost 5am and went hm..

Sunday..tagged with zhu almost the whole day..new rings soon eh :p

Then at nite..my arrow hand pain sia..esp middle finger o.o

Dam, now kenot point at ppl d...lolzz

Too much audi le x.x

Couldnt sleep again last nite..another bad sms, another bad news.

Need to think somemore..zz

Oh well, anyway have a great week ahead peeps =3

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"..im juz trying to find a place where i belong..

is that so hard?"

I HAVE A HEADACHE!!!

coz...my tooth aches x.x

Dam it! Sad de lor :(

Think its the hot weather ba, then rain, then hot =_=

And been following my mum out alot,

Helping her with her epf stuff, big stuff, small stuff, stuff stuff..lol..

Also been rotting abit in my room,

watching dvd's ..huhu..

And this morning, my hand itchy go and update to latest msn..

Click~ Ahhh!! fug fug fug fug =x

Then had to keep reinstalling old, ahhh.. long story..

In short, its fixed now..lol =_=

Fixed!!

That word reminds me of something which is still not..

MY PC! zzzzz **()&#@@&()_

Sian.. now he call me find my MB de cd..wth?

2 yrs ago whr to find? I look at the boxes in the store room i also wan ki siao d >.>

Blah!

Been having sleepless nites..though my body tells me im really tired..

i juz cant seem to fall asleep.. and end up sleeping in the wee hrs of the morning..

So, im emo'ing n moody and not having enuf sleep..

Pls do not irritate me more..u wont win =x

Other than that, pretty mundane stuff..

I dono if i shd rattle on n on abt my day day happenings..hmmm

All i knw is, ive been eating alot more than normal zzz

Not cool lor..after i lost all tat weight in KL..

And after saying all that, here i am eating cendol on a rainy day...=_=

Wat a doink!

Wat else? hmm..

Oh..my doggie had a haircut ytd..and we bought him tis cutest little shirt!! =x

Lol..ok ba..

I shall not continue to bore u ppl with my lame and uninteresting posts d..

So, cheers peeps and have a great remaining of week :)

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"how is it that even with ppl ard me, i still feel alone?"

Have you ever..

felt so helpless, hopeless, lost and dont knw wat to do to make it better

that u end up juz sitting there staring blankly into the 4 corners of your room?

Im so not in the mood now..

Not in the mood to talk,

Not in the mood to audi,

Not in the mood to care,

Not in the mood for anything.

I feel like the Queen of Bad Timing...

No matter wat i do, it will nvr be enuf..

Im so tired.

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I juz pray that it will be alright..every single day.

My doggie loves whip cream!!! =X

Hmm..ignore the title, its a random thing

coz i was spraying whip cream from the can to my mouth and my dog ran up to me,

stood on its hind legs and wanted some..

Awwww..so cute can? xD

Anyway, another update on my mundane yet somewhat blissful life..

Im back in Penang..yup, home sweet home :)

Mum actually cleared the back room for my pc n lappy..so sweet

Maybe they scared i make too much noise until very late =x

Life is calmer for me these few days..at least im nt as lonely or as stressed..

I did some very stupid things during my last few days there..

Things i did coz i felt i didnt knw who i was anymore..

Or how to listen to my heart, that it was juz telling me lies and hurting me..

How my perceptions of ppl are becoming horrible..trusting wrong ppl :(

In the end, though there were alot of heartaches, alot of drinking, alot of crying..

I also learnt who are the ppl who truly cared..who really was worried..

And i love them more for it..

I love u..

The 3 words which i thought i wont say so easily again...

When i thought abt it, i was being unfair to the ppl who truly deserved those words..

All i needed was time to climb over that mountain of hurt..and i did :)

The only that sucks now is my pc doesnt work T_T

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NVM! I WILL GET IT FIXED!

Blablablabla..

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Im ok..at least i knw i will :)

Food Trip!!! xD (Part1)

Okok, this is a very late update..since the actual food trip was last saturday..

But hey, better late than never rite? xP

Alot of things have happen when i was goin to blog abt it..

But ive managed to put it behind me..

So after 1week, here is the update =x

Anyway the idea came from an ex coll who was planning to back to his hometown,

and also had in mind to open a satay celup restaurant xD

Satay celup? Never had it before :p

So finally the plan materialised and he was gonna take us to other food places in Melaka as well..

Hence, FOOD TRIP!! xDD

Left in the morning, had lunch and reached at abt 3plus..

Before that, he brought to us a famous satay place, to let us try out..

(He kept complaining coz i kept commenting on the food, im from Penang leh..cant help it :p)

It was okok lo..maybe coz we took it back to his place and it gt cold d...

Anyway his mum made Nasi Lemak! NICE xDD

Then rested abit, and we headed back to hotel for rest b4 the next food place x.x

Oh ya, we also had cendol, really not the same as pg de wor...:p

Full le at tis point x.x

Oh well, have to have dinner rite? hahaha =x

Oh ya, b4 i forgot, my coll brought his cousin along, he's german chinese..very cute^^

NEEEWAYYSS, thats another story rite? lmao.. back to food stories..

Ok, he brought us tis place..shyt cant remember road name x.x

(Point taken, always blog after the event =x)

Starts with C something...dam it..nvr mind..

Anyway it was this back lane food place, and they had this low table and little chairs

and you can hv clams, sotong, basic seafood stuff..Yum!

They said there was another stall opposite which has better sauce..

but he wasnt open lo...awww

After that fulfilling dinner, we went strolling by Melaka river..

they wanted to take the boat ride...i don wan le..motion sickness..

So lousya la :p

Went to see lanterns, took piccys...*Snap snap*

Mind u, this is to burn off dinner so that we can hv supper =x

HurhurxD

Fren was like a tour guide..telling us abt Melake hotspots..

but he dono hw to get there de, knw hw to say nia ._.

Lousya again=x

Went Jonker Walk, walk walk walk somemore..hehe

Satay Celup time!!

Went abt 12plus, they say best time to have it wor..

i dono leh, juz anyhow follow hehe..

They wanted to go this shop called Continental de? But dam alot of ppl leh..

So went another place ba..

Hmm..in conclusion?

It was ok ba..the sauce abit too sweet..but overall it was nice..

I think maybe cz we ate too much le..then kenot appreciate the taste..x.x

Something different lor, think of lok lok with satay sauce as dipping^^

Went back hotel, feeling veli veli bladi full..no need eat for a few days d..

And to top it all, kenot sleep..coz fren snored the nite away =.=

Next morning, all kenot wake up x.x

Tot the Chicken Rice balls no more le, but we decided to try our luck..

Still got!! hehe..

Cute lor...balls of rice..:p

Then our table was next to the guy who was chopping up the chicken,

My fren ask him, uncle u one day chop how many? =.=

He say ok ok lo..LMAO! Uncle pian us!

We sit there awhile nia, he chop non stop le..

Then went souvenier shopping ba, didnt really buy much lo..

Jus walk walk and look..Hot day x.x

Then we decided to go Mahkota Parade to shop there and also wait for my fren to come..

Walked abit, was sleepy and hot haha..

Then went to tis HK themed restaurant and ate again =x

Finally fren came and we went to his place..

His mum made satay..HOMEMADE DE LOR! =x

Really really nice x.x

Really! Hehe..

I told my fren, u can open many types of shop le.. juz ask ur mum cook :p

Walao, although still full, but ate also...x.x

Please be reminded in between we had alot of other small stuff lo..=x

Full n sleepy...worse x.x

Slept awhile and then headed home at abt 8plus..

Reached home also almost 12 le...wahwah..

In conclusion..

Very nice trip..and enjoyed myself alot xD

Alot of places nvr went to lor..Nvm next time :p

And BLADI FULL! x.x

Thought i wanted to upload piccy's lor...but..

Dam streamyx! Dam dam dam!!

Nvm, part 2 :p

Later ppl say i don update again...x.x

UPDATE LIAO! =x

Hmmm..update?

Finally after 3 days of opening my blogger site..im finally posting..
Funny to suddenly think abt it..but i only manage to update when audi is down...
And guess what?
Its down...lol ._.

And also due to the fact that my life is so monotonous

that i can actually blog 2 weeks of stuff in one post

and still have the need to find things to talk abt..hmm..
Well i guess as i blogged in my last post, been spending sleepless nites,

and also stopped eating x.x
There was one time i actually audied till it was time to work =x
One week = less than 10hrs sleep
One day while walking back from work, had to smoke a cpl of ciggies so i didnt faint lol..
I like my walks, though it takes me roughly abt 1/2hrs to reach the lrt station..still..lol
Gives me time to think, to destress :)
Every day i think of wat i shd post abt..

and now when i think back, everyday is the same leh..
juz add here n there nia zzzz
(ah fug, trail of thoughts derailed with ppl spamming my msn =3)

Stopped eating?

Ya..didnt eat for 2 days..this time really fainted ._.

Hmmm..

Think im having tendencies to torture myself..bian tai le? Maybe..

The bad thing out of this? MY BOOBS ARE SHRINKING!! fug..T_T

Anyway been as said earlier..been audi'ing..alot..too much i think x.x

Until im lvl'ing 2 weeks after my last lic..and mind u i cant really play on lappy

And i only do 5 moves and stop..Point proven..ima sort of sick of audi? x.x

So finally...my beloved anoili is a KING!! o.o

Also been playin PetSociety..lol..actually if no money i wont play de =x

So thankx baby xmm fr playin for me :p

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Well another chapter of my life is ending...supposed to end last week but

delayed it abit more...juz in case..

But then..ive sorta given up? And my heart is not there anymore..

All i knw is i will miss alot of ppl..

Time to move on :)

Omg la..this post is really ridiculous...so many days to finish x.x

There were also suggestions on wat i shd blog ._.

So here they are..suggestions from my loves..lol >.>

From baby xmm:

Dear blog, I've been fumbling with my words and finally salvation came in the form of baby..

From jf:

Dear shyt, i shyt ard today please clear my shytty shyt..

Sign off ; the one who shyts

Lol..fuggot ._.

Somehow there's this feeling that ive left out something..and i will kik myself after ive posted this.

But if i dont, i knw i will nvr remember wat it was..zz

So shall post this and fug myself later =x

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Somehow i cant tell which is worse anymore..

To live in regret in the choices i made..

or

To live in doubt of the ones i didnt..

x.x

For the past 48hrs, my sleep has nt surpassed 3hrs..

Bladi tired, almost fainted coming home lol..

Still.. alot of things on my mind

Played audi for 9hrs str8 last nite till abt 4am

Went hm and laid for 2 hrs and went to work..

Still it didnt help much..

Felt angry and disappointed at someone i considered a very good fren..

So mad im hurting myself?

Maybe..

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"Coz u left me, juz when i needed u the most.."